aha, I blogged today.

I haven't woken up before Noon in probably a week. I'm off my period (it lasted about 3 days and then I cramped and had back pain for two more), but I'm still having those emotional bitchy moments. That means I haven't made His coffee or presented a toy since our fight, but to be fair He hasn't autonomously fed the dogs either. He was talking about "oohhhh how much stuff I have to do tomorrow" last night before falling asleep, but I know for a fact that He's playing on the computer right now.

We're both slacking, not accomplishing anything, but there's still an element of Him being in charge.

Yesterday we went and met Cheshire, (well, Chesh came and met us in Hickory.) We went bowling, which I think is going to piss Major off when he finds out that we didn't invite him. It made me feel really bad. Major has been really moody lately though. It's hard to tell if he's going to be in a good mood or really really mean, and I don't like it when he's that much of an ass. He needs to find a way to be in the middle.

Major's parents are starting a 6-week food cleanse. They can only have fruit, veggies, nuts, and water. For 6 whole weeks. I'm pretty sure it's almost impossible and they'll need a lot of encouragement. I plan on helping a lot around the kitchen so that she doesn't have to be around food she can't have as much. I don't think it's fair that she should have to wash dishes that she can't even eat that kind of food. The problem is trying to help and get things done without her noticing I guess. I'd like to surprise her kinda.

I told Master I was thinking about doing it (I've been trying to get to this for 3 paragraphs, GRR)  and He said I'm not allowed to make decisions like that for myself and that I'm not allowed to do it. It really confused me, because He hasn't had that strong a reaction to something I want to do in a long time. But He said later (because it stuck in my head, obviously, and I asked about it) that He might still let me do it, but I had to present it in a different way. It's not my decision, I have to ask Him if I can, and then He decides whether it's good for me or not.

Makes me wonder if I should say things like that more often so that I'm reminded of where I stand. No. I guess I won't. It reminds me of where I want to be, and I'm definitely not there yet.

I still haven't told Him that I've been breaking my blogging rule. I know He doesn't notice stuff like this, but it's really starting to hurt. I hate having to remind Him to be Master. I wish He looked forward to reading my blog, not only did it as "Masterly duties".

I don't think Major has been reading my blog for him either, though. I guess that's fine, I never really write what I mean to say on his blog anyway.