I cannot submit with these emotions. I would simply take it off again at the very first command that I didn't like.

Why can't He understand that?

I am so pissed, I understand that He regrets it, but I can't have something that important taken away from me and then just give Him my submission back. I deserve much more respect than that, and if the only reason He has for wanting my collar back on me is that He misses His slave... He can get over it. If the only thing He misses about my submission is that I have to do the unpleasant things for Him, I don't care.

He says that I need to have my collar back on to feel less confused. I don't. I don't need Him to tll me that I need my collar, I should be able to make that decision on my own, shouldn't I?

And if He can straight-out abandon me for hours just because He feels like it, then I can wait a while before I go back into slavery.


slavery. my life given to another person who might abuse their authority over me.
That's what I'm having problems with. We're both still very emotional about this, and putting my collar on me may make Him feel better, but I won't.