Hectic Life Stuff

So the dogs are barking nonstop and won't STFU at all. I think I'm going to kill them soon. Jessi is napping, IDK how she can sleep with them barking, but if I could I would. Just worried I'll stay asleep and not have things ready for Him when He gets home.

I'm so hungry, have been hungry and eating all day on stupid shit.

spent over an hour sending out stupid messages today to my friends list since it's like 5 times longer than jessi's.

I organized my writing, but didn't actually work on any of it.
I'm starting to think that to edit it, I'll have to handwrite it and then retype it, but the thing is so damn long I don't know how long that would take. I'd love to have some sort of rule or standing order about my writing to help me push myself into writing this, but I'm very scared to ask for that. I have a few short ideas for where to go next with the story, but not anything that would even cover a whole chapter. Maybe a set amount of words I have to have done per day, or a set amount of time to work on it per day.. or .. IDK. but I need help, because I haven't been able to force myself to work on it on my own, and the past few days have been perfect conditions to sit back and enjoy working on it. I'd eventually like to be able to tell my mother that I'm doing something productive with my life, instead of her thinking I'm sitting around the house doing nothing but wiping the dust off the coffee table as it settles.

Also, I need a shower before He gets home. I'm not sure it will make a difference to Him, I'm probably going to bed as soon as He gets home, but.. I need one, so general maintenance it is.

Oh, I told Jessi that the paper horse craft has to be done before she leaves for asheville, and that it takes several hours of work to get it done.

I plan on trying to have something nice for Him when He gets home. I don't know what I'll do about food (He's been eating sandwiches at work and at home lately and it's terrible!) and we can't get groceries until Friday. He works Friday. I wish He could have the day off soon after a payday and we could go shopping for once as a family! I hate doing half-ass grocery trips because we're tired or in a hurry.

I'd also like to work on my painting, but even if I do that, it lacks a sense of accomplishment. It's just crappy fetish art.

GRR I'm so stupid depressing today! I don't even want to listen to myself, ptooey! Maybe if I switch I'll feel better.

I read something from a while back about Melissa and Gin that made me smile and made me sad... I miss them, and it's almost like they're not the same people who wrote the story I read... And I'm kind of worried about even trying to pull them.

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ps nova took me off her friends list and left KC.
I'd thought we were friends. I really wanted to meet her.
I sent her a message that said this. It shouldn't upset me as much as it did, since I never really even met her.
Today is just a bad day.

Tomorrow will be better.
Or else.