Back to Blogging again. (1537, lol)

I haven't been blogging. On paper or online.

And I'm sorry. After last night, and our date the day before, and the way we've been working on our relationship to make sure everything stays the way it should, I really want to be pleasing to You, obedient, and thoughtful like I used to be - the little fun things that make You smile because You know I've been thinking about You all day when I do them...

Ok.

Night before last, Luke and Vicki played and had their time together. Luke got Vicki off, and she really was going crazy. She loved it, and she knew that He needed her around, too. She really wanted to leave, not because it was bad, but because the orgasm just made her want to let go, and every submissive part of me was fighting to get out. It was making my head hurt even.

So yesterday I was very clingy at the beginning of the day, and last night He took really good care of me. I needed to feel the slave part of me because I really really haven't been feeling it lately. Everything is so vanilla, and I haven't worn my collar in weeks because of Major's parents, and I've just felt really... housewife-y which is not a good feeling for me. Candy was out and wanted to be held for a while,a nd then she crawled over to the edge of the bed (eventually asking for help, because she couldn't find it) and got our collar. She put it on, and He understood what we needed before we even asked. After a few more minutes, Master called me out, (Emily) and Helped me feel useful which was what I had wanted beyond everything! He had me get on my knees facing away from Him (naked) so that He could enjoy His favorite view of me. A view of my ass, with my feet in reach, my head down, my mouth shut, and my hands playing with myself or spreading my ass cheeks apart. After, He had me cover Him up with His blanket, and asked if I was ready to feel like a slave again. I said yes, very enthusiastically, I had very much enjoyed that He was able to enjoy my body without fucking me, and I was very content and willing. He told me to lay down too, where I was supposed to. I started to lay down on my side of the bed, and He stopped me and had me lie at the foot of the bed, where He could reach me if He wanted something from me. I loved it. It wasn't comfortable, I couldn't stretch out or masturbate like I normally do to sleep, but it made me feel like His slave. He reached down and rubbed my back for a minute, as if He was petting a dog at the foot of the bed to tell them He loved them before falling asleep. I felt so loved and wanted and taken care of, and it felt so nice. I even slept with ym collar on tight, and wore it all day today until i got in the shower.

We went on a date earlier this week, too. I paid for it, (I have no money left now, but I was proud of myself then for "taking my Daddy out to eat." Susy and Emily went, too. Pizza place. Our waitress was terribad but she was nice, so He told the manager that she was awesome.   - The date was when we decided to work on our protocols again--

I made a flogger on Saturday. I made it out of denim. We bought a huge piece of leather and I want to make a flogger, but I want to make sure i know what I'm doing before I do it to leather. So I made a black demin flogger. Master really liked it, and I love the way it feels, but Major just kind of held it, said "huh." and handed it back. Every time Master pointed out something nice about it, Major basically said he can do it better or has done/tried it before. He didn't say it was nice or anything and ... I know I'm not supposed to be trying to impress him, but I wanted him to think it was good or well-done or something, because he's the one who does it and knows what he's doing. Master might really like it, but He's my Daddy so He has to think everything I make is special and all that stupid shit... And Daddy might not notice some of the things that Major would notice.

So this morning I woke up at 11:30 and then tried to fall back asleep. After Master had fallen asleep, I had stretched out, with my feet up and under my pillow. I'd hoped He wouldn't notice, and when I woke up I pulled my feet back down toward me. He rolled over and made some noise but didn't say anything. Then I blinked, and it was 15 minutes until noon! I'm now required to present a toy before noon as a token of my submission, or else He gets to pick what toy and use it on me!!! I woke up and hurried over to the toy bag, butt naked and everything. Of course when I turned around He was awake and staring at my ass, but smiling because He knew I was picking out a toy. I had thought He'd woken up, saw what time it was, and had tried to pretend to sleep so that I would stay in bed and He would get to punish me. (I would have done it.)

I presented a flogger and a scarf. Since today is Sunday, Major's parents weren't home. He tied my hands (It was so amazing and made a brain-splosion when he untied it in a crazy awesome way) together and held them up over my head and beside His leg, and used the flogger on my tits, pussy, and stomach. He played with my tits, too. I felt so amazing from the moment He tied my hands. Then He took the flogger and put the handle in me. It was big and my body can take it but didn't want to. He stretched me open to take it, and then fucked me with it, not too rough, but it hurt enough to get me really horny. My favorite part was when He pulled the big part of the toy out, and then just as my cunt let go of it and went tight He would push it back in and stretch me open again, pushing the toy far enough that the first few inches of my cunt tightened around the handle right before He started pulling the toy out again. I loved it so much and it really frustrated me that after maybe just a minute it started to hurt, but He moved on to other things before I lost all pleasure from it.

I cleaned the toy, and then put both toys He used on me away. He left the room and told me to find Him a condom before He got back. I found one, hoping He was going to fuck me, but I thought that somehow He was going to use it some other way and I wouldn't actually get fucked. He took the condom and had me fix the bed. He fucked me! He told me it wasn't for me, it was just for Him, and I love that. Then we fucked for a really long time. I did everything I could to make sure He was enjoying it, rubbed Him, kept quiet (He told me to hush some of the time so I guess that's irrelevant), tried to keep my legs up a lot. After a position switch because of too much noise, He told me He lied, that it wasn't just for Him, He was doing this for me, too. I almost/may have got off once. Then He fucked me hard, stopped, felt my cunt clenching against Him, and after a few more minutes, stopped. He pushed me toward the foot of the bed (gently), told me to get up, hurry, get dressed. I started, thinking Major's parents had gotten home and I hadn't heard, and turned to face Him. "Hurry. Get dressed."  "..But Master, You didn't come did You?" "No. I'm going to masturbate, so get out, and don't come back into this room until I come out. Do you understand?" "yes Master." 

Somehow, being told that He was going to Masturbate and didn't want me around was incredibly hot and satisfying and just made me melt and jump for joy and feel completely satisfied, content, and like I had done a good job. I don't think He's ever said it to me before, so it was really really sexy.

I had His coffee ready when He came out of the bedroom. I forgot to say good morning again. I think if I forget again, He's going to actually punish me. He's been very lenient so far and hasn't punished me for it once.