this party is driving me crazy

everyone is so tense and nervous, and there's so much going on that its hard to be patient, but I have to.

we've been at major's house for almost a week, and it sucks. I mean, I get to sleep in the bed with major (except last night, Master wanted me with Him, He wasn't feeling well)  so it's not on the couch again, or anything, it's just... not home. not my bed, not my shower, not my washing machine.

but I've gotten a shit ton of work done on the party - online and volunteer wise and writen lists and...

we had sex the night before we came to major's. Anal, because we couldn't find the condoms.
Had anal a few days ago, because major was asleep adn we couldn't find his condoms.
I sat on Master's face last night, so we didn't need condoms.

I'm fucking horny. I have had nothing in my vaginal region, only in my ass. I mean, the whole facesitting doesn't count to me, at least, I don't really enjoy oral, i enjoy being rammed by His cock.

We've been talking about having sex with other people. it's a big deal. it's like cucking. except if He wants to use me during or after, He can. Sometimes the idea makes me wet (especially the being double teamed by Master and major, and not knowing who is fucking me) but about 60% of the time, it makes em nervous and anxious and I worry. He really likes the idea of sending me in to major's room to "take care of him". It made Him hard, and that's when he fucked me in the ass. He sent me into major's room to give him a handjob (we're not going to do this until we've all gotten std tests, and I'm on birthcontrol, and Master has to tell me to have sex with major or I won't be able to do it, I'd feel too guilty and nervous and worried.) and major had a bad headache and is getting the flu, so he asked for a raincheck.

I found my anklet. the one I lsot after Master and I had a huge huge fight about it... like 4 months ago. The one where I spent the night in walmart...  the one mentioned here on the 13th   maybe more than  4 months ago, last reference to it was March, and i can't find reference to the argument, I think he asked me not to talk about it on here.  but I'm wearing it now.

Master took away my blogging rule. i miss bloggig every day. I told Him that today, and so I'm blogging under orders to do so.

I mean, think of everything I've missed, an orgasm, the decision to let me have sex with major, finding my anklet silver collar :) buying a new collar (oh I forgot that one didn't i) and some other stuff I'm sure I've forgotten.