Exhausted 7/19

 Wednesday 11:27 AM 7/19/23

Exhausted

Just so tired. I think I’m finally crashing after trying to be there for him every second. I started to get a headache yesterday, and was afraid to tell him. When they gave him meds at the ER, I finally took 2 Tylenol for it. Didn’t help much. 

He went to bed “early” last night. Just before 1 am. 

Fuck I hope he wakes up feeling better today. I don’t know how much longer I can do this, and my period is due any day now. 

Even while he was at the ER I never took any time for me. I meant to, and then he was messaging a lot and I couldn’t go take a shower because I never knew when he was going to message. 

I’m still tired and I just woke up. I don’t have a choice but to keep going, but I don’t know how much longer I can.

Gratitude Journal 

Every time I can’t do it, every time I sit on the floor because I’m dizzy or overwhelmed, Honey is right there. She usually sits on me and faces outward. 

She has a tendency to know exactly when I need her and give me that push to take a second.

(This is the day I dropped my phone in a bucket of water, and turned it off for 24 hours. It was an extremely productive day. And also my Dad's and R's mom's birthday)