March 11 10:40 PM, Master arrives at home and finds me in the bedroom, on my hands an knees, naked, with the glass plug in my ass and a bit gag in my mouth. I had on color-stay lipstick, dark, and pale lipstick, ith blush high on my cheeks, so that it looked very nice with the bit gag. I had the webcam on us. He didn't want any pictures with Him in it, so I didn't take any. When looking at the pics, He called me a camera whore, but I replied that I only take the pictures because I know they please Him.
ADD (MODEST) PICTURE (update: there wasn't one.)
After the sex, we both felt amazing. I really enjoyed it, even more than I thought i would. It didn't even hurt when he shoved his cock into my ass.
Afterward, I mentioned that there was still time to go over to major's house to spend the night if he really wanted to. He agreed, and so we called major, got into the shower, and headed over there. I felt amazing the whole night. I was a little out of it, but I remember really enjoying myself. I blame it on the orgasm, not that I took painkiller before we had sex.
March 12, saturday
We went to the flea market with major, and bought a guitar ($75 plus $10 stand). We also bought 6 oranges ($1), 30 beef jerky sticks ($5) 3 bags of sunflower seeds ($1), 3 bags of pretzels and a chocolate bar ($1), 2 king size kit kat bars and a tin of breath mints (later to be discovered nasty halls throat drops) ($1), a papaya ($2), 2 pints of strawberries ($3) and 2 medium drinks (around $3). It was a lot of fun. Oh yeah and we bought a book ADD PICTURE
We went back to major's house for a short while, his parents invited us to dinner (they were grilling out) and we declined, as Master had to work later that afternoon.
We went home, so that Master could get ready for work (5-10pm) and we could do our bible study before He had to go. I tried the papaya (not nearly as good as the one at the flea market), He played the guitar, and we read the Bible (i forget what chapter) and then he laid down to rest for 30 minutes before work.
The the seizures started. they lasted for about an hour, a bunch of small ones, and he had a bad headache. I think He may have had more of a headache then seizures, as He kept going unconscious, and then startling awake, after which he would almost begin to cry because His head hurt so bad, and before I could bring Him pills He would be unconscious again. I finally got Him to take His pills and during the time he was lucid (conscious) would question Him about work. (It was almost time for Him to leave, around 4PM) He would say he had to go to work, and then pass out again. I finally convinced him that I would talk to his boss, and tell him that he had a seizure and wasn't able to drive to work. (If he tried to drive to work when he wasn't able to stay conscious for more than 2 minutes at a time, he would have had a wreck and still not made it in to work)
After sending the message, I asked him to let me try making him aroused to help the seizures. It had worked before, and normally he told me no, because he was hurting too badly. I begged and He allowed me to try. I succeeded, and His headache went from high on the pain scale to a manageable 2. After this we had sex. Anal again. We moved from the formal living room to the bedroom. After the sex, we discussed what to do, as He was already late for work, and had called in sick.
We went to major's house for dinner, taking Julie puppy with us. The food was amazing, and they want to borrow the puppy now. Well, we told them we're trying to find a home for her, and they would like to take her for a few weeks to see if they will be able to keep her.
We went home saturday night at midnight, so that i could go to church with my dad and little brother on sunday. Master had work scheduled for 9am-2pm on sunday and was going to drop me off at their house so that I could go even though we couldn't go together.
We decided to give up eating out for lent, so that when we thought about it, we would think about God and our love for Him and His love for us. Master doesn't strictly believe in let, so He's doing it to help me. I guess I don't know the entire reasoning behind it, so I'd like to ask Him to explain about it a little bit when He has the time to do so.
March 13, Sunday
we woke up late, and I was in a bad mood and acted badly. I finally got out of bed and began getting ready as Master instructed. When I went into the bathroom, I found my silver anklet on the counter and put it on, and Master immediately noticed the improvement in my behavior. When I put it on, I set my mind to obey and be good, because that is my duty to my Master. We left at 8:20, later than we had intended, and arrived at my parents house at 8:40, on time for Master to get to work. as we were leaving the driveway from our house, Master said "God don't let us get behind anyone slow, we've got to go go go" and I laughed and pointed it out to Him that no one had gotten in front of us the whole way from our house to my parents.
10 minutes after He left. He called and asked what time church would be over. 10:30. His work schedule had been changed so that he was to work from 12-5pm that day. He came back and went to church with us. Both of us disagreed somewhat with what the preacher said, but I pointed out that if we totally agreed with it, we wouldn't be discussing or learning anything from it.
I stayed at my parents until He came home from work. I played with Sam, we did a collage and stuff, and went to big lots so that dad could measure a piece of furniture that he wanted to try to make, and we took lunch to mom at work. This was the 2nd time already that I was tempted to go out to eat, since we stopped at McDonald's to get her food. The first time was when we were running late and I wanted to go buy Bojangles and grab a chicken sandwich for breakfast. I forget what we had instead.
I made grilled cheese sandwiches for dinner, for Master, Nana, dad, Sam and myself. They were way better than I remember ever making before, and I was proud of myself. I used 3 different kinds of cheese, sliced American, sliced cheddar, and nacho cheese from a can that dad buys in bulk (its cheaper that way and they go through one can in a month so it doesn't take too long to use it all). I think this was the first time I ever made grilled cheese without burning it. even Nana liked it, and she normally would have said it was too greasy and she didn't want it.
Sam really wanted chicken pot pie, and originally said he wasn't hungry and didn't want any, but I convinced him to eat half of a sandwich (to tell me if it was good or not). Then he came back and said he guessed he would eat the other half of his sandwich... and again "I guess I could eat a second sandwich." It made me really happy.
Nana gave me some tights that are a bit see-through on a strip up the legs, and I wore them later that night for Master. (we ate strawberries) He played the guitar for me while I was in the shower, and then tucked me in to bed (after we sat around and sang and played together about 30 minutes).
He said to me that I wear three collars for Him:
My collar symbolizes that He owns my body.
My anklet symbolizes that He owns my will and spirit, because I willingly wear the anlet to show my submission to Him.
My wedding band symbolizes that He owns my love, I gave it to Him freely when we were married.
The only part of me He doesn't own is my soul. He won't take that because it belongs to God, not that He wouldn't take that too if He could, He said and laughed as He walked out.
I wanted to share this because it touched me deeply, and I love being His. every day we learn more about each other and grow more in our faith and grow closer together. even when I get mad at Him for something stupid.
I slept ok that night, even though He didn't sleep with me. (He wanted to stay up late, so He called his card and slept on the couch, watching tv.)
March 14, Monday
I only woke up 2 times in the night. Once I heard the TV and it was late so I checked on Him, went to the bathroom and went back to bed. The next time, jake came home and talked for a bit loudly with Master before going to bed.
we had planned to go to thrift stores and maybe spend a bit of money, after calling the energy company and explaining that they had made a mistake in their bill sending. Master was feeling a bit submissive, so Vicki took over all morning. It was good, spending time with Timmy and Kyle, seeing them anxious to please me. I gave them things to do and lots of praise. We walked the dogs together, and Penny (the stupid dog) learned how to sit finally. On the way to go pay the bills, we found the previous bill and realized that something was wrong. After speaking with the very rude woman at the power company, we began to realize that maybe it wasn't really a mistake in the power company's billing process. A bill had been sent, but we had not received it, and now we owe two power bills at once to keep our power from getting cut off. We had the money to pay one power bill, but two is too much. I left (vicki) and Emily came out.
I was very upset. I don't want to borrow money from anyone to pay anything but I really don't think we'll have any other choice in the end. We've told Jake what is going on as well and He said he'll see what he can do. I ended up crying and Kyle took over again. We spent the rest of the afternoon taking some things we had been planning on returning at some point back to the stores we'd bought them from. None of the stores gave us cash, but most of the money was credited back to our bank, so in a few days we'll find out how much money we still need to pay the bill (due March 24).
After this, we still had 30 minutes before the thrift stores i wanted to visit closed, so we visited the salvation army and the goodwill store nearest our location. We were near majors house, so we went ahead and came over to visit. I was in a bitchy mood all afternoon, I wanted to hurt and was very numb and sick with the burden of worry. Susy was OK when she came out, because I didn't let her know what was going on, she wouldn't be able to handle it, and it's not something she needs to know about. Master ran her a few times, playing pony with her, and she really enjoyed it. I did I did, i want to be Daddy's pony, and make Him proud adn walk proudly. i cried at first because I thought Daddy would laugh at me, but I really do want to do the high step standing, I just ... I got nervous. Maybe if daddy would ease me into it a little bit and brush my hair and talk to me about being a pony I would be better at it :) I love my daddy very much, he is so good to me and rubbed my pussy after we played for about five minutes. he was worried someone would see us playing.
He wanted to spend the night and I very much did not. He called jake to get him to walked the dogs, and about an hour later I found out that jake wasn't planning no coming home that night either. The dogs would have no one to walk them for 21+ hours. Master used the excuse that he wouldn't have been able to drive home that night anyway. I felt betrayed and lied to. I felt unable to say anything because major was there, and I did not want to question my Master with him around.I was livid, and tried to speak to Him about it when major left to go smoke or something but he was only gone a few minutes and so I only succeeded in letting Master know I was angry. I was extremely upset because He said that he couldn't make it home (midnight) but continued playing borderlands with major until after 4am. Also, before all of this, I had called my sex card for that day, as well as reminded Master that He promised not to stay up late two nights in a row just the night before.
I rolled over and slept (badly) on the couch for a few hours while they played, and when I woke up to something (i forget what) that I replied to with "don't you complain about not getting played with enough" and after getting touched and loved on a bit by my Master, i felt somewhat better and much hornier. I lost my anger and again felt mostly just burdened with the worry about money, and was horny.
I talked to Master about what I had studied in the Bible while they were playing as he fell asleep and after saying our prayer (during which time I began to sob uncontrollably and woke him up because he twitched in his sleep and I thought he was having a seizure) I think God talked to me a little. It was as if He was saying that He was taking away my right to worry about this as if it was a privilege. Master had just told em not to worry and that was what set my mind on this path. God said, your Master takes away your right to speak when you talk badly to Him, doesn't He? Well I have commanded you to give me your burdens, and you aren't so I am removing your privilege of worrying about this. I was able to stop crying, and worrying, and I fell asleep in my Master's arms. I slept soundly until sometime later and then I went to my own bed on the couch and slept there until the next morning.
Today, March 15, Tuesday
We left Major's in time to get home by 12, since that's when jake said that he would be home, and he had arranged today as the day we would hang out together. he never showed up.
On the way home, Vicki came out and spoke with Timmy. He was so excited when I talked to him, he and Kyle switched a few times trying to be out. I told them what I wanted to do to them when we got home, if jake wasn't there waiting. We fulfilled our duties when we got home, cleaned up, started some laundry and got into the shower so that if I wanted to suck on his cock, I would be able to. We began playing in the shower, (Timmy) and he did a very good job turning me on as well. He played with the orange plug in the shower and I fingered him as well. after moving to the bed, he ate me out very thoroughly to my complete satisfaction, and then I allowed him to lick my ass as well while I fucked him with the orange toy.(Kyle) Then we changed positions and I fucked him with the strap-on. When he asked to cum, I made him wait three more minutes before allowing him his release. I kept jacking him off, and fucking him as well, with the vibration turned on. When I allowed him to cum, he came a lot, much more than is typical and it went all over. I was very proud of him, am very proud of him. I don't however, like cum, and went out of the room to get a condom and a warm washcloth for him to clean up with before he fucks me, as I commanded. Timmy started and then it switched to Kyle, and after a few minutes, I asked for Mikkal. I never really got to know Mikkal, as I didn't believe our views would be compatible. The sex was absolutely mind-blowing and afterward he played with my clitoris (It's a dinosaur!) until I was calmer. We fell asleep with his head on my chest and absolutely no blankets on us. I woke up with him trying to move me so that he could get to a pillow, and we rearranged so that we all had blankets, and I had a pillow as well. After he had settled down and closed his eyes, i wiped the drool off of my chest before going to sleep as well.
I woke up at 4pm and walked the dogs and took care of stuff. I wanted to go to a gardening class, but we ended up being too late, Master needed shoes (the dogs ate them while we were asleep) (we got the ugly but comfy ones) and we were hungry I made Timmy a bowl of ice cream, but my little boy was still hungry, so we bought some chicken as well before leaving wal-mart. In the end we went to the library anyway, and I got 5 interesting books and renewed my library card. After, since we don't really have anything else to do until tomorrow morning at 10 AM (Master has a doctor's appt) we came to major's house and ate some really delicious soup that his mother cooked. and then I blogged and Master said that I could play borderlands too a little later! :D
my essay has been delayed two days since I haven't even had a chance to blog for a week, so I guess it will be due tomorrow night. I think I'm going to get a strike because I've pretty much forgotten all my points and arguments since then :( but I will try my best to get it done on time and please my Master. I love Him, after all.
Time to go give Him a big sloppy kiss and let Him know I left up my blog as per my rule 11 for Him to read.
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