update

Blogging. Day One of my period. Master and I hve been fighting. Major was here and left early this week because we were screaming so loud. He held me down to the floor and we both said things we regret. We've made up since then. Since then, we've started sleeping in the spare bedroom, and holding each other at night while we sleep. He's told me He hoped I was pregnant, and I've cried because I'm not. He has a special role play scene in mind for us,  but won't tell me about it. and now that I'm bleeding, it may be a while before I find out what it is. Mom and Sam have started playing cafe world and I really enjoy getting to hang out wht them online. it's sweet, and a lot of fun. a good bonding experience.

today is the third day in a row I haven't worn my collar. To be fair on me though, today and the first day I didn't wear it because I was visiting my parents. The middle day we argued again.

I honestly forgot all about blogging. I felt kind of neglected that he forgot, too. That covers a lot of the arguing. domming stuff.

I want to go to the flea market tomorrow.

We got penny's meds today! I called the vet (at His command) while He was at work today and found out the hours and whether we could come by and pick up the meds without bringing in the dog, too. My heart was racing and I could feel the adrenaline and nervous energy after I got off the phone (I pushed myself to make the call before I got nervous instead of after, and then the adrenaline kicked in -and the stuttering- as soon as I got off the phone. I hated that, but it made me proud of myself, too. To feel the fear rushing through me and know that I'd beat it, and done something I was that afraid of.) I wanted ot brag on that to Daddy but I forgot several times.

2 treats the other day.

still at one strike for forgetting the game.

had sex 3 times since august 30.
1st one was when major was asleep. i was quiet but it was amazing.
2nd was emily and luke. amazing as well, in thespare bedroom.
3rd was seshafi. she got really upset. she doesn't and didn't like sex.