another update from today

I really want to scene today.
Master and Major are playing borderlands.
Jessi wants to cut, and so do I.

I keep stopping myself from acting out to get pain. I want pain, but I don't want to misbehave to get it.

I'm thinking of an extreme scene of some sort. Breath play, intense pain, interrogation, mind fucks, I don't know.

I want to be mindless and used and only around to make someone happy. to be chained, used, and left until he wants to hurt or use me... I want to be abused and mistreated lovingly, like You do.