sub space writing assignment

First of all, subspace is when your endorphins (released due to the pain during a scene) outweigh the pain being inflicted or at least overwhelm you. It's not some magical place that all bottoms reach in a scene. It's not the same every time, and it doesn't release the bottom from their own responsibility for their own personal safety. You don't "reach" subspace suddenly. Endorphins are released from the beginning and gradually build up. Once a person's endorphins reach a high enough level, it gives them the feeling of being high which, in a way, they are.
In this instance, I am referring solely to pain-related play. Other types of play can lead to a deep relaxation, but not the same type of 'space".
Continuing, a person is at this point altered mentally, and it is largely the job of the Top (but not completely) to make sure not to push farther than the bottom has negotiated. Some people prefer to stop at a "buzz" or to fly off and "disappear". Obviously at this point you don't want to make any sudden movements or or sounds, or ask the bottom any difficult questions.
The cooldown and aftercare is where the Top (or whoever is negotiated to do the aftercare) calmly and soothingly brings the bottom back to earth. I personally prefer to snuggle and then go straight to bed while still feeling calm and happy. It helps to prevent "sub drop" if there is no chance for anything to upset my mood before I sleep.

I don't feel like I have a specific level of emotion that I equate with sub space. I scene, I enjoy playing and the pain that goes with it, and the pain typically improves my mood for a few days after.

I have had scenes where I reached a point and I do not remember part of the scene. It wasn't a painful scene, it was a sensual one. I jsut relaxed far enough and trusted the other person enough, that i was able to "let go" and I did. I remember most of the scene, and part of the aftercare, but I've never gotten the memory of the end of that scene back.

Normally though, i am conscious of my surroundings and am able to monitor how much I can handle for the entire scene, which I personally feel is a necessity if my Master is not Topping or closely supervising. I have a responsibility to Him first to ensure that no harm comes to His property, and enjoying the scene comes second.

I get a rush (sub space) from a variety of areas:

**Pain** is almost instant pleasure for me. If delivered intensely enough and correctly, it physically makes me wet.

**Humiliation and Objectification**
I put them together because objectification is humiliating to me, and to be reduced to tears and mocked solely for another's pleasure is to objectify me.
Both of these place me firmly into my slave mindset, which calms me and maces me feel safe, secure, and loved.

**Rope/Bondage**
The smell of rope always makes me smile, and to be tied **to** something makes me feel safe. I relax more with this than with pain. It enhances the rest.