Sept 7 2023 11:30 AM Thursday
Penny
Penny has a vet appointment today. We’ve both decided that if the vet still thinks it’s lymphoma, that it’s time. She has been constantly panting and R says it gets a lot worse at night, that she has trouble breathing at night now.
I’ve cried so much.
But I don’t want the cancer to progress to a point where she’s suffering before we say goodbye. I don’t want her last days to be in pain.
Penny has had such a hard time, and I think since we’ve moved here it’s gotten so much better for her, even with the issues the first year or two.
She finally grew so much of her fur back. She has had long walks through the woods with me. She has slept in bed with R most nights.
She 100% refused to use the dog ramp we got for her because she’s not old, damn it.
She is the least photogenic dog ever, because she doesn’t ever stay still even when she’s laying down. Something is always blurred, either her tail or a leg or her whole head.
She click clacks down the hallway when she walks.
I am honestly a little relieved that she won’t be at home alone while we are doing the vending event. If something had happened to her and she ended up hurt, or suffered while we were away…
It’s so hard to let go, but I don’t want her to suffer because it’s difficult for us.
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