tomorrow is the 27th. Danny's been half/out a lot lately, which has really made me look a lot like a bitch. maybe since it's his day, he'll show up. It'd be nice, as Danny really hasn't been out lately at all. I mean, it's not really a "it would be nice" kind of feeling, but it does feel weird when he's not out for a really long time. I keep getting the sadistic urges and it's frustrating to handle it as a masochist. With Danny around, I can get back to being myself, and getting some erotica or DP poetry done.

So our meet and greet had no one show up today, and that kind of sucked. a member of a group of people who hate us showed up just as we were leaving, and her kids were with her. Master waved hi, but didn't approach.

major's mom made the best food ever. and we had salad, too. and rolls. I've really missed butter.

He spoke with Jessi this morning, and after that it seemed like she perked up a little.

she was the only one who didn't finish her food at dinner. I had 2 servings of salad, and dinner. Daddy got 2 servings of the potatoes and ham and cheese.  and jessi didn't get 2nds of anything, and didn't eat the ham or tomatoes and her plate was still half-full when everyone else was finally done. At the beginning of the meal, she made a point to say that she was really hungry, but she ate the least of anyone there.

He asked me to get her the chicken/fries from last night for her to eat, but I asked if it could wait a few minutes, and since then He hasn't told me to go get it, so I didn't, but I'm really worried about Jessi actually eating when she's hungry. she had a nutella sandwich and some popcorn earlier, and everyone else had 2 servings of oatmeal each for breakfast.

I lost control of my temper today over Him not noticing that Vicki was out, and then hit majors car with my hand because he moved it when I was trying to get in. I got stuck in Five outside beside his car because of it. I think it was because He complimented my appearance but didn't notice that Vicki was out, which pissed me off really badly.  I wanted to ask for rule 3 to be disbanded because I didn't feel like He appreciated the effort I put into my appearance.