Shower
walk dogs
GROCERIES
alcohol
time limit: 1hr

I think God just approved me. Was praying. there was a noise. It got louder. I looked up and saw my vest. It stopped.

WoW achievements

Levelled the pets I'm giving Master.

Magical Crawdad - 7
Sapphire Cub - 7
Jade Owl -7
Guardian Cub - 8
Mr. Wiggles - 9

Picked up a Flawless Aquatic Battle-Stone 
on my last pet trainer battle before outlands. The one on EK and the one on Kalimdor are both dailies now. 
Every time i do a daily I have a chance to pick up a battle-stone to upgrade one of my pets. I'm pretty excited about it.

Fishy
Jubling
Mr. Chilly
Sea Pony
Shore Crawler
Speedy
Tiny Goldfish
Tree Frog
Wood Frog

Today I caught 2 hard to get pets

Infinite Whelpling
gray

Giraffe Calf
also gray. Very hard to get. As tall as a human. Tallest companion pet in the game. 

And i only picked up one Achievement today, even though I worked very hard on several.

Taming Eastern Kingdoms
- Defeat all of the Pet Tamers in Eastern Kingdoms

Very happy with what i accomplished on wow today.

Achievements today :) WoW

Quality and Quantity
- 50 rare quality battle pets

Grand Master Pat Battler
- Win 1000 pet battles

Artisan Medic (Susyb)
- First Aid to 300

Old Timer
- Raise a pet to level 20 (Nether Ray Fry)

Taming the Great Outdoors
-Defeat 15 master pet tamers

Finally turned on my XP bar on Emilie today because I got my Might shoulders and completed the set I needed at level 60. Now I just need to level to 65 so I can learn more alchemy spells :)

Picked up a BOP "stone" on Kcandy today that will turn any (critter) pet that I have to Rare quality. Obviously you're not supposed to use it on capture-able pets since you can technically catch a rare of all of those.  Here's the link and the first comment has a list of them  I'm strongly considering egbert, but I'll leave it up to Master, since I'll probably level it and trade it to Him when it gets high enough level.

(Critter only, used on Mr. Wiggles)

I want to play WoW but i feel trapped! What about my Christmas? I want to play with my toys too! Pout.

My 3rd ear piercing grew shut

Sex: i didn't want to. Couldn't move or kiss back unless ordered. I like that He uses me, not just play.

Need new scissors. Very very angry.

Did christmas at my parents house today. My brother is spending the night with us.

Did christmas at my parents house today. My brother is spending the night with us.

Money is in the bank.
Need:
hay, dog food, toilet paper. Also, Master let me sleep in bed. Less than 3!

Got my might shoulders! Merry Christmas!

Christmas

Letting the hip piercing stay out. After a few days, Master decided He'd rather have it grow closed now than worry about a scar in the future.

I got rope for Christmas! (Insert cute little happy dance here)
Master said I shouldn't have been surprised, but I didn't expect it at all and was amazingly surprised. It's beautiful and I love it. AND it smells so good!

2 x 30
2 x 25
2 x 15
3 x 10
and 1 length that is exactly 2x my arms spread wide.
(If I remember correctly)

I also have a new desk and shelves and so much fun organize-y stuff. I've already been working on it, and playing WoW (yes, I'm 2 bars into 85), and cleaning so i have things to put onto the shelf.

And i got a Christmas tree and steampunk boots.

I am very grateful and happy and content and WIDE AWAKE!!!

I gave Master a lot of small (and by small I mean the most expensive present was about $50) but meaningful presents. Last night I gave Him my Love Dare journal. I started it in November and finished (well I didn't do Day 40 but it required that He know about the book to do it) last ngiht before I gave it to Him. I was so excited I couldn't wait until midnight, but gave it to Him right around 11:11. He stayed to chat a few minutes, bought me Mists of Pandahrea and then disappeared for 2 hours. (He was reading it. He loved it as much as i hoped He would!) I'm still so excited about that, because I thought He would know, and so it was a great feeling to actually surprise Him with it.

Ok, gonna go try to solo MC

He sent me this today: "I love you!!!! Ur the best slave a Master could ask for"

hehe

They got me a tree for Christmas :D


very sleepy stayed up all night. I really like it though and every time I see it I giggle and bounce a little. 

Thank you Daddy and Uncle Major!

Susy

Possibly the stupidest thing I've ever done.

Yes, it's almost 4 in the morning and I'm about to do something very stupid. I can't help it though, so no point in blaming me. Every time I try to sleep, and start to drift off, I'm in pain from my sinuses and piercing, and trying to breathe is difficult and reminds me that my throat and mouth are so dry they're cracking. So to get some sleep as I lie on my back, I start fantasizing. I can't masturbate, since the piercing I have is on my hip, and hurts like a beast every time I roll onto my stomach, which is the only position I can get any real leverage in. Well, now I'm so wet I can't possibly sleep.

And so, Master, the thing that's got me so wet so quickly without even touching myself? I'm imagining that You've stripped me completely naked and have me tied fully spread out for Your complete pleasure, and are going to torture me to Your complete satisfaction with electric play.

I have several scenarios in mind.

I am stripped completely naked, even down to bare feet, and my ankles are tied spread to the futon. My wrists are tied above my head to the opposite side of the futon. Something is in my mouth, gagging me. I can't spit it out. In this scenario, my Master brings out the violet wand (and contact) and just plain tortures me until I cry, maybe farther.

I am tied to the coffee table, my ankles in my leather cuffs which are attached to the spreader bar, which is pinned to the floor by the coffee table I'm lying on, and is further secured to the end of it with rope. I think my hands are pulled down beside me to the ground, not back over my head. Master continues and increases the torture based on how wet I am, and eventually decides to fuck me, maybe even while continuing to shock me.


I am tied down.
I am naked.
I am spread and exposed.
I am on the futon, in a chair, in the bed, pinned to the floor, held standing, tied standing.
He uses the body contact, the violet wand, a tens unit.
Until He's through with me, until He wants to fuck me, until I cry, until I come, until i like it, until He's done fucking me.
He's alone. He has Major help.
I like it, I hate it, I love that I hate it, I try to red immediately.
He focuses on my feet, my clit, my vagina, my nipples, my asshole, my mouth, my tongue, my lips.
He may or may not use toys or play with my nipples to ensure I keep getting wet every time even though I hate it.
I know He loves me.


Master, if this turned You on, please use and torture me to Your satisfaction.

I want to post this on fetlife.

Of course, we are always changing something, and redefining roles as we grow and learn more about each other. BUT in the past month and a half, there have been some BIG changes in our relationship.

Namely,
1) I listen better.
2) When I am not listening ("better"), He is (still) in control. I know because He keeps doing these... these things that suddenly catch my attention and scream at me that He knows what He's doing and has been paying close attention to me all along.

This is important.

When I lose my temper or act out, 95% of the time it is because I think He has stopped paying attention to me or my needs. I feel that He has done whatever small inconvenience or painful thing to me on accident.

This is very important.

When I feel that my Master has accidentally wronged me, I suddenly feel entitled to an apology. I feel that I am owed this apology. I suddenly feel that my Master owes me something.

Did you see my world just turn inside out?

I can handle any number of unfair and horrible, disgusting, painful, humiliating tasks, as long as they are on purpose. As long as He knows what He is putting me through when He tells me to do it. As long as He is appreciating the work, enjoying my pain, and/or staring at my butt....

So when we're fighting and He suddenly puts that "on purpose" in front of the original tiny little thing that started the whole fuster-cluck, it's as if I can suddenly see just how much He's loved me all along. The argument dissolves, and life continues on.

Now it may seem selfish of me that I get cranky when He accidentally hurts me and doesn't even realize it, but think of it this way: I have devoted my life and every waking moment to (and also sacrificed many hours of sleep for) my Master. If I inconvenience Him for any reason, I will immediately be made aware of it. I enjoy suffering for my Master. I just want Him to be able to enjoy my suffering as well.

When he told me not to come out of my room until morning, i thought he was going to masturbate, not eat chocolate!

Note: do not hang up, cross my arms, raise my voice, roll my eyes, shrug, sigh, whine. Practice respectful speech.

Punished last night. I hung up on Him. punishment: mouth taped. Ripped off by surprise.

Went to two places to snowboard. Looking now like neither is going to work out. Snowstorm.

Excerpt from Story of O

O had never really understood, but she had finally come to accept as an undeniable and important verity, this constant and contradictory jumble of her emotions: she liked the idea of torture, but when she was being tortured herself she would have betrayed the whole world to escape it, and yet when it was over she was happy to have gone through it, happier still if it had been especially cruel and prolonged.

Story of O

Just wanted to share this

http://suite101.com/article/quiz-are-you-a-multiple-a302718

Parts are ok, but the quiz was the part i wanted to share. 

Whether you call it multiplicity, plurality, MPD or DID, many people live perfectly normal lives with no knowledge of the fact they house more than one person. Then one day they discover a host of characters or perhaps just one other person inside who has been minding the shop while they daydream, or helping them with their homework or hobbies. There's nothing wrong with being multiple, and sometimes it really helps out. Plurality/Multiplicity can be a very enriching and exciting state of being, and not a a disorder at all.

Take this quiz to see if there's someone around you haven't noticed, helping you through your day. It's possible to discover multiplicity or plurality at any time of life. Some know as children, and somehow dismiss the idea as adults, only to rediscover their true nature in middle age. It's nothing like the movies, and the reality of it almost never matches the psychiatric ideas of MPD or DID.either. It is a unique experience that varies from person to person. Plurality and Multiplicity are normal variations of human psychology, which rarely cause any problems at all, and the vast majority of plurals never seek any sort of psychological treatment.

The following questions are intended to provoke thought, not to establish a diagnosis. If you answer many of these questions with a resounding yes, then please continue your research with the links to this article. Do not worry though, there's nothing wrong with being plural. Many creative people are, and it's not a disorder.

The Quiz

1. Have you ever had a sudden awakened feeling while you were in the middle of a task, as if you’d been asleep or at least unaware of what was going on, and yet you’d been working the whole time?

2. Have you ever had one of these sudden awakenings and been in a place you would not normally go?

3. Have you ever had one of these awakenings while doing a complex task such as driving, writing or drawing and found you were doing as well or better at it than you would normally be capable of?

4. Have you ever been contacted by the bank, informing you that they had one of your checks, but the handwriting did not appear to be yours?

5. Have you ever said something that you had not intended or planned to say?

6. Have you ever been talking and could not stop or control the content of your speech?

7. Have you ever been in a stressful or threatening situation, and have something else take over and handle it for you?

8. Do you often misplace objects and find them in places you do not recall putting them.

9. Has anyone ever told you that you sometimes behaved differently or seemed like two different people?

10. Has anyone ever described an event where you seemed to ‘switch personas?’

11. Have you ever suddenly just known how to do something you normally do not know how to do?

12. Have you ever had a period of time that you do not recall clearly if at all?

13. Has anyone ever mentioned your attendance at an event you do not recall going to?

14. Have you ever been aware of a world, not this one, in which other people seemed to live in a house with you?

15. Did you have imaginary friends as a child?

16. Do you often dream of people you do not know physically? Are they the same people time after time?

17. Were you physically or sexually abused as a child?

18. Did you have some other serious childhood trauma, such as the loss of a parent, or sibling, or some terrible experience or accident?

19. Have you ever caught yourself talking to another person who is not physically with you at the time?

20. Do you often feel you need to explain things to yourself, by either speaking or thinking in words, as if you were discussing things with yourself?

21. Has a psychic or anyone else who is sensitive ever described an individual or individuals surrounding you, and you didn’t know what she was talking about?

22. Are you frequently exhausted, even after a good night’s sleep?

23. Are you extremely creative, multi talented, or be able to think in several diverse ways depending on your ‘mood?’

24. Are you extremely comfortable being alone, and tend to feel secure going places alone, being alone at home. Do you have no earthly idea what the word lonesome means?

25. Do you often sense a comforting presence with you which you do not identify as God?

26. Have you ever found files of writings or drawings you do not recall doing on your computer?

If you answered yes to more than a few of these questions you could be a multiple.

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Still need to plate the food, walk Sela, and make the bed.

Out with the dog. If Vicki decides she wants the honor during dinner, i have no issue with it.

I kept my eyes closed. my hands frozen where he said stay. Willingly helpless. Pain. Thank You Mikkal

Asked for a beating and got it. Great scene, well orchestrated, and put me mentally in a slave place.

major's camera turns me on.

It's morning. Profanity is necessary.

I'd prefer an appointment to get my hair done to getting a desk.

Punished

I was punished just now.  Three times. 

1) I licked Daddy's face 

• He made me go inside while He finished smoking and wait for Him to come punish me. Then He spanked me once with the long wooden paddle. I said I was sorry and almost cried. 

2) I said a bad word by accident.  nmad i think.

• He made me come over and then popped me on the mouth like He always does when i swear. 

3) I put my fingers on His tongue and then wiped them on His face so He would lick Himself. He didn't think it was funny. 

• He licked me on both sides of my face and made me leave it until it dried. We fussed a little bit and I got angry. He put me in one and told me I can't get mad at Him for punishing me for something I did wrong. I let go of the angry and He let me go. I went and washed my face. It still itches from the cigar smell. 

I wish I wasn't so troublemaking all the time. I really like playing and I forget myself a lot. 

I quit my job today! Well, i work 2 weeks, but i'm finally out. It will be nice when it's finally over

I kept hoping i'd look up and see major. Songsmit almost walked in on us. The front door was open though

I just got raped in the hallway. He didn't come but it gave me exactly what i needed and asked for.

Its a little pathetic that the first privilege i have revoked is my permission to use the garbage disposal.

Kit came to visit today. He is still playing video games and watching boring movies. We're both in bed.

It was the first time i even subconsciously thought the word slut without cringing. It was good progress.

Then he switched the toy and his penis. While fucking me, he gagged me with the toy almost constantly.

Soon i had a plug in, a toy inside, a vibrator on my clit and his cock in my mouth. It was awesome.

He ignored me at first, and then started giving me suggestions. Having something inside me made my mouth jealous

I was out a lot for susy's birthday yesterday. I masturbated for him which ended well for both of us. Phiar

he keeps accusing me of random shit, and apparently if I come out of the bedroom, it's an admission of guilt.

Fuck that shit.

Phiar

I got to play neon black light golf golf for my birthday! I beat daddy Mikkal the first round. 2nd was just fun

just an idea.

Game show. 

Maybe after some playing, some other toys, some foreplay, maybe with some lubricant. led naked into the living room. Hands might be tied. On a metal chair in the middle of the room is the red butt plug, unused as of yet. "You have 60 seconds to make it disappear inside your ass, or I get to fuck you. As hard as I want."

Let the fun begin. 

Thinking about coffee table bondage sex again.

Luke got his shark hat today. I can't wait to see him wear it while he writes his santa letter

I an so many people right now

Almost had it out with jordan. Apparently phiar likes redbull

I got my stuff from claire's today. Earrings and gloves. Only spent 25 on about 50 worth. I'm so tired

Lace. He told me to enjoy the sex last night as if He was never having sex with me again. Hooded.

Well self, it's going to be one of those days where i'm hungry no matter what i eat

I did it because it was the closest thing to cutting that was the least likely to get me in trouble. My piercing.

Stuck pig. He's having lunch with me at work. Hasn't read my journal yet.

I pierced my own ear today. I was so angry at him. He's been acting excited but we still haven't talked about it yet.

Treat tonight. Boss out to eat. No sex fight. Day one period. Flea market. Moody

It takes a lot of balls to golf like i do.

I'm up again. My last off day and i didn't sleep past 10 once.

I an in the bathroom of barnes and nobel pooping and the other person is also pooping. But they are grunting and moaning. It's so nasty!

Just said the f word trying to thread the bottom part of my sewing machine

Need to lotion hands.

I need physical reassurance of love please :) it worked!

Standing order as of 2 days ago to lotion my hands 2 times a day. Did it once yesterday, none so far today.

I miss you like the broad side of a barn.

First boxcut ever working here and i got two in 5 minutes. Thanks disney, felt f'ing great.

Making a physical list because my phone is dying.

After tomorrow i an off work a full week! I have a lot to do and an pretty excited about it. Strict schedule.

Cute guy in here. Leather jacket and black combat boots. Looks a bit mild but i could fix that easily. Sigh.

Golf Jokes

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My view of what He should be doing... i guess.

He tells me He wants a strict schedule. A more militant household etc.

I'd like to see Him taking care of himself.
Daily hygiene, exercise, eating when he's supposed to.
I'd like to have Him take out the trash when it gets full. And take the trash to the road on Wednesdays.
To pick up after Himself when I'm not home.

I'd like Him to be more sympathetic of my work. I don't like making decisions when i get off of work, and normally I would like to go home, but if there is a plan, I can usually cope with it if I know about it ahead of time. I hate getting in the car and thinking we're going home, and halfway out of the parking lot hearing "I'm hungry." It tells me that while I was doing my best to make us look good, He wasn't taking care of himself, and only wants to do that on Our time.
I'd like to have sex more often, but especially when i'm stressed or tired or have something overwhelming looming over my head. It makes me feel like He's taking care of His toys.

I've never admired the way someone eats before. She isn't perfect but she sits up straight and brings the food to her. Beautiful

Made me cry.

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I wish.

Bought my sewing machine. Now i just have to pick up leather sewing needles.

FUCK!

SEX and RAPE-AGE

long story short, we were arguing. We shouldn't have been, I've been trying to be good and not be pissy. Tonight I didn't do it. I tell Him to get off of me, and he reminds me that I am His property and if sitting on me is what He wants to do, He'll do it. He tells me to put my hands spread to each corner of the bed, and to do the same with my legs. He starts playing around, but it hurts me because i'm angry and not turned on at all. My knee goes up. He forces me back into position several times, each time hurting me again or going back to sucking on my nipples (which doesn't feel good). I'm not even trying to fight back, it's just that i keep pushing my leg up by reflex every time it hurts. I can't keep it down. He forces a toy inside me. It doesn't want to go in at all. I don't want it to go in. He says if I listen and obey He won't hurt me. He makes me answer that i believe Him. He tickles me, and says that doesn't count. I'm suddenly enjoying it, because I suddenly realize that he's enjoying it even though I'm not. That He's raping me to interrupt an argument, to punish me, to serve me right! I'm surprised the toy didn't melt, because it was as if an atomic bomb went off in my vagina, the temperature change was catastrophic. And instead of being stiff and letting Him know how much I would hurt Him if I was allowed to fight back, I'm whimpering and obedient. AND he stops. Asks me if I want Him to stop. Says He'll do whatever I want. Asks what I want. Do I want Him to stop? Do I want to move my arms, do I want Him to wash His hands? And my head flipped inside out again. Why does He care what I want, He was supposed to be raping me. I put the pillow over my head and screamed into it.  and then He decided to shove something huge up my butt without any prior play in that area. It hurt going in, but then it only hurt sometimes afterword until He replaced the toy with His penis.

I ended up with green duct tape over my mouth.
"Give me a color, how are you doing?"
"mmmmmmmm ymmymmmuuum"
"Oh, green? Good. I want to try something."

When He decided to use my ass, He literally just shoved it in, put a pillow over my head and went to town until he came. I don't think I stopped screaming the entire time He was inside me. It's funny how duct tape muffles the words and then it gets to the point where you don't try to speak anymore, you just make noises that fit the emotion you're feeling at the time. And people still seem to understand.

When He told me to come, when I still had the toy inside me and He was using my vagina, it fell out. I was so disappointed I literally tried to reach the other toy to beg Him to put it in my ass so it would stay. He started yelling at me that I had shit on the bed. I could tell by the way He said it that He was trying to embarrass me but I couldn't feel humiliated somehow. maybe it's because even though I knew it was off the toy and was on the bed, I couldn't see it since I didn't have my glasses on, or maybe I was just enjoying the sex and being used and raped too much.


It was so good. He's so big, and definitely knows how to use what he's got.

And my Master always makes me smile when i don't want to.
Thank You.

7:30-3:30pm friday.

8-4 pm 23rd. 4-9:30pm 24th. 12-8:30pm 25th.

Cut, roll, cap, cover, foundation, knot, finished. That's the order a flogger is made in.

Trading a chocolate treat to sleep in the bed tonight. I need the rest for work early tomorrow

Had sex last night. He used me, for real, not just for me. Anal. It wasn't as "fun" but it felt so much more real. I'm so glad.

It's kinda sad when i use the bathroom before i leave work because i'm afraid he'll tell me to hold it. Funny too.

Darksiders 2

Have to find my brother a present. His birthday is in two days!

I'm getting to the point where i'm too tired to obey respectfully and i don't want that to happen.

I've been working very hard to be good. I hope i farm a treat soon, they mean a lot to me. I wish they meant a lot to Him.

He bought a brand new honda civic.

Drawing on couch for you.

If you're out walking, never walk farther than you can run back to without stopping for breath.

I grew up trying to prove that girls were as good as boys because that's what i was told and i never believed it.

Today was awesome. After sex, He pierced my rt knee. Hes played with it all day, and we had sex again!

Sat 10-3 i work

I have suffered for my Master today

In an attempt to keep from going crazy and nagging, I am confining myself to my closet when not serving.

I've rubbed to the same thing every night this week. It's not hot anymore. Wish pills helped cramps.

I dont think its appropriate for my steak to be bigger than my master's.

"the only thing better than being raped or tortured is to be raped and tortured at the same time."

Day One of my period starts today

If You don't get everything You want from me, it's only because You don't ask.

I crave to be told to do things that are difficult for me for your amusement. To be told/forced to do things that i don't enjoy so that you can look at me in a crowd and know that i am suffering. that at that moment, ALL I can think about is pain and suffering for You, while your mind is free to think about anything else and has been wandering. I want you to know that while you're only thinking of me for a brief instant, I am and have been focused only on pleasing you.

In 2 minutes I went from wanting to sleep on the floor to show my loyalty and willingness to suffer for my Master's pleasure to wanting to leave the toilet seat up out of spite and rebellion.

Cant sleep. I'll try again later. ObviousTroll is obvious. Blech!

training

I just realized that I am being trained in a few things I didn't realize He was helping me with.

Social
I am not a people person, but I have quickly become much better at talking to others, being friendly and making people feel comfortable at munches and things. I am naturally an introvert, but I'm quite good at easing the nervous attendees.

Comfortable with Master playing with others (without being too clingy)
 I don't like to share. Who would? However, that is a possessive trait, and not something that I should allow room for in myself, as a slave. Also it is not pleasing to my Master when He desires to play with someone else.

And then the obvious recent one

Swearing
I sound so stupid when I swear daily. In fact, it was making it more difficult than normal to find the right words when I got angry. I'm doing much better now, and am finding the range of words that used to be common for me. I've also had an amazing creative streak lately that I'm quite proud of. I think it may be related to my other brain functions improving.

Punished today. I swore and cussed Him. I thanked Him after He popped me on the mouth twice. It bled some.

I understand that i have an attitude, but everytime i start to be happy he changes something.

"I don't need You to be a better Master, I need more opportunities to be a better slave." I've gotten them today.

This is squid, flogger.

I have several pieces to finish. The rope core quirt, the failed necklace, and the short pink one

Safety Links and tabs

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Thinking about my anklet. Left could mean im in a punishment phase or out of favor. Only we know

I cant wait to start on the safety awareness project! I have tabs open on it already.

My First Flogger

Every time I show off the toys that I've made I always get really excited when showing them off. If they're brought out in a random order, the first one out of the bag is always my first.
"That's the first flogger I made!"
"Really? You made this? That's so neat!"

Usually the one that was just pulled out of the bag is the pink and black one that Major taught me how to make, and did one of the knots for me. It is legitimately the first flogger I made "right." The next flogger out of the bag is the brown one, the first flogger I ever made out of leather. It only has one knot on the handle. And then they pull out the small denim flogger that I made for my Master. It's light, the handle isn't stiff because it has no core, but it's the first flogger I ever made, and we both love it. And then of course, they pull several finger floggers out of the toy bag. The first finger floggers I ever made, the first finger floggers I made that I feel confident in, the first ones I made for myself. Never to be pulled out of the toybag again are the first floggers I made on my own without help, they went to the LHC auction, and both went to different people. I made them with two matching pieces of brown leather, nice thick stuff that I really liked, but I did the handles different, so the weight wasn't the same in the pair. Did I mention that the first blush-flogger I made is in my toybag? It's pink. The first multi-colored one I ever made was my Master's but it also went to LHC, and came back home with Kat, a friend of mine. She didn't realize I'd made it when she traded eyelashes for it at Ziggy's corner. I have so many ideas and new things I want to try. I know that when people go through my toybag they get tired of hearing "that's the first --- flogger I made" and sometimes I try to stifle myself, but I really hope that I keep doing new things, and learning more and more every time I make something new, so that every flogger I make is my first something.

Safety pamphlet, keychain dolls, diagram on what not to hit w/ flogger etc. Demo?

There is a sign on the public toilet across from me, "the restroom is close."

Still giddy from our rope sex. He even thought about it the day after: odd for sex or rope. 11.2

I cant wait until the blisters from my new shoes go away and He lets me wear my anklet again! 11.2.12

"the only thing," He said, "that would have made last night (and the rope) any better, would have been if the lights were on."

I bought some safety pins. I would like to try a play thing with them. Like needles sorta.

What if you could only pee while holding your breath?

Got tied up and used last night. Long lasting sex. 1st time with my new blue rope. Amazing!

Its like im living without my soul. I ache for him., and He barely notices i'm gone.

Every day i beg Him to text. I try to tell Him I.m starving for His attn

Totally just got called a slut.

Trash goes to the road today. Also, last day to buy pumpkins

I have a lot of ideas for next years LHC, but I know Gypsie won't be up to hearing them yet.

I am NOT washing your clothes and picking up after you when I get home from work. Unfair.

If one more old woman tel5s me hw much she loves GLAZING BALLS...

Thinking of doing a turks-head flogger.

EDIT 11-12-12:
It's not a turks-head knot I want to put at the end of the falls, it's a button knot.  A flogger with button knots at the very end of the falls. I think it would feel very pretty.

Listening to i would do anything for love, but i won't do that. On the work radio.

Need to charge my phone. Hope it snows. And i very much wish for sex. Page 50 and thru ch 1 of Story of O

Aisle Sex

"so where does the fastest corkscrew in the world go?"

It was so pretty when we left. Now all the trees are bare and everything is dead!

LHC weekend

Have to admit that I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get to play with Major this weekend at LHC. I literally remember thinking "Oh shit" right after my scene with MTaino because I was worried it would interfere with other possible happenings this weekend.

I had been warned. Sort of. The only hints I got were "I still have to make you a hood" and "If you keep jumping like that, Major's gonna catch you for sure."  

But it was a busy weekend. I feel like I never really stopped working to play and enjoy the company of the people I'm close to. Even when i was playing, it was because no one else was playing and I knew we had to get it started somehow. Master looked at me and I saw that He was thinking the same thing I was - Someone had to start playing, and I seemed like the only pumped-to-play bottom around.

The scene was crazy intense. I kept trying to relax and melt into the pain, but every time I started to really enjoy the feeling, M.T would put in another hard hit. I didn't know what he was going for, but I knew that I might switch soon, and I held on as tightly as I could. When I finally started to cry, he said good girl. My initial reaction was to turn and yell at him that I was not, I had just started crying, how dare he put that on me, I hate being called a good girl anyway- and then it dawned on me that he'd been trying to make me cry all along, which was why he kept hitting me when I would relax. I think that's the first time I've actually felt the tears fall off my face and not roll straight down. I finally let myself cry, but still held on to Emily, to my sanity. Even still I was ashamed and kept my eyes closed. All of the sudden I felt someone move in front of me- It felt like DaddySpanks, and I thought he had interrupted the scene or was going to hold me while i took more. "Good girl." It was M Taino, and I suddenly panicked when I realized I was pressing my wet face and runny nose straight against this man's leather vest. I tried to pull away but he held on, and then I hugged him back, still breathing out of my mouth because he was holding me so tightly to his shoulder that I couldn't breathe with my mouth closed. I wanted to say thank you, because it had gone from a fear that I couldn't handle it to shame to relief and that wonderful feeling right after a heavy hit when the skin stings and all the pain turns straight into happiness.

By the time I made it to the cooldown room, I was laughing and crying hysterically at the same time. Susy was out now, too. I couldn't stop giggling because it felt good, and crying from the overwhelming emotions. I kept bouncing and kicking my feet like a child, and my speech patterns changed wildly from child to adult, serious to funny. I tried to eat a piece of chocolate and almost puked. (That's never happened before!)

My back still hurts, and i was pretty surprised it didn't get darker. It's mostly speckling.


DaddySpanks was talking about some woman who carried a submissive into a social area in a body-bag (and how that was against party regulations and so on) and so when major said he a surprise in a bag in his room, that was my first mental reference.

I very much enjoyed the play/banter in the vending area with the shamog and wish there had been more chances for fun and less-serious going ons this weekend.

I feel very pleased with myself for getting up the courage to speak with Momma Vi this year since I didn't last year. In fact, I feel that I've even made friends with a few of the tradesmen, who I always admired from afar before now. (What? I felt excluded. Gay males intimidate me, there's nothing they could possibly be interested in about me from a purely kink standpoint, so I always want to join in the fun but I feel kind of useless, and afraid to approach them.) I allllmost cried when she was signing Story of O for me, but I think I'd been a bit out of tears thanks to the night before. It means a whole lot to me though, and it has strengthened my resolve to find more books for the library, read all those classic kink books people keep talking about, donate books next year, and eventually publish something that I can put into the Leather Library myself.

I also want to MAKE SURE I sit in on at least one storytelling next year, since I still have yet to do that. (The first year, I didn't know they were actually doing it til it was over, and this year I just never had time.)

The Story of O has been very calming and centering for me so far. It helps me regain perspective as to my needs, behaviors, and duties as a slave. I've been questioning a lot of things lately about myself, and I hate to admit I forgot to enjoy serving. I've been so busy thinking about what has to get done, and who is doing what, that I had actually begun to resent my duties and promises and orders.  I like being told what to do! I enjoy it! I enjoy helping, giving to others of my time and abilities, and losing myself in doing something quickly and correctly! I have not been gracious. I have muttered under my breath and pouted when things didn't go the way I wanted them to. I forgot that the best thing about being a slave is that I don't have to worry about what I want or need! I have only to do as I am told, and enjoy being useful, and my usefulness will be preserved. My needs and wants will be considered and taken care of. In fact, my needs are no concern of mine.

And I'm only on page 41 so far. It's not helping me get rid of those pesky multiple partner fantasies at all.

Gypsy mentioned wanting to do a more formal mentoring with me, but I haven't had a chance to discuss it with Relly yet.

I hate to admit it but  I wondered if Major gave up playing with me so that he could have sex. It shouldn't have bothered me, after all that's his decision, and I understand there were other influencing factors, but I felt a little disillusioned.

Kit bought himself leather pants. He also didn't really come out of his room much. I don't understand what's going on with him at all really. If you're going to come to an event, you'd think he would actually come out of his room to enjoy the event instead of reading a book he brought with him to the LEATHER LIBRARY.

I feel like I know Lass a lot better now than I did before. She's cool, but she gossips about other people gossiping a lot.

I got blue pretty denim rope this weekend!!! I won it in the auction. I also won a pretty new ceramic dildo. I'm not sure I like the green rope I won. It feels funny.

Master got an award named after some guy I'd never heard of, and Major got a lifetime free pass to LHC. It was awesome. I think they both cried. Also we are apparently now looking for a vest to fit Cheshire. :)

So many overwhelming feelings this weekend!

(I'm still checking behind doors when I move from room to room.)

Never did talk to gypsy about more serious mentoring

I feel useless when i'm not working.

I can't help wondering if major fucked her instead of playing with me.

And I'm up and ready for business. Slept alone last night. Needed it. Headed downstairs soon.

"beat me like a hammer"

If I'm wearing my "I only date ninjas" shirt and major puts a bag over my head from behind, there must be a pic!

Charge phone, air mattress, fill in auction sheets! Get a good rest.

Danny was out today. They fucked. "only for Mikkal" syd came out at the end. she's out a lot lately.

Danny and Phiar despise the new language restriction and that Lauren is enforcing it.

Danny was out today. They fucked. "only for Mikkal" syd came out at the end. Think she's been out a lot lately.

I have faith in making a leather purse, a paintbrush holder, and tom's tie now.

Air mtrs

I think fried chicken is my new g-spot

23 hrs nxt wk.
M 12-7:30
T 7:30-12 W 12-7:30 Th 12-4

Fast pooping isnt always fun.

Dear Abby,
My wife is hiding under our futon. I cannot get her to come out. She is not being aggressive to me in any way, but she seems sad, depressed, and overwhelmed lately. I fear she may be getting depressed and have urged her to go to a doctor. I feel that hiding under a futon is unsafe.

Should I
A) Help her ?
B) Yell and scream?
C) Sit on her?
D) Punish her?
E) Leave?

Dear Abby,
my wife is "being unsafe," hiding, and is sad and depressed. Should I
A) help her?
B) sit on her?
Or C) leave?

Hope he gets home before dark, i wanted to load the car today.

I've been wasting time this afternoon. I promise to do better

Home alone

I just heard the following conversation out loud in my living room. 

Yeah? Me too! High five, masochists!!

I'm talking to myself again. 

*Sigh* I know, leave me alone. 

I said Fuck because im lost and my daddy didnt turn on his phone and left me!

B*

I'm so tired, and i have to do brochures TONIGHT! Why am i not home?

And nmad

Once today so far. I think the f word

Worked through my break. I forgot and then 15 til 4 she told me i had to clock out

I identify with our coffee pot. Used on a regular basis, but always still full when you're done with it

Blink was out last night. She's very gushy and comfortable with her body and coming

Wrong bathroom!

Said nmad, also i forgot to grab His red bull. Direct order

I really want that outfit from the mall 4 my costume. It would also be a good place to buy jewelry.

No sex tonight. Blue haired overnight guest.

And He tricked me into saying nmad too

And hell. Sigh

And ssa.

And sh*t, too. Did better when i didnt talk!

Does crap count? Said that, too.

Sry. Saw i almost went to work in collar. Also, havent eaten today

I am no longer allowed to swear. Also of note i said dick and then damn when i realized i'd said the former.

Thank You Master for a wonderful night. ps, definitely going to drink water all the time!

I wonder if my orgasms or lack thereof is related to my water intake. I was hydrating in the other house and i was more gushy.

Thanj you for being exactly what i need since that talk after we had sex on the 16th. I feel secure in my collar.

There's so much blood! Guess my day off is over.

Punished: broke my promise. He didn't let me rub His feet with lotion bc i bitched. I cried.

Punished for breaking my promise. He didn't let me rub His feet after I got the lotion bc i bitched. I cried.

I was punished for not keeping my promise to Master. He didn't let me rub His feet after I got the lotion. I cried. I disappointedHim.

Today i was filled with cum and given at least 5 orders. My old boss also said he wants me for a manager position sometime soon. A very good day!

The sun is up, the birds are singing and I- oh, I'm bleeding again, aren't I? Yes, yes I am.

Dungeon rules?

Sometimes i blow my nose and then realize my hand is wet. PS I don't want to take my pills. Red roses are done.

My snot is green, I'm dehydrated, and I'm on my period. Go the fuck to hell, all you old ladies!

I wish Daddy was more bossy.

Black leather tie, finish floggers, tea pot, roses, baskets, kit's flogger, make list for kc food. Brochure! Russian

Thank you for reminding me that you are my "something that starts with M" yesterday

I need to buy a new toothbrush

All pumpkins have been thoroughly blown... Out

Carved pumpkins today. Little bro on day 3, spent last 2 nights w us.

I just want to cry again. Its not over the leather just emotional.

Lost my phone 24 hrs and no one called! Pout

never posted, 9/14/2012

I know you have started paying attention to the way you and i interact M/s. I have noticed and appreciate it. Thank You. Last night was exactly what I need. Subtle but in control.

Fortune cookie

This is in relation to the thing Susy got in trouble for earlier today.

Wanna guess what she did?

I got punished today. Daddy told me not to and i did it anyway. I was scared but the punish part was just to make me obey not to hurt. -susy

Employment is overrated.

I'm masturbating with my vibrator and suddenly I can hear the neighbor's washing machine through the wall. I feel completely upstaged! At 5AM, no less.

My goldfish bag says to draw something that made me feel good on it, with details. Hmmm

important

I've been feeling like shit for about two weeks. I blamed the mood swings, lack of appetite, and stomach pain on my period, but then (after 6 shitty days) my flow stopped but the pain didn't. For about 3 days after my period, I was very sad, and couldn't feel happy no matter what I did. Every time I ate, my stomach gave me severe pain as feedback. When He finally realized what was happening, Master began monitoring my food/eating much more closely, and helping me eat even when i didn't want to.  I'm not as bad as I was, emotionally. Well, I don't feel sad, down, out, shitty, depressed, poisonous like i did, But I'm still having out-of-the-park mood swings.  Like right now, I want sex, pain and to cut. I want to cut in the same way I want sex. I can see it, feel it, imagine it. I could masturbate to my desire to cut right now. And it would feel just as good as if I'd just had sex (which isn't going to happen anytime soon because my alerady tired husband will be going golfing again tomorrow [In fact, You will probably be golfing when this post is published, since I don't want this post read directly after I write it] and there's no way He'll even be remotely interested in me after golfing all day, and then eating dinner at Major's house, and then staying there way too long for no reason until I probably lose my temper because I'm emotionally empty) and I'd be satisfied for a little while. But He would never give me permission. If i didn't think He'd say no, I'd beg Him to let me cut. Also, I feel like I can't ask (He'd say no, duh) because He'd feel like I was trying to trap Him into fucking me, and I don't want a pity fuck. i want to be fucking raped.

to the main point, says the voice in the back of my head.

Since I've been emotionally useless, and maybe a little before, our protocols, traditions, rules, and standing orders have melted   (Like my work-friend's panties [her words] when she met some guy from Jane's Addiction at a strip club)  into nothing.   I haven't been trying. The only protocols and rules I follow are: no cutting, bring Him coffee in the morning, and lift the toilet seat when i'm done with it. I was emotionally unable to hold up my end of our rules and protocols, and I think I was the only one who was holding anything up to begin with.

• Our inspections have fully stopped, and to be truthful they only lasted about 2 weeks to begin with. 
• The drawer with all the toys in it has been FULL for 2 weeks and nothing in it has been used on me in much longer than that time. In fact, He took toys OUT OF the dresser to use on someone else and they haven't been put back. (YES IT FUCKING HURTS ME) 
• I haven't journalled in forever, and don't even know where my notebook is. You know why? The ones I wrote down never got read. I know that right this minute there are entries in my journal that You saw my write, and never looked at them. 
• I WANT MY BEDTIME BACK, i even miss being out of bed at a certain time. It was good for me, for both of us. 

I can bring you coffee every morning, but that doesn't make our relationship M/s. In fact, I resent bringing you coffee every morning, knowing that you generally ignore my needs regarding pain (toys used on me daily), affection (hugs, pets, love hand-holding, snuggling), sex (did you even see anything but the word sex?), and having a set schedule. 

Please put us both back on track. 

We've had a very volatile past few days/week. Today started rough but i am overcome by how much i love him

Candid camera idea. Sit next to people at an empty fast food place and if they leave the table eat their fries

I am amused greatly by people who hit the drier on their way out of the bathroom so other ppl think they washed their hands.

I made the decision to go in tonight to work when i couldnt reach my Master. I've net

He's out golfing today and i just recieved orders to put in my gumdrop plug and take a long shower and take care of me.

Need to talk to Him about work nxt wk, and carpool sclc

I love when He makes decisions for me.

I want pain, bondage, tape over my mouth, anal, humiliated, to be used thoroughly, to cut, to be tortured, screamed at, distracted from cramps, raped and left tied down with cum dripping out of me.

To do:
wash jeans/shirt
Eat
tampon
chrg phone

to buy:
dog food
tp
milk

i feel watched again. And things are moving, like i'm on a boat or phiar is out.

I'm glad i didnt waste my day waiting for him.

I firmly believe that buying tampons when I'm not on my period makes me a responsible adult.

I also like faking out the automatic soap dispensers and in public restrooms and watching them poop themselves.

My Instructions

Just figured it would be a good idea to post my instructions all in one place for the sake of good record-keeping and such.


1:10 PM
Put in the plug.

     I had to use a little bit of shampoo as lube to get it in. It's been 30 minutes, (1:45) and as soon as I put it in, my whole body went sensitive. My nipples went hard immediately, and of course it took a few minutes to adjust to having the plug in (while I walked Sela) and it's as if everything near me wants me to hump it. I miss You so much right now, but I think the fact that You're far away is what's making me so horny! I wish I could have You inside me right now, even with the plug in. I know it would stretch and probably hurt but I would still do it anyway! I haven't run to the bed and started masturbating yet. I want to wait and see where this little game takes us. Also, if i were to go and just rub, I would probably fall asleep, which could be disastrous for me. I would hate to wake up hurting from the plug and not be allowed to take it out! Right now, even that thought makes me horny, but I think I'd rather stay horny and be ready to follow additional instructions in case they arrive.

I really want to be used right now.

2:00
Take a shower

2:01
And play with ur self

fuuuuck thank You

(With toys?)

2:05
Either, just play

2:25 (Just getting out of the shower, water went cold right after I finished)
I used the purple vibrator, and the glass plug. I never took the small plug out. I masturbated with the glass plug first, and after a few minutes, I used the vibrator on my clit for a little. Then I turned it off and put it in my mouth for a while, just focusing on how soft it was on my lips, and how big it was in my mouth while I was still fucking myself with the glass toy. Then I got really desperate, and I switched toys. (I washed off the glass one before I put it in my mouth.) It took some effort, but i got the purple one in. I needed something that would stretch a little more, and I held the other one in my mouth but wasn't focusing on it. I was really fucking myself hard and needed both hands. And then I laid back, and pulled the toys out, and half-giggled half-cried. I felt aso good but I still didn't know what I felt. By the time I was standing I was all smiles though. I had just enough time to rinse off and think about washing my hair when the water went cold. 

2:32
Good Girl. Have a treat.

Eating it now :)

And now the thought of being forced to masturbate (for good reason, such as "punishment" or Your enjoyment) with a brown beer bottle turns me on in the humiliation/slut part of my brain. Your use of the word Trashy really put it on my list. Crazy, right? I really never thought of it before tonight at all. At least not clear vs dark beer bottles, and their relative trashiness. I do know that masturbating with a beer bottle is somehow more enjoyable than masturbating with actual dildos, though. Then again, that may be because half my dildos don't work anymore, even with batteries. It's a little depressing.

I'm hoping to have this entry post sometime during the day tomorrow, while You are away, even though I wrote it on Saturday night after waking up.

The sex, the riding, the shower, and "punishment" and of course being used to please You were all fantastic. Oh and also being toyed with and scared/tortured with the knife was a lot of fun/made me wet, too.

I am really looking forward to whatever You have planned tomorrow. I suspect (since You will be gone all day with Major and Dspx) that it's going to build my masturbatory skills in some way and maybe help me overcome my disinterest in masturbating alone. Other than that, I have no expectations or anything in regards to what You have planned.

Oh! And I'm really looking forward to upping our humiliation/torture, and having You push me harder in those areas. Of course I don't want to do any of that if it doesn't turn You on, because that's part of why I would like it in the first place. I know I can go farther for You than we have lately, and I'm excited about it. In fact I've even been dreaming of torture lately. 2 dreams about it this week alone! Plus, it's what I masturbate about.

I am so clumbsy! Dropped 5 things already. Also recent store audit means big changes

Just spilled coke everywhere. Almost late.

To Do

First:
Start The Washing Machine
Walk the dogs

Today:


Pick Up Sex Toys from LR.   (Should All be moved into one ventral location for easy removal to the bedroom or spare room)\
Clean out Dusty's Cage THOROUGHLY (And check on him)
Take out Kitchen trash AND recycle bin (There are beers in there)
Empty the Dishwasher
Reload Dishwasher
Find 3 towels, all different colors, for the kids (Pink, Orange and ??) (Just check the washing machine when it's done)
Fold Laundry (Don't just put it in the spare room, I have work clothes, panties, socks and jeans in there!)
Wash and Dry (At Least) three blankets for the kids!
Take the microwave out of the car!  (Clean out the car so they have a place to sit)



In General:


Bug Matt again about MAsT Dues -What do we owe?
Find/Replace/WTF food stamp card
Find Mailbox key
Report MAsT meeting online
Send out a LAST CHANCE TO DONATE letter/post
List of info we need from the MAsT non-donating groups.  (Contact info, group leaders, location, Who is welcome? etc)
WRITE A SPEECH for SCLC (one week)
Make a birthday Wishlist please :)

Cant forget to put away floggers, paint teapot, nag to write speech, make more flowers, get info for brochure, ask for donates

To Play With

I dunno why I was even thinking about this but I was, and while making His coffee this morning, I decided that Susy must be the most fun to play with. (By play, I mean wrestle.)

Susy is probably the most fun to play with, because when she gets pinned (which inevitably happens) she comes up with the most fun and creative insults ever. She doesn't plan them ahead or anything, it's just the words that come out when she gets stuck under someone she thinks is only winning because they eat too much. Obviously that's not completely true. Susy doesn't play like the rest of us, she doesn't think the same way. If someone is on top of her, she tries to push them off, or squirm to death, or bite them. She doesn't try to use their weight against them, and if she were to try to choke someone, she'd probably do it wrong. But she isn't meant to be a challenge to struggle against. She's meant to be a fun little ball of cuddles and sunshine! Heh. The only downside I can think of is that if she gets stuck under too many pancakes for too long, she gets frustrated, and doesn't want to play anymore.

And that's why I think Susy is the most fun to play with.

The most challenging? Now that's a hard one to pick.

It's been longer since He's used my mouth. What does that mean to us. Am I working up from it? Does He think I'd reject Him? Would I?

Great sex. Good humiliation. I wanted more of both. Wish I knew why it turns me on to hear that I'm only useful for one thing.

One big task a day cleaning

MONDAY 

(Monday is cheating because it is 3 chores...but they aren't as big as the other ones so you can squeeze more in.)

• Laundry day. Always keep your machines running.  Start first thing in the morning and consciously keep loads going throughout the day. Set an alarm in your phone if you have to. Fold laundry at night watching TV with the hubby. Make sure all clothes are put away before you go to bed.
• Tidy house. Go through every room in your house and put everything away. 
• Tip: Never leave a room empty-handed! As you walk throughout the house ALWAYS pick at least one thing up as you come/go. Your house will be picked up before you know it.
• Vacuum main rooms (not bedrooms or stairs). As you walk through the house picking things up, drag a vacuum behind you. **NOTE: I vacuum a lot because I have a dog that sheds. You may not need to vacuum as much as I choose to do.

TUESDAY

• Bathrooms. Everything: toilet, tub/shower, replace towels and wash clothes, sink, floors, wipe out drawers/cabinets, mirror, re-stock toilet paper/fresh towel supply. Spray some good smelling stuff in there when you are done. The satisfaction is amazing.
• Fast and easy way to clean your showers: On "bathroom day" simply take your cleaner in with you while you shower, and give it a good scrub while you're already in there! The walls will already be wet and soapy, so it will go much faster (See tips on this HERE). If you are wary about "bathing" with cleaners, find a good homemade shower cleaner like THIS ONE. Trust me, this will make your bathroom day muuuuuuch easier.

WEDNESDAY

• Surfaces. All surfaces: anything that can be dusted, mopped, swept, wiped, vacuumed, etc. 
• For me this included counter tops, windows, banisters, floors, microwave, kitchen sink, wiping down kitchen chairs, dusting and wiping all mantles/shelves/dressers/night stands/etc.,  wiping the top of the fridge, and vacuuming my floors, couches and stairs.

THURSDAY

• Organize/clean out something. This can be a closet, your car, your child's toy box, your makeup drawer, pick one thing and don't stop until it's clean/organized.

FRIDAY

• Tidy the house (Go through every room in your house...and never leave a room empty-handed!)
• Vacuum (all rooms including stairs.)

http://www.funcheaporfree.com/2011/12/youre-welcome-wednesday-tip-keep-your.html   

^ borrowed from the above website

My Duct Tape Project

POST 666 (DUSTY!)

(I gave him some pellets and hay.)

Sad when instead of deciding what flogger i like best im deciding which i hate least

lots of alcohol and then bed.

weight watchers points

http://www.healthyweightforum.org/eng/calculators/ww-points-allowed/

http://www.calculatorcat.com/free_calculators/weight_watchers_calculator.phtml

Missing You

Inspired by

This Fetlife Post

Almost done at work. And I'm still in the mood to do leather. As long as i have space to do it.

People dont spend on rainy mondays. They do errands. Like returns.

I thinkwhen i clean, i'm going to sta rt doing before and after pics

It's 5 o clock somewhere

Note to self: never read the ingredients of a slim jim while eating one. "that's just gross." -claptrap

Beef jerky: a suitable substitute for lunch? I think not!

Already put up all the carts i can. Ashlee keeps vanishing.

One of those days. Almost late. Le sigh.

He left His pillows in here with me, though. Yawn. Bedtime for me. Cuddles like tonight's help me sleep.

We're sleeping in separate rooms, but He's been perfectly affectionate when He puts me to bed, so I don't mind.

movies to go see

Monday/Tues/Wed Diary of a Wimpy Kid : 4:55PM 

ParaNorman 4:00, 8:30 (not 8:30 on Tues) Carmike

Finding Nemo 3D  4:05, 6:45 carmike

state cinema : facebook

Find mast notebook.

I am so tired!

Im so clumbsy today! Everyone keeps asking if im new. Must be pms. Its due next wk.

Light rasp yogurt tastes like artificial sweetner. And i wish i could stock instead of cashier.

On break, but im not calling today. I think the alone time is good for Him.

Flogger Post : All my new Leather

Picture of my new leather

Great party, I picked up fast on the register, the house looks great and I love everyone who was there. It was a lot of fun, I shouldn't have worried at all. Also, Phiar got fucked last night. (Thanks Mikkal.)

I think i personally would prefer something different as a treat. Maybe something less sweet. Still thinking about what, though. -lace

Flogger Post Update: Finished Patchwork Blush Flogger

Finished the Patchwork Blush Flogger

Flogger Update - Finished several small blush brushes

Finished 2 green blush floggers, 1 lime green blush flogger, and 2 brown blush floggers

Flogger Post- Finished (3 styles)

 Finished: Green Soft Crop

 Finished: My Pink Blush Brush

Finished: Pink Leather Flower (Gift for my Grandmother's 80th Birthday)