catch up

So since my last post, I've been to a funeral, given 4 blowjobs (Bed, bathroom, bedroom, major's house), had anal 3 times (basement, major's house, bedroom/Danny), had an orgasm via hitachi (thanks major) and gotten my 22 birthday spankings from Master and Major, and racked up an owed 24 punches from major for looking at the O< sign because major had a hole in his pants that was big enough for a small puppy to fit through and it was very easy to see his underwear, so I kept looking.

Blowjobs:
Got up from snuggling with Major and said "I'm going to go give my Husband a blowjob." As the door closed I heard, "Lucky bastard." I gave Him a blowjob and swallowed His cum and He took pics of me with His cum in my mouth.

After His shower that night, He made Lauren suck his cock again, just for a few minutes because He likes the way it feels. It was her Master, Mikkal, and He slapped her the way she likes, putting her in her comfortable place.

In the basement, the windows were uncovered, and I didn't want to at first, but He pushed me down on my knees and pulled down His pants. He put His shirt over my head and held my head down on His cock, making me take it deep, gagging me over and over again.  This was after the conversation I had with Master where I explained my need to have someone be mean to me still, as the scene ended quickly and I was stuck in that head-space kind of. As He put it, I should have told Him that I needed pain instead of breaking a rule. I didn't realize that was what I was looking for. He said it was ok, He'd keep me in my place. The day after, I found out about my Papa, and I've needed pain since. He didn't cum in me then, because directly after He fucked me... the windows still open. He kept hushing me while I was screaming, and Major and Jessi were upstairs cuddling and heard me. He fucked the hell out of me.

I gave Him a blowjob at Major's house when He was keeping me horny.
He fucked me in the ass bent over Major's couch (I took it without waking Major up at all I was so proud of myself.) and then took me to the bathroom and made fun of me. He told me I was nasty and had gotten shit on His dick. Then He wiped off, and after allowing me to shit as well, I followed. I was so horny, I don't know why, but He called me disgusting and wouldn't allow me to rub myself, but told me to stay horny. He mocked me, and made me rub His legs, and finally allowed me to suck His cock, but not rub myself while doing it. He pushed me down farther on His cock than I've ever gone before. I was able to go down as far as I could because of the waterboarding, it's helped me control my breathing, which is what I always panic about when I go down deep. I almost threw up though, He wouldn't let me up, and wanted me to take it deeper, and I tried to yellow trice but I kept gagging. He threatened to put it away if I didn't go back down on it all the way and I went down to my knees and waited for Him to do that. After over an hour of prolonged keeping me horny and not even letting me touch, He told me He was going to send me in to major's room and have him fuck me, so I'd get some dick, I should be satisfied.  I was horror struck and then He called sydney to find out if He could force me to suck major's dick. It ended up being the hitachi that I had to go and beg major to use it on my pussy. I went and begged as I was instructed and thn laid down on the bed when major said yes. They both held me still (Master told me I'd never get laid if I didn't go beg him for it) and one of them used it on me while the other held me down. I had a pillow over my face because I was so embarrassed. I made a huge wet spot on Major's bed and also screamed myself hoarse. It pulled sydney when I orgasmed and she started crying. Then they held me down and Master fingered me while one of them kept the hitachi on me.

Mikkal made Danny His bitch last night. I don't have a lot of details, but I know it was up the ass, and that Danny got off. The thing that sparked this was that Mikkal asked Danny if she was leaning more toward being male than female. Danny answered that she felt more male around others, but would always be Mikkal's bitch and was female for Him. I know that Danny felt sick after and that having a light on while the fan is on while staring up at your lover after sex is a bad idea for epileptics, "You only do that when the sex was bad, Darling." (memory loss, lol)

We're at major's now because of the funeral, Daddy is going to give me pain when we get home (I really need it, I hurt inside and feel hollow, numb and pretty empty.)and major is going to cuddle me for a little bit.

After playing with the hitachi, I've been wet a lot, almost constantly, and it seems a lot easier to get off. I don't know why, when I got off from it, I didn't even feel anything except the warm wet seeping between my legs. Master even said it was just coming, not an orgasm, because an orgasm feels amazing.

I propositioned major to come over and use the hitachi on me, but he had a headache... and I think him and destiny are getting on pretty nicely now. I don't think I'll be able to keep snuggling him when he has a girl, which makes me a little sad.

Daddy and I had a big fight the other day and I don't remember what it was about. I think I was being a bitch, which I know I was wrong, but Daddy has forgiven me because I've been holding in my grief. He held me down and gagged me the other day when I got mad, and I finally cried to Him, holding my Daddy. It made me feel so much better, I hadn't even realized I was being a bitch because I missed my Papa until I yelled at Him that we had a funeral to go to "tomorrow" (today). Then I just broke down and sobbed into the gag, it made me feel a lot less self conscious about crying.

I found a lump on an inner thigh and was worried last night, so Master sent me to bed to masturbate and sleep til He could come home and look at it. Turns out it was a vein that was swollen (from being hit?) and He said it's nothing to worry about.

Jessi had to clean the couch. Her bloglet about that made me giggle hysterically. She had to do it as a punishment for something.