recap

Yesterday was the title competition. Jessi left to go home the day before and decided to spend the night there. I was scared out of my wits because I hate public speaking. We had to be at MP's house at 4:30 PM. Major came over the night before, and stayed a little while because there was a huge scary storm and I took pictures and people came by the house and he was going to protect me since Daddy was at work.

So...

Thursday

Jessi class
Jessi leaves
Daddy leaves for work
Essay stuff
STORM -power/internet waivers/pictures taken, dogs and turtle taken downstairs in case of tornado, lots of hail, and heavy rain and scary things
people knock on door while I am downstairs. internet is on, I tell Daddy, He tells major.
major comes over
Daddy comes home.
2AM bedtime.

Friday

7AM wake-up
9AM Daddy @ work, me with all packed bags and make-up, supplies, etc @ K-Mart
9:10 me asleep daddy's car
9:15 Major waky me we go to his house,l I sleep until daddy comes home
11AM daddy home early.
2PM I try to find out when we have to be at MPs house.
4:30 leaving for MP's, hungry. Bounce a check to eat at McD because we're starving.  (no breakfast or lunch)
5PM cop roadblock on the way to MP's, phew no trouble.
At MPs: bad back pain, cramps, fear, nervous.
interview. I felt I did well,  (I find out a crossdresser is running against me for the Ms. Title) and I felt he was disappointed about his interview.
I start bleeding again, heavy.
MP has loads of alcohol out, and I want some very badly. I am nervous.
find out about meet and greet part, where we have to interact with people for points.
6:30 PM Master finally gets to go in for His interview; we're panicking, we're supposed to be at the club to practice our skits by 7 PM and we have to get our clothing from Major's house. Major has already left to pick up Destiny.
7PM Jessi calls, she is at the club. I feel she was snapping at me because we weren't there to meet her. I explain what is going on, and she tells me the I need to tell her what to do now. I ask her to go to Major's house (she'll have to call and get directions I can't get her there from the club) and meet us there because we need to pick up our clothes. she huffs and fusses and after we get off the phone she sends a text that she's just going to wait at the club until we get there.
7:30 leaving MP's house, meeting major at his house with Destiny, and so on - can't get them out the fucking door and I'm starting to get pissed off.
8PM we show up at the club. I put on my make-up in the car.
Take everything downstairs, and then go back up to socialize, after issues with Jessi's purse.
Socialize for two fucking hours. I think I drank like 3 bottles of water. I was so thirsty, and the first water was $2.50 fucking ridiculous. After that, until after they found out I didn't win, someone brought me waters every time I finished one.
One of the judges kept touching me and it made me uncomfortable, but I let it slide because it wasn't especially inappropriate and I didn't want to fuck my chances.
I had to introduce myself (after being introduced.. ?) and I was so nervous I shook and my knees knocked together.
Then came the speeches, Master went first - I wish I could have heard it, but they were keeping us downstairs after the socializing. Then they told me I would get more points if I were to stay onstage with Him while He read my speech. I did it, even though I was terrified.
Then hotwear / pop questions. Master's clothing didn't get packed like what He wanted, His shirt had a stain, so He improvised.
My question was on how we handle flaming, and I said it's not tolerated, and talked about that.
Then the skits. My favorite part. I had so much fun, and I really didn't think that I would at first, but I did end up enjoying it once I was on the stage.
Master's was like a virtual reality pick your girl program.
Mine was me pushing Him around stage, and then He drank an alice in wonderland elixir, and turned into my Master again. When he put me in Position one the last time, the song ended. It was amazingly perfect, and we didn't even get to practice with the song (halestorm - i get off) -Also, my latch on my leather pants popped off when I went from Position Two to Position Four.
there was a brief break after, because they were counting the votes. I lost by four points. I want a copy of my notes to see what the judges said about me, and why I must have had such low marks that he beat me when he didn't even come up during the entire socializing part.

MP came downstairs to tell me I didn't win and that she wasn't going to put me through that onstage.
It took so much effort not to cry when Master pulled me onstage after they announced the guy as Ms. Leatherfet.  And I had to smile for pictures and such.

Jessi drove to MPs house. We snapped at each other. Well, I snapped at her. I had really been counting on her top be there and support me, and she was upset, frowning, and sitting in a corner the whole time, away from people. (An so I couldn't even go to her, because I was supposed to be socializing, and I was even being judges on how I interacted with people for the whole night)

I was so uncomfortable. the Ms titleholder didn't even show up. one of the judges yelled out drunkenly that she'd never had tits until after she got an abortion, Major and Destiny were snuggling all close because major's ex-gf and her manslut were there. Master took Jessi outside to speak with her privately, because He was going to tell her thanks for the sandwich, and she hid her texting from Him because she was embarrassed to be caught saying what she was saying at the time. So I was left alone with the scary people who were also drunk... and it got loud and my head hurt, and my back hurt, and I was so angry and upset over losing to a guy as well as at jessi and also listening to Master talk about how I should have won it (which I agreed with but it was making me want to cry)  I knew that I shouldn't drink, but I wanted to, so I took Master's things, and went outside ("it's warmer out here") and got eyeballed by MPs drunk neighbors.

and then Master tells me that Jessi wants to leave service. because she can't handle this crap any longer.
I almost lost it. I was so upset, and confused and hurt.

Susy was even more confused. She picked up the only purple straw from MPs house and took it, and gave it to jessi, because she wanted jessi to be happy again and not go away. she doesn't understand what's going on, really.

He said we were staying at Major's house and going home with him. I agreed, because I thought I might get some pain out of it. No dice.

Saturday (today)

We're at majors.
I didn't go to bed until 6AM this morning, and I woke up at 11 AM.
I've been trying to get home all day, and Master keeps delaying. Now we're staying the night here (Again). I'm pretty upset about that, actually. He works tomorrow, and I'd really wanted to scene to get my nerves and emotions back in check. Now I don't know when I'll have another chance at that. Also, I didn't want to leave Jessi at the house alone. I am worried about her.

However, we did have to stay here today because He has been calling the club all day. he lost His wallet last night, adn only got the phone call that they'd found it at 10PM. It was 11:30 by the time we got back to Major's and Master didn't want to drive back so late, also the gas stations would be closed.

We went to the wal-mart to close His card, because we thought a drag queen had taken His wallet. After cashing the check, we went out to eat. I was worried about money, but our waitress was really cool, and the food was so good, it made me not worry. I guess that was my consolation prize, going out to eat. He put me in Position Five in the restaurant, only just for a second, but it lifted so much weight off me when He did I couldn't believe it.



I think I'm almost completely off my period now, so that's awesome. My emotions are still a bit rocky, but I'm able to control them a lot better than I was before.