lying bitches

"After all, everyone knows slaves can't be trusted to tell the truth."
---Rachel Lee

I really did say I wanted Major to punish me, Daddy. It just slipped out though, cuz she was driving me crazy! I love her so much, and we love driving each other crazy, at least I hope she thinks it's fun, too.

Jessi seems so bored, but really she's sad, and can't get her head out of her memories and stuff. I wish I could help her and do something to make her smile, but I really don't know what to say to make her feel better. 

Vicki took her downstairs, and we made her laugh over and over but that got old quick when the boys didn't help or really respond much, the whole point was to make them jealous and want to play with us, but they don't play as much as we want. We made lots of silly sex/scene noises, and they didn't even stop talking to listen. Kyle and Timmy weren't being very respectful to me, they were impatient and selfish and it really upset me. How am I supposed to be dominant around Jessi and then have it be ignored and disregarded by everyone else? No wonder no one respects me, the way he put me down. And then Timmy freaked when I tried to tell him I was leaving. I don't have any clue how to handle that.

when she hurts and there's nothing I can do to help her, it makes me feel so helpless.I never know what to tell her.

Daddy and I talked about some stuff about Jessi that she can't read, because if she does it will ruin it, and I want it to be a surprise when it happens. Not a bad one, no worrying!

Major spanked me but it didn't hurt, and then he stopped. He said he was going to do it when Master got home, and then didn't, because Master wanted to play borderlands. They turned that on almost right away, and have been playing since.... the past 4 hours. Meaning nothing is going to happen tonight... again. I still haven't even got laid since the scene with Major. And..... no being beat til I red, either. which was a joke on my part in the first place, but it seems funny that I can get out of it so easily. If I knew that it was so easy to get out of being punished, I don't guess I'd ever behave.

Oh yeah. Master said no letting Major read my blog, that I should have been more careful in the first place. It's only for Him, and He doesn't want my writing to be influenced by what other people might read.