Discussed dominating a person, long distance and close to home.
argued because I took sleeping pills @ 7 AM and slept soo late and still felt mean
munch. d and toy. april social
majors house argued some - called sex card
stay at home next time (car ride) regretted sex card
called sex card, ate food... played hit head took back sex card
took allergy meds, noticed bed is dandruffy, took pain pills for head (Master's orders)
laid down in bed, Master used super-persuasive powers to make me horny
called me bad, made me earn good girl (fuck worthy) status by blowjob, and gagging, and swallowing juices, but not cum, strangled me, talked amazing and dirty too, fingered me, p and a, p hurt, fingered a 3 fingers, got condom, almost put on, found out i wanted anal, played with me some more, put orange toy in my mouth, p sex, put orange toy in my butt, pussy sex, too, it hurts it hurts... "I know- that's what I want, I like it to hurt you" felt sooo good to hear Him say that, swapped positions, onto my knees. Tried to take away glass toy,
said pull my nipples, backed onto penis :D sucked on glass toy while doggy style anal, susy is Master Daddy's butt-slut, Master told susy she was out, she was trying not to be cuz she was scared... switched positions, susy's legs hurt so bad they cramped up, and so i got on ym back, and anal that way, Daddy made me cum, and I said don't stop don't stop I like it, and I was through cumming and Daddy cummed too... and then He tried to keep going for me but I was done. he pulled out and we laid there for a long time and just huggeed and cuddled and rubbed each other in a nice comfy way, almost fell asleep, Master said was Andy, shower room, Sydney out, shower, lovey happy sexy promise I stay out if you do... fell into bed, was almost asleep and Master was thirsty, then he wanted back rubs, gladly gave it, we talked about .. idk.. and talked about rules modifications, and God and what we wanted from each other and our lives, and about my finishing things I start post, Master told me to do a story I would finish by Saturday today, and we talked a lot. I prayed while He was getting His thirsty drink in the kitchen, and thanked God for my mommy mentor (majors mommy) because I know she helped point out what I needed to do, which is what I needed all along to change. Then he came back and we talked more and then prayed before bed. I fell asleep but He never did.
I woke up "stupid ladybug!" He said...
we walked the dogs together, penny bloodied my lip a bit, accident, went to the store to get stuff, talked to AP in walmart about a job, came home, all the while happy with each other, loving and excited about how we're going to change our lives, going to go to church etc. I have to ask my little brother to call and wake me up Sunday morning. got nice soap from $ tree for the bathroom, smells like apples, did Bible study with Master, talked about it, got a bit confused... John chapter One (He goes on tangents) discussed mostly verse 11-13 about how we're welcome to be a part of His family if we only believe we are given that right.
Master is very tired, I pray that He has a good day and makes it home safely tonight. (5pm)
We have to take back movies tonight too. after our family revival I don't want to watch deathrace2.
I have to go eat breakfast now like I promised Master I would.
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I don't know at what point it happened last night, but Master and I were completely at peace with one another and have been since, as well. It's like we're in love from the beginning all over again. We've been hugging and kissing and just can't get enough of each other. It's driving me mad how much I love Him, and I wonder if I really do love Him more now that I did when I woke up yesterday... He's asleep right now, He was so tired when he got home from work. But what is really important to me is that I share how alive we felt. We confessed to each other, and we just talked like we haven't done since we were in different states on the phone with each other, trying to memorize the other person like we'd never see them again. I don't know any other way to describe that feeling but that is what I want to preserve more than anything about yesterday and today. It was after and during the sex, the best anal I've had in forever.. and I felt comfortable, and LOVED calling Him daddy.. I usually feel silly when I say it, but it just sounded so perfect while we were having sex.
Sometimes the word Master feels odd in my mouth as well. I think it has for a long time, but I know it didn't always feel that way. It felt natural today when I brought Him food before He headed off to bed. To get His attention, I said, "Master?" and it fit. It wasn't me saying it to show Him how much I adore Him, it was me saying it because He is after all, my Master, and I needed His attention. This is another change in me.
Also, I folded a ton of laundry today. my goal was to fold all of it, but there were several other things that I had to complete today, so I don't mind, and I'll work on it some more tomorrow. Master said He'd help me with the dishes tomorrow as well.
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