understanding the lightbulb

I didn't really get what he meant by types and shadows, until he said something that translated to me as "water equals spirit" and the next thing I know, I'm crying. I'm angry and frustrated, and my mind is going a thousand miles an hour through everything I've read over the past few days, or things that have only been referenced, or things that aren't even really Biblical, but still apply to what he said. And I was so angry, because I'm wearing my collar, and crying, and he made me look at him, and I didn't want to. I obeyed, because I had given him my word that I would, but I didn't want to at all. And all I could think about was that I would never be able to explain this to my Nana, that she wouldn't be able to learn this at all, and.. and I wondered if my dad knew it, or would even really get it, if he would think it was neat or cool or if he would think it was just something people made up to make the Bible seem smarter or something...

I didn't understand what he was saying about God blessing the land and the water and Jesus saying that it wouldn't be every once in a while until he said that water is sometimes a symbol of spirit ... and then an everlasting well inside someone instead of going to church to have someone else bring you the water made so much sense, and it was so hard to comprehend, but so simple.

I didn't want to admit that I'd never learned it before, it made me angry, it made me feel ignorant and stupid...

He said even if I had learned types and shadows in high school I still wouldn't have caught up to him, but !!1 then, every time he said something, it would still have gone through that water-spirit filter in my head and I wouldn't have said anything ignorant or asked stupid questions, you know?

I kept feeling like he saw something I didn't in everything we read but I didn't know what it was... now I do. I'm really excited, actually, because now we have things to talk about together, and I can point things out too, even if he's already seen it.

And like he said, we learned something new about each other today.

Today was John Chapter 4, the woman at the well. We didn't even make it through the whole chapter, because of what I learned.. I guess we'll finish it tomorrow.


I really wanted to go and look up "types and shadows in the Bible" as soon as he left so that I could surprise Him, but then I realized that I'd much much rather learn it with Him as He taught it to me. :)