Wednesday Aug 9 11 AM
Honey Vet Appointment
We are taking Honey to a vet appointment today at 2:45 PM. She needs her yearly shots and she has a lump on the inside of her leg.
I woke up around 5 AM and had a snack with R before going back to bed until around seven.
I had a very bad day yesterday. I could not motivate to do things. I kept trying to do things, and it was like my head wouldn’t send the signals to my body to move. I am struggling to get everything done all the time, and I am completely overwhelmed and I’m having emotional problems and meltdowns, and I feel almost unlovable.
R and I were arguing and we ended up in my bed, I was sobbing and he had his arms wrapped around me.
He told me that he is proud of me, that on my worst day I am still his slave, on my worst day I am still better than anyone he has ever met. He said if he could go back in time and only knew the past few days as what our life together would be like, he would marry me all over again, with no hesitation. Because the way he feels for me, even when I don’t think I am hitting the lowest bar I have for myself…
I needed it.
He is right. We are both struggling/drowning right now. We are not ok.
But we have each other for the rest of our lives. And that’s enough.
Posted 8/30/2023
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