death

I've been talking to Josh Z on FB, nothing serious, I just didn't tell you. I know I should have.

I realized yesterday that I don't know where my engagement ring is - I wanted to wear it to surprise you- and instead I can't find it anywhere.

Don't sedate me - I can fight to live that way.
Read to me. The Hobbit, or The Princess and the Goblins (and then, the princess and curdie, even though it's not as good), or The Little Princess.
Sing old songs, like Rocky Top Tennessee, Rock-a-by baby, where have all the flowers gone... calm, quiet music.
And PLease.
Don't leave me alone.

I like the name Irene for a girl, b/c of the book, The Princess and the Goblins.

I can't get the family guy terry schiavo episode out of my head. It's driving me nuts, and I really don't think it's funny anymore. I hurt so much.

I'm hungry and I have no desire to go eat. (Update: Ate a snack)

My aunt Sandy is probably going to die today or tomorrow. I've promised my mother I'll keep praying. Fuck it hurts so badly.

I want to cut.