Girl Day

After a pain in the ass list of issues with blogger, I am now blogging about girl day :)

June 29, Wednesday.

So we took care of what we needed to before He left, Jessi took a bath and I swept and mopped so that I could make the living room comfortable to have girl time in. I laid down a blanket and cleaned off the desk and coffee table, and set out lotion, nail polish, a candle and all kinds of stuff for us.

Jessi finished her bath and it was my turn. I got my clothes ready and some lotion and the tweezers and took all that to the bathroom. I cleaned out the bathtub adn moved all the body wash and shampoos out and wiped down the inside of the tub so it would be perfect, and there wouldn't be anything floating in the water or hair or anything. I ran a bath and used the massage oil in the water and Susy added some body wash so there would be bubbles, and lit candles and swept the floor so I wouldn't get dirt on my feet etc and then finally I was ready for my bath. it was so hot!!! I had to drain about half of it and run straight cold water to finaly get it where I wasn't burning myself. I laid down and enjoyed myself, and was fantasizing about something, it was really nice, and then after a while I let my head drift down into the water, because I could hear Jessi, and for some reason the bright idea to stick my head under far enough that I couldn't hear her (no she wasn't bothering me or anything, I just like a little more quiet) just came to me.

So I leaned back farther, and the water covered my ears, and all the sudden I felt like I couldn't breathe, and I was afraid. It triggered me being upset from the waterboarding scene. I had sat up, and now I made myself lay back down, and I went under all the way -twice- to make myself get used to it. All it did was make me feel sick to my stomach. I got up, drained the water, and got out of the shower. Jessi knocked and it was Master on the phone, so I told Him, and that I wanted to go swimming and take care of it once and for all. I love the water, and I don't want to let something take over and change the way I live my life. I'm not going to avoid water, I'm going to confront it. 

back to girl day. I spent about an hour in the bathroom after that, plucking my eyebrows and putting lotion on my sensitive, not-to-show-Jessi bits. I was pretty pleased with my eyebrows. Then we painted our nails and ate popcorn while watching a movie (Fireproof - love! the movie) and then Jessi played video games and I started looking for things to paint. finally found something, and then Master came home. I sketched it a couple of times and was just ready to paint it when I was ready to go to bed. Haven't worked on it anymore since.