New Threat

Daddy has a new personality. It has been hurting Timmy and I hate that. He wasn't feeling well, had an actual fever, and went to bed shortly before work two days ago. I followed when I realized He'd left the room, and stayed with Him until it was time to get up. I rubbed His head for almost and hour, and with ten minutes left until He needed to get up, I fell asleep. Luckily I wasn't sleeping well then, either, or He would have been LATE. at 4:10, I woke up (10 minutes after I told Him I'd wake Him up) and got Him up as well. Told Him we had ten minutes to get out of the house if He wanted me to go to my mom's house and stay their in case He was able to get off work (He had a fever and they'd have sent Him home if they knew) but I ended up at mom's from 5 until 10 when He got off work. On the way to mom's house He was all blah and flat and His voice was toneless with no emotion. I was worried, He looked really sick, and wouldn't' tell me what hurt or anything. Just that His head and stomach hurt. On the way home that night, He admitted that there is a new personality, and it's been hurting Timmy.He was surprised that I understood and wasn't angry with Him.

I didn't sleep at first, trying to stay awake all night in case it decided to cause trouble. I knew nothing about this new person, except that he hurts Timmy, and that they can't see him to catch him. So I slept very lightly, and must have rolled over and checked on Him in the dark at least 20 times that night. Not to mention about 10 more after the sun came up and before we got out of bed.

Timmy came out, and we had some time together before it woke up and tried to tell Timmy what to do. Timmy stood up for Himself and wore what clothes He wanted. Then He left and we were talking about how proud we were of Him. "He's got stones, I must admit... Balls for days, that one." and then he said "Goodbye" and walked out of the bathroom. and instantly I knew it hadn't been Kyle. I called for him to wait, and he stopped, and switched just as I wrapped my arms around his back to hug him. And then Kyle came out. and He was sad and slow and nervous, and didn't want me in between Him and the bathroom door, said it felt like I was trapping Him in.... and it was a crushing feeling. The person before had been in such a good mood and light of step and cheerful. and it hadn't been my Master. which meant he had something bad planned, and I was afraid. Mikkal stayed out after that, the whole way to mom's house. (Mom had decided that Thursday was the day she wanted mothers day since she works Sunday) and then I was to babysit my brother.

it came to pick me up after 10, and was in my parents house. I got him something to drink, the body is still my Master's and I didn't want Him thirsty when He did come back. I knew right away who it was, because as soon as he came in, Susy ran to him and hugged him and told him she loved him... and he gave a guilty start, and kind of grunted a reply. I showed him my painting, and sams, and we got ready to leave and stuff... he tried to taunt me, asked if I'd had fun and such, I said Not as much as he'd had, to be sure. he said he'd let them tell me, that I'd hear plenty about it later. and from then on, he pretty much ignored everything I said. he didn't expose me to my parents, he didn't speed or panic when he saw the cop, he drives with both hands, he drives different that They do, but not badly. There were several idiots on the road, one swerving, and one who hit the breaks right in front of us. I still wanted to hold his hand, because it was still my Master's body, and there's no one else I can talk to about it, no one else I can seek comfort from... and I was upset and a bit worried. When I turned on the music I heard him yawn, and then I looked over to see if he was doing something or whatever, and he was gone. No one was there, Master was empty. His head was tilted back, eyes almost closed, and His mouth was hanging open. It took me several minutes to get Him to hear me, and realize He was driving. I managed to pull Andrew, I'd been calling Mikkal. We had a discussion, and decided to go to majors house. I took a shower while He fixed the internet, and then we ate and drove back to hickory with clothes. On the way, Timmy came out to talk, but he was hurting Him. it was talking through Timmy, and hurting Him when He told me He loves me. Timmy didn't fight him at work. He said it wasn't anything important, but that he punished Him for earlier, when He'd pushed him away. Timmy almost ha a seizure from the stress of it, and I told him to either switch out all the way or give me someone else and give Timmy a break. Mikkal came out. He said He can see him now. and Since He can see him, He can catch him. Mikkal said He thinks that he doesn't know how to act, that he would be safe to come out if he'd stop hurting Timmy. even though I "bore him" because I didn't react in fear when he talked to me the first time. I've been through this with too many personalities before him to be afraid. so I don't see why he'd want out anyhow, if he's bored.

Haven't seen him sice we got to major's, but I hate major's couch and haven't slept well there either. I got to kiss Timmy bye, but only biefly before He had to go to work. we had chik-fil-a for breakfast. I miss my Master so much.  He'll be off work in two hours. I'm taking a nap so I'll be fresh when He gets here. \

<3 Daddy