Maintenance later today 7/15

 9:28 AM Saturday 7/15 

Maintenance later today 

Last night as he was talking me, and I brought up how overwhelmed and beaten down I’ve been feeling.

He said this was the thing he wanted me to bring up with my doctor, this feeling of never getting anything done, and being overwhelmed, and being so hard on myself, I guess, I don’t know exactly which thing. 

I told him it was normal for me to feel how I do because of how many things were on my list. (Feeling like I matter what I do it’s never enough, it never lessens the list any, and that I’m not only fighting as hard as I can to complete the things every day. I’m fighting myself to be able to do the things I need to do) 

He said either I can try to do all the things and mess up and be ok that not everything is perfect, or we can stop trying to do so many things and try to lessen the load (put some things down) and do a manageable amount of things.  

But that I have to stop letting it get to me, stop being so stressed by it. 

We are doing maintenance today. To talk about what all the things are. That I’m carrying and worrying about.

Written 7/15, posted 7/24