The D&D game on discord was cancelled. I already told him I won’t be playing anymore.
So he didn’t end it with N yet. He said he will definitely do it before the in person D&D game with Alex and Danny next weekend.
I am so fucking drained and stressed waiting for him to finally tell her it’s over.
He wanted to wait for her to be ok / have a good day, because he didn’t want to do it when she was already upset or not ok, but then he didn’t want to do it on a good day either.
And I’m still over here waiting for him to pull this knife out of me.
Yesterday he said I need to try and understand how hard this is for him.
He still LOVES her. He knows it can’t work. And he still wants to be friends, still wants her to come visit, still wants… still has part of his heart thinking that something will FIX her, or our situation and make everything happy and ok again, because before she came to visit “everything was good”
But this shit is breaking me and him emotionally and physically.
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