Tuesday March 22
matt's house
home late
good sex, can't remember much about it lol
rape fantasy
shower then sex, last condom, master raped me :D
I wrote a rape fantasy on fetlife to help out a friend who is new to rape play last night, shared it with Master today. Told him on the way home that I wanted to play and do a rape scene, but then i could never make up my mind. after our shower, he took me by my hair and dragged me into the bedroom. He fingered me, and then made me lick my fingers clean. over and over. then he stuck his dick in me and made me suck it clean. he did this at least twice and I was in heaven by the time he finally put a condom on and fucked me.
Wednesday March 23
mall shopping
car rubbed legs
Anal, Lauren amazing... sleep susy emily danny
he pulled Danny and the talked about fucking different people I think, and he wanted Lauren, so he got Emily to take it going in at first, gave some stimulation to the tits, and then called Lauren, who orgasmed multiple times and really loved it even though it was painful to Emily. she was flying and didn't even have to masturbate to get to sleep. she kept begging him not to cum, and finally he had to, and he cummed a huge amount. it was really really good. i think there was a shower after, but Lauren was pretty much high, so I don't really remember.
Thursday March 24
walmart card back -- We went to the C-local WalMart to put money in the bank to pay the bill, and while there, I talked to a lady to ask if they had found a walmart gift card since i lost it ($82) (he lost it, not me, but I told them I did because I didn't want to blame it on my husband) . after about an hour of back and forth on the phone with the T-local walmart, they were able to get the number and give us a gift card and cancel the other one.
flea market ---Then we went to the flea market. We bought a cup of coffee, a bag of peanuts, some sunflower seeds, some gum, 3 churritos, a bag of onions, 3 bell peppers, 3 pints of strawberries, and $3 of energy/protein bars for me. to snack on. we argued with some people about video game prices.
matt's house --- we went, we stayed from 2pm to 10:30. By the time we left I was in a very bad mood, felt ignored and unloved and let him know it.
He hushed me. I didn't want to talk to him anyway, but I was soo mad. I didn't feel like I deserved to get hushed after I'd put up with being ignored for 8 hours. Oh yeah, because I was a douche, matt was supposed to be allowed to spank me, and he never took Master up on the offer, so I had been dreading it the whole time and was pissed off that he led me on and didn't deliver. I basically ignored both of them the last hour we were at his house. I wanted to be played with and etc and I was completely ignored and bored.
walmart /fight --- Instead of driving us home, Master went to walmart. I was pissed off but not surprised. He wanted to buy crap, I figured condoms or something, and went in with him, but separate from him. He found me after a few minutes and asked me to basically do his shopping for him because he couldn't remember what we needed for spaghetti sauce. I told him it was his own damn fault for forgetting and that I would wait in the car. He said something nasty to me, and I took off my ankle bracelet, that I had told him many times while at matt's house had been hurting my ankle all day. (he says i only told him once, i still say i told him 3 times minimum just while at matt's) I threw it on the ground in front of him and turned to walk to the car. he followed me and told me to go back and get it, that he wasn't going to get it. that i'd regret it. He called me a spoiled brat in walmart, yelled it across the store. I was so angry, humiliated and pissed off. we argued in the car and I threw his hat out the window twice, it got ran over the second time and he kept grabbing me by my hair cuz he thought i was trying to get out of the car. then I got out when he stopped to get his hat the 2nd time and I went in to walmart. he told me to call when I wanted him to come get me. I wandered around walmart for a really long time. I finally decided to go home. I went outside and he was asleep in the car, waiting on me. I woke him up, made him give me the gift card and went inside and bought myself a pair of panties, and candy bought her daddy a cookies and cream candy bar. he drove me home, and we half argued half talked hte whole way.
home / argue it out etc -- we talked about what we'd do when we got home and stuff on the way, and decided we'd go to bed pissed and still sleep in the same bed.
Raped my husband
anal sex /punishment
shower
bible study
sleep
Today, Friday March 25
I had some weird dreams, but a really good one that made me crave chocolate covered marshmallows for a while. We're just husband and wife today, the stress of everything that happened last night is just too much to add in that extra dynamic, at least right now. He's at work, but we went shopping together and got along great! I think we're both just so relieved that the arguing is over that we just had to sigh and smile.
It's weird, I didn't really feel clingy before, but I wish He was here now so that I could snuggle, or even just hold his hand. It was like everything was normal for a while, but thinking back I just want to cling to my husband, I love him so much!
I had a bad dream last night, and he rolled over and held me, and I fell back asleep almost instantly, and then had a dream with amazing potential! I was at McD's and was ordering the best ever ice cream McFlurry thing but more like a blizzard with choc chips, brownie pieces fudge bits, choc covered marshmallows and other things i cant remember in choc ice cream, and just as I was about to eat it!!!!!!! i woke up.
we bought $80 of stuff at walmart, used the long lost gift card that was replaced yesterday, and ...blah blah blah... groceries, grilled cheese sandwiches, and, condoms.
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