December letters, 2018

 Found this on Google Docs. saved as "December Letters, 2018"

Dec 1 Sat

And my loving husband who hasn’t see me naked for 2 weeks somehow knows I haven’t shaved. You’re so fucking annoying when you’re right. I love you baby, will try to shave today so you can not look at my room once it’s clean 😝

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I hope that your day goes smoothly today. I hope that you keep working on your kitchen speed and keep expediting to help out the cook who needs help prioritizing. I hope that you keep building that customer base and that you don’t have any walk-outs today. You’ve already made the restaurant clean as new and that’s something to be buttshiningly proud of. I tried my sleepy Buddha tea and it is delicious. Thank you for buying me a tea box, I’m really enjoying it so far! You are so strong. You’ve been holding me up and working your butt off all week. I can’t wait for you to see all your hard work come to fruition, with game day, and with the store. You’re a hard worker and you are putting in the time. The store will show the work you’re putting into it. I miss your smile already! I’ll see you tonight!

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I just wanted to thank you again for stepping in yesterday and giving me a goal and something to do. I was so lost yesterday and so knee-deep in the pit that I think I would have just gone to bed or sat and played zombies until I was tired and then went to bed. And I completed my task yesterday. It took all the strength I had, and all the time you were gone and it was SO HARD to keep going, but I did it, and I did it for you.  And I was thinking about how they say accomplishment isn’t doing something easily, it’s just doing it. It doesn’t matter how much of a struggle it is, as long as it’s done. And baby, I am proud of what I did yesterday because of your guidance. I wouldn’t have eaten if you hadn’t told me I had to eat. I was tired and I was hungry sick but even while I was in the kitchen pushing myself to make food I felt like it was too big of a task and I couldn’t do it. I never would have done that without you. I would have coasted and maybe eaten a handful of cereal again for dinner instead of a hot meal. I love you and you have absolutely saved me over and over this week. Thank you. Thank you so much, Master.

Dec 7

I love you. You are invested. You are willing to put in everything you have into trying to make your restaurant work. I know you keep glossing over when I say that, but you are the one who is going to care for that place. The manager doesn’t care like you do. You may not be the top ranking manager but you are the heart of that place. If you keep doing what you are doing, your determination and spirit will be encouraging and help everyone else work to make it better, too.  You’re good at what you do. I know you’re tired, but you’ll get there!

And I think you know same as I do if you could have fixed this store in a week it wouldn’t have been enough of a challenge ♥️

Hope your night is going well. And quickly. And productively.

Dec 8 Sat

Hello my love.
Today is so cold and dreary, and it may be snowing before you get through with work tonight. I know you’re tired from the 15 hours you worked last night, and you’ve been working so hard at work and at home. You are absolutely DOING the thing. And ACCOMPLISHING shit. And you are my heart. I am proud of you every day. I am grateful to you every day. You are good to me and patient and loving. And your hair looks good. (I know you don’t believe me but every time I see you all dressed up I want to do the dirtiest things with you because you are so handsome and intimidating and it’s the biggest turn on ever because you look confident and in charge.) mmmm. And I love you and want you to take care and stay safe at work and on your drives today. If you can’t make it home, do what you need to do to stay safe. I hope your day is productive today and that you break more store sales expectations again! Have fun if you can!

Dec 11

Hey. I just wanted you to know that I think a lot about how hard I was on you when you were depressed, and I’m sorry. I love you, and I’m blown away with how good you’ve been to me through this struggle. You haven’t been frustrated or pushed me too hard or been angry when I can’t do what I consider to be the minimum. I remember how much I pushed you and I’m so sorry, and I love you so much.

Husband.
You have beautiful hair. I love running my hands through it. I love the way it looks light and cloud like when you’ve just brushed it. I love how the color changes to a little bit of red when you get that look in your eyes.
You have awesome hair. It’s soft and pretty and behaves like hair should.
Love
Your wife.

My love for you is like drama
It never ends.
And while we have our roller coaster days where we are slow and steadily going up, or freefalling, or handling all the twists and turns, it’s an amazing ride that I’m glad I’m sharing with you.
And like a bad pun, sometimes our love makes me facepalm, but then I can’t wait to tell everyone else about it.
Like any adventurer, you need a good portable hole, and I’m so glad to be yours.

Dec 15

I love you. I dreamed you kissed me.

I love you and I support you! You are my favorite star. You shine all the time even when I can’t see it. And I think about you all the time.

Dec 18

Hello love.
You are doing your best. You are doing a good job. You are good enough. I know you are working hard, and I know you are putting in the effort. I need you to trust that if you put in the time and effort and love that it will be ok. Easy? Almost never. But OK? Yes.

I am proud of you. And I expect that you respect that from me as much as I do from you. I have impossible standards and you know it so when I say I’m proud of you I mean it.

Dec 19

My husband,
I love you so much!
I’m having trouble thinking of ways to describe how I feel for you today, my words falter, but my heart is with you. I hope you know how much I adore you every single day.

I need you to know that I am always cheering for you when you face tough challenges and that if there is ever any way I can help I’ll be there to try and make it easier in whatever way I can.
You are my champion, hero.
😉
Mystra

Dec 25 (from Husband to wife)

Merry Christmas My Love! I hope you enjoy a nice hot cup of hot chocolate with some more marshmallows on it! I will see you as soon as I can. I am proud of you. You somehow always make even the house we’re in now feel like home and it feels warm and inviting for everyone who comes in. You are the reason I am as “awesome” as you say I am. Without the support I get from you, I would be nothing. Thank you for working hard to prepare for our guests. It makes me look good and proves that I have the worlds best slave! I can’t wait to see you when I get home.

Merry Christmas, Baby. I’m working on it I really want the house to be clean and welcoming for them.  I hope work isn’t the worst tonight

I know you are tired too. I definitely don’t underestimate how tired you are. You’re doing actual work. Earning money. Making our situation livable. Probably not sleeping enough. I mean, the only real positive is I think you’re eating more regularly with work. And probably sleeping more than you used to, even though it’s from sheer exhaustion. I love you. I am super excited for you to come home, even though I keep getting distracted in the middle of stuff I’m supposed to be doing lol. There’s still a lot to do here but I’m also pretty happy with what I’ve done so far.

You are doing a wonderful job. You are handling your business and when you are leading your shift, you do it well. I love you. You are a strong powerful leader, and you aren’t unfair or wispy washy with your decisions. You stick by your standards and raise the bar for everyone you come in contact with. I love you and I’m so glad you are building this up. I’m so proud of the things you are accomplishing. I know it’s tough dirty work but you are building something great one step at a time. Let yourself feel how amazing you are. Be proud of yourself. Stop being humble and just admit you are awesome.

Dec 26

Hope you have a wonderful time chatting with the gent! Good night my love. 

Dec 28

I’m playing Spyro 😀 merry Christmas. (69% lol) 

And drinking my sipsby tea. Thank you for all my Christmas presents babe

About to take a nap. Your pajama pants are on your chair, your charger is by the outlet, with the remote and controller, there’s an extension cord so you can sit closer to the tv. And when you get home I’ll make you some P ice cream.

Bed is made, fan is on, light in bathroom is on.

Dec 29

I feel so absolutely pampered right now.

Cashmere candle, peppermint bark tea with heavy cream in it, playing Spyro, drinking plenty of water, black nail polish on, eating some pumpkin seeds, and printing off chore charts for my gold stars and rhinestone stickers.

Thank you for making all of this possible!

Dec 30

You look confident and handsome today. You are strong and together we will make this work. We will fight our way into a better situation and never ever give up. You are finally starting to see the results of your leadership, and it’s beautiful. You are cultivating capable habits and skills in the people you work with. And loyalty and hard work and team work. I’m proud of you, my love!

🎶 The distant ships blow on the horizon
It’s ok to eat fish
There is no pain you are receiving
Cause they don’t have any feelings
You are only coming through in waves
And the drippings from the ceiling 🎶