I know what I'm talking about, and everyone fucking disagrees with me every single step. I feel like I shouldn't even be a part of the leadership, I should just do all the work to make everything happen the way they want it.

I know I'm fucked up and more combative than normal, but this feels like it's been building a while, and I just don't feel like there's a fair share of work/opinion being given to me.

I know major is making floggers, but it's like 2 hours per flogger. I've got to clean for a fucking week, and they don't listen to me when I try to veto something.

and he keeps making nide remarks that master is ignoring. and still He sides with major and doesn't defend me at all.

and I think it's because I'm out of it. and blah. vicodin.