And now the thought of being forced to masturbate (for good reason, such as "punishment" or Your enjoyment) with a brown beer bottle turns me on in the humiliation/slut part of my brain. Your use of the word Trashy really put it on my list. Crazy, right? I really never thought of it before tonight at all. At least not clear vs dark beer bottles, and their relative trashiness. I do know that masturbating with a beer bottle is somehow more enjoyable than masturbating with actual dildos, though. Then again, that may be because half my dildos don't work anymore, even with batteries. It's a little depressing.

I'm hoping to have this entry post sometime during the day tomorrow, while You are away, even though I wrote it on Saturday night after waking up.

The sex, the riding, the shower, and "punishment" and of course being used to please You were all fantastic. Oh and also being toyed with and scared/tortured with the knife was a lot of fun/made me wet, too.

I am really looking forward to whatever You have planned tomorrow. I suspect (since You will be gone all day with Major and Dspx) that it's going to build my masturbatory skills in some way and maybe help me overcome my disinterest in masturbating alone. Other than that, I have no expectations or anything in regards to what You have planned.

Oh! And I'm really looking forward to upping our humiliation/torture, and having You push me harder in those areas. Of course I don't want to do any of that if it doesn't turn You on, because that's part of why I would like it in the first place. I know I can go farther for You than we have lately, and I'm excited about it. In fact I've even been dreaming of torture lately. 2 dreams about it this week alone! Plus, it's what I masturbate about.