Party tonight

Master worked it out so that i can go to the role play educational part of the event tonight before the after-party. I almost regret that, I won't have Jessi there- or Him, and so I'll be tagging along with major, and maybe destiny. (we still don't know if she can go yet or not) Master gave me pain this morning, and I feel a lot better, but still want more. Pain pills are working intermittently at best, I keep getting a headache and stuff like that. It's about time for more. He beat me while in Position Five and Position One... It started off as me being upset with Him... I was angry because He said I always stand around and plan... it's not like I want to make the list of what all has to be done every time, I only do it because I have to, and ... UGH. but it felt like He was calling em lazy, so I walked off, and that's how I ended up in Five. and He turned it from an argument into giving me pain. I actually forgot until now that I was even upset... so it was really nice and helped a lot. I keep remembering that He beat the crap out of my left boob, and want to check, but it's always at the wrong time, and then I forget again.

I randomly started crying at major's- i don't think he realized.. I just got up and left the room for a few minutes until the mood swing (i guess it had to be a mood swing, I wasn't actually upset over anything, I just felt overwhelmingly sad and teary eyed) went away, wiped my eyes, and went back to looking at crappy porn with major. he wanted to show me this video of a chick with an asshole so big they used her as a hole for a gme of putt-putt golf. he never found it, I was kind of relieved.

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Damn, I misspelled "Game"   ... awwww fuck.

So... not being playful is now the norm, I guess.

still want pain. probably will until I'm off my period, because my head hurts, I'm cramping, my back hurts, and my calves are still occasionally twinging in pain. FML especially when nothing helps.

On the bright side, Master had an interview this morning for a job a LOT closer to our house, and they want Him tomorrow for a second interview. I hope He gets the job.
time to go kick back a few more tylenol.