Days report

Exercised
Bought weights, arm and ankle weights, and an exercise mat.
Vacuumed upstairs
Went grocery shopping
Went to the game store. Bought dice and miniatures
 Went to firebirds and ate


Reading as ordered. On book 2 chapter 4.
Sela and penny aren’t fighting today. Sela is even out from under the table.

Exercise

I have been doing some exercises for a little over a week. I wanted to get back into better health, be stronger and have more endurance. So instead of resolving to start doing it in January 2018, I started doing it when I decided I wanted to do it.
I was a little embarrassed of what I was doing, because I felt silly, so I didn’t tell anyone. I just went downstairs when I took the dogs for playtime, and would do sit-ups, jumping jacks, and push ups.
Day one I did as many of each as I could, without pushing myself too much. That was my general baseline of ability for myself. (I was on the first day of my period when I started exercising so I wasn’t going to push myself too hard, since I was already hurting)
I continued doing the exercises every day, doing what I was comfortable with and not pushing too hard, just trying to do 1 or 5 more than I had before if I felt like I could.
I skipped Christmas Day and the day after.

Relly saw my notebook with my record of exercises, and we talked about it.
He came downstairs with me and kept me company while I exercised.
After the first day, he started helping out with pointers, is holding my feet for sit-ups, and helping me keep count of how many of each I’m doing.
Every time, he has pushed me to do better, and do more than I had expected of myself.

Today was the third (?) day with his help, and it’s the first time I’ve actually been pushed to my limits while exercising. Every time before, when I was younger, I was with a group, and the group always had to quit before I was tired. With it being just me, he is pushing ME, not a group of people who are less durable than I am. I’ve been sore before, but this is amazing.

Also, being yelled at and pushed to do more physical exercise until I don’t think I can take it is a huge non sexual fantasy of mine. So it really cements this feeling of being owned.

He says we can buy weights for me to work with on some of the stuff I want to accomplish. I’m very excited about that.
(Target has 20% off some of its exercise stuff including weights)

What I want to be able to do is pick up a box and hold it, and then lift it up and put it on a high shelf.
At the moment I can pick up and carry something, but shifting to the lift mode just doesn’t work. So I want to work on building the lift strength in case I need to be able to do that at some point.

2017

this year:

Good:
Sam turned 18
We bought new furniture
Matt moved out
We started a D&D game with friends, and love it!
I perfected my dragontail design.
New seizure meds work better than old ones
Paid off the car
Dice and miniatures!
Opened a bank account for PWL
Opened a savings account, $1000 saved this year
Getting better at painting.

Bad:
I had a hurt wrist for 4 months. Still having occasional issues with it
Haven’t done wood turning since oct 2016
Relly lost a tooth
Issues with depression

Could have been better:
No events in 2017 after October to sell toys
Nov-dec are slow toy selling months due to critters in need event
Had to switch to a more expensive dog food by dog allergies

Happiness

I’m having trouble with a strange change in my life lately.
I don’t know how to deal with it.
I’ve been having feelings... of happiness.

I will be doing something trite and meaningless, but necessary,
And it sneaks up on me.
Washing dishes, I’m smiling, thinking of old memories,
And all of the sudden, I realize I’m happy.

I don’t know what to do when it happens.
I wasn’t doing anything to cause it,
 I haven’t been doing anything different that I know of.
But now, when I think about my current life (and my past),
I’m not overwhelmed with fear that I won’t get it all done.
I feel contentment.
There is this whispering voice, telling me “I am enough”
Weirdly it’s my own voice
And it pushes away the awkward regret memories in favor of nature, family, holidays.
Silly memories.

But I don’t have to use so,e practiced self-mantra to make this emotion leave.
It’s pleasant, relaxing, and I’m allowed to enjoy it.

What do I do, when the happiness happens? When it sneaks into me like a thief.
It overwhelms me like a drug, or a long awaited sleep
When winter is warring against my window, but the blanket is warm on my bed.
How do I handle the happy I feel, this warm pillowy wall in my head?


It makes the other emotions ok. It’s  ok to be sad because the sad doesn’t stay forever.
It’s ok to watch a video to make me cry, because that crying leaves, and the happy, it feels like a shelter, while I watch the other emotions, the temporary, blowing winds of the other emotions, swirl around like a storm.
When the happy is here I know I can go out in the rain but when I need to I can come back to the house and I’m safe. (When I’m depressed I know the house is still there, but I can’t find it because the storm is a hurricane, or a flood, and I’m lost in it)
The happy keeps sneaking in to hug me when I’m in the kitchen. It likes it when I cook or wash dishes. I like it too.

Bills December

Monthly recurring bills
Water
Internet 90
Power
Gas
Furniture

Auto withdrawal bills
Rent
Car insurance
Car payment (paid off!)
Best Buy
Rent


Other bills
Car inspection
Car tax.

December 17 2016

Funny story time!

This is how I wake up this morning: My loving husband rolls over in my direction in bed, and once I am starting to wake, says the word, "Boner."
I've been asking for morning sex for a few weeks, it's something we don't get to do often since he leaves for school around 7:00 AM most days, and today is his first day of winter break.
So I do what any good wife would do. I reach down to confirm that he is indeed in possession of and ready to use said boner. The morning wood is strong with this one.
I say, "OK, just let me go pee and brush my teeth and I'll be right back."

--- Now, before I tell the rest of my side of the story, I have to go back to my husband's point of view.

He is dreaming about watching family guy, where the guy says "humina humina boner. Haha, boner."
Then, he wakes up to me touching him, and saying that I'm up for sex.
At which point, he realizes that he said "Boner" out loud.
----

So he tells me "I didn't mean to say that out loud and no, I wasn't asking for sex, go back to bed."

But now I have to pee.

Last few days

We've accomplished a lot the past few days. It's staggering when you look at all we've managed to accomplish. I'm proud of us.

Saturday night
Made spaghetti sauce together
Went to support the Extra Life event at our local game store.
Won the grand prize YAY

Sunday
slept late
Went to pick up the grand prize

Monday
Relly school
Cleaned/organized and vacuumed Relly office
Cleaned out freezer
Matt vacuumed downstairs w shopvac
Made dinner w blue apron. Steak, potatoes, asparagus (It was perfect)
Unclogged bathrub
Took out trash, trash to road
Ordered eyelets for PWL from sewing shop
Ordered eyelets for PWL from thailand
Ordered rabbit fur from etsy (test for quality, Research and Development)
Washed some dishes

Tuesday
Opened a checking/savings account
Mailed PWL package
Went shopping and bought a Couch/sofa/chair
Bought non-grocery necessities at target

Wednesday
Relly school
Changed air filter
Vacuumed LR (4 times) and cleaned in prep for incoming furniture
Called neurologist at VA (No answer)
Acquired and returned moving truck for furniture
Picked up furniture and moved it to our house (Jake helped SO much)
Sorted lots of junk/mail on faireplace and coffee table
Washed some dishes

Vivid dream

I dreamed

I was about to play / fuck Matt, which first of all wtf.

And then Relly calls me over to talk to me outside, because he wants to have sex w me but we are at tori Geoff’s house and doesn’t want to disturb them so where can we have sex without bothering them right?

And then I end up in tori and Geoff’s room by accident to talk to tori, and I’m nervous because don’t they have an anything goes rule or something? But tori is talking to me seriously about what they can do to help me meet Relly’s needs so he isn’t cranky, and as she beckons me into the far part of her room where Geoff isn’t sleeping it seems natural and I relax. My hair is pulled back in two on the back of my head ponytails and she starts brushing my hair and telling me they are so pretty, and my makeup is pretty (I’m not wearing any) and that Relly will love it, I look like a sexy gray bunny with my bunny ear ponytails.
I’m about to talk about how my hair is frizzy how I wanted to trim it a bit but Relly likes it longer and tori and Geoff both have scissors and start taking snips out of my hair. They’re positioned so one of them is behind me no matter how I turn. I try to get the scissors away from Geoff and tori takes huge chunks out of my hair they both have but tori cut it really really short in one spot. I finally fall back against the wall and start shouting red and I’m crying, and they both laugh and put down the scissors, and high five. I start feeling how short my hair is and tori says something like I got it the shortest, I win. And I stand up and pull it out of 5he ponytails and feel it, just past my ear on the right side. And I punch tori in the face. And I would have hit Geoff but I remember he has a heart condition.
I run to you, Relly and I’m crying and upset and you go to talk to them.
I sneak back into their room and beat the lamp she was using to light the room, to show me “how pretty” I was into the floor. It’s a wooden lamp and it takes a while to smash it into 4 and then 8 and then unusable pieces but I keep going until it’s destroyed even after Relly and tori are standing right beside me.
I’m livid.
And tori says, “ does she th8nk we are made of money?”
And I want to say do you guys think my hair is worth nothing? How long will it take to grow back? What is that worth..
but I say “do you and George...” and I know that’s wrong, but I can’t remember his name and it rattles me that I’m so angry that I’m getting peoples names wrong that I can’t speak. And I just stand there trying to think what his name is. And tori is confused because in the dream that’s his real name but most people don’t know that.
And I just keep touching what’s left of my hair and freaking out and crying.

Then I woke up. And thought it was important that I got his name wrong. So here we are.

Tuesday plans

We have a lot of grown up plans for Tuesday, and I am very excited and also nervous about the things we need to accomplish.

1) set up a bank account for my business.
- change the Etsy deposit over to my new account
- change the PayPal information over to new account

2) call and schedule
Dentist
Neurologist
Vet

3) groceries?
Toothbrushes
Condoms

4) furniture shopping
Look at furniture woo hoo!
Maybe buy awesome chair bed from amazon?

5) ship Etsy package

Homework
Recipes

another to do list and h the sex.

Had more great sex, probably on the night of the first? Fingering, anal fingering, and anal sex.
I made the bed so wet. It was fantastic, screaming my head off, so much wonderful pain and wordplay that I can’t think and I was yelling and it sounded like I was crying but I was coming everywhere.

1 clean everything.
Clean upstairs carpet, clean desk and bathroom bedroom
Clean downstairs bathroom, wash dishes mop floor
Vacuum stairs
Move all boxes and things and vacuum under them and behind them and vacuum corners and edges.

2 organize everything

3buy shelves and furniture and couches and stuff

4 settle in. Make toys, sell toys, make money.

Freaking to do

Had great sex. Fantastic sex. Amazing screaming omg go deeper, right there sex.
Also had 4 shots of fireball. And a great piss your pants scary d &d game.

Tomorrow:
Clear off the glass table of “our” stuff.
Call va about prescription meds that we need. Need.
Sort our stuff from his. No, really. While they get the truck, move his stuff to his table to help with moving.
PACK AND SHIP ETSY SALE ITEM
PACK AND SHIP SKULL ITEM. ORANGE
help with moving stuff. Until 6pm or 7pm
Do school homework. Print recipes.

Have more crazy sex
Do homework. No really, do freaking homework.

Plan sorcerer spells and cantrips, and leveling stuff, feats or etc.

Business Post October - 10/19/2017

Etsy

$60 EVIL009 Black handle plastic spike flogger10/2/2017

$30 XTC010 XTC011 Plastic Spiked Chokers 1 and 2 10/3/2017

HKW $20 entry fee

PRM025 Purple/pale pink Lavender Nehi Peach ($80 YKW, 10/6/2017)

PRM034 Dark blue Pale blue croc print Blue Eye ($60 YKW, 10/6/2017)

PRM035 ½” dark blue antique gold floral Blue Moon ($60 YKW, 10/6/2017)

BRD017 Brown Crop Brown/Tan Gold Cap ($80 YKW, 10/6/2017)

BRD020 Black knotted falls grape purple corset “MY” ($60 YKW, 10/6/2017)

BRD021 Black Magic Braid Metalic Orange Hoegarden ($80 YKW, 10/6/20179

THD029 Black Paddle Flogger Lilac Corset ($80 HKW, 10/6/2017)

THD062 HEAVY tan leather bat    Mirror scale    WELLS ($100 HKW, 10/6/2017)

STNG002 Tapered Brown Green Red Crown (Free for lrg purchase HKW 10/6/2017 $55 Value)

Dominate Me $75 Vendor Fee

PRM023 Black Metallic Lime Green Bud Lite Lime ($60 Dominate Me, 10/7/2017)

THD059 Textured black paddle flogger    Brown   1817 ($60 Dominate Me, 10/7/2017)

THD063 textured black leather bat    yellow/tan pattern    badger ($76 Dominate Me MIL Discount, $85 Value, 10/7/2017)

$15 mini whip, green/purple

SET014 Set of 3. Red Patent Leather, Black Corset, Gold Lacing:

1) Flogger, 2) Paddle Flogger, 3) Mini Whip

($110 Dominate Me, 10/07/2017)

SET022 Set of Two, Turquoise, Black blue speckle corset, hoegaarden caps

1)Leather bat, MINI  2)Leather Paddle flogger, MINI

($100 Dominate Me, 10/7/2017)

Unpaid

BRD025 CUSTOM Red Magic Braid - Black, Red Grommets- Angry Orchard Trade to PaddleUs for Dice Tray (Not Received)

Expenses 10/8/2017

$25 gift bags, TJMAXX + Walmart Card

$75 Hotel, paypal to Paddle US

$30 gas Card

$75 CHP Dominate Me event fee, cash

$20 HKW event fee, cash

$130 Dog Boarding, card + $40 Cash

$50 food cost, card

$150 LHPF event fee, PayPal 9-25-2017 ish

New bondage belts

Belts

Fantasy 1

Using the new bondage belts to tie me to a chair, hands and legs tied to the chair so I couldn't struggle or fight back or get away. And then he can torture me as much or as little as he wants with no taunts, begging, feedback, or anything from me. Just his slave and whatever he wants.

Fantasy 2

Being tied down on hands and knees and Master talking me into agreeing to let him torture me however he wanted, with my mouth taped, because if I agreed he would stop teasing me and actually put it in me for a second. The bet on my part being that the torture ends when he comes, and I don't think he can only put it in for a second. So I agree to the torture after already being teased, hoping to just have sex, and he fucks me gently and teasingly until I beg to come, and he leans in all the way, and whispers in my ear "no" and tapes my mouth as he pulls out.

Fantasy 3

Tied with the belts on the bed, knees to my chest, and he puts the speculum in me, and feels my inside with his fingers, exploring until he finds a spot that drives me crazy, and the pokes it til I go crazy and orgasm and such. Then he leaves me in the dark tied up until I come down and start to worry- then he comes back and starts all over again. And after I come like crazy uncontrollably still tied down, he holds me until my brain comes back, unties me and holds me, until I feel normal again.
(Under orders to masturbate to this tonight)

Had sex tonight, using belts as restraints. He whipped me, and hit my feet with hit leather bat, and was very mean, and very good. I'm still a bit high from the bondage and sex.

Play session

Just had an amazing weekend with my husband.

We had to go out of town to vend, and with my business money, I paid for the dog boarding, which was more expensive than the hotel we stayed at, and for good reason. That hotel was atrocious. Every other room had weed blowing out of the window unit AC. The room we were in was neat and clean, but the prostitutes on the corner, yelling at cars, definitely set the pace. We almost didn't have sex because we felt dirty in our room. We kept socks on other than in the shower, because who knows what's been done on or to the carpet and how dirty it still is. We kept our clothes on when we got in bed.   Other than the play and sex.

The first night vending was at a swingers club in the middle of what I would say is a scary part of town. From the parking lot, we could see drug deals, and the parking lot was empty except us when we went in so I was worried about the car. But halfway through the night, the parking lot was full of cars and people, so there was no need to worry.  They had a gorgeous bondage room (castle themed) with lots of attachments for tying things up, as well as a cage under the bed. Their protocol for keeping the place clean was impressive, and much better than the other swingers club I vended at in the past (where the blankets and pillows were everywhere, and not by any stretch of the imagination cleanable). They gave us a tour even though we were in the back room away from the play areas and wouldn't be able to play since we were selling things. By the end of the night we were exhausted, and went to bed after discussing who would get the first shower in the morning.  I only made one sale at this event but it was a record for one purchase, $600.

Event number two was at a bar, with a live band (or two?) playing. The vendor fee went from $50 to $75 for no reason, and the owner was kind of an asshole. And drunk. But we made some money, and sold the red set that relly has been trying to sell for a year, so it was still a win for us. After, we went to Waffle House with the other vendor who recommended these events. We had a great time.

During the vending I was the demo bottom for all the toys, and so I had some minor marks and was also a little turned on. He promised to play with me and we played even though we were a little worried about getting out of the hotel on time the next morning. Sleep was something we didn't get much of.  We bought a firehouse paddle from them, and tried it out as well.
He used my toy bag because I thought he hadn't brought his, which somehow had my kitty gloves and sensory deprivation hood in it (which I did not miss at all!) - lol the next morning we found his toy bag right beside the bed. But neither of us regretted anything. It was a great scene.

There was a fantastic warm up, he went through all the toys and we talked about them and how they felt and what I liked and what I didn't. Then we really got started, and he moved me to the bed and bent me over it. The warm up continued. He pushed me physically, but only a little. He really likes hitting the same spot over and over again. He would hit it until I cried out, and then more until I involuntary shifted, and then he would give me a second to get back into that position and be ready to take the next hit, and change to another spot. And in the next spot he would hit me one less time, always staying just below my threshold of "I can't take it" - Except for one time, and he did it on purpose and it was so fucking sexy and mean. He hit me really hard with the firehouse paddle, (with warning that it would hurt) asked if I was ready for him to hit me again, and just as I opened my mouth to say "ok" he was hitting me again. I ended up standing straight up, angry as fuck and staring him straight in the face, (although to be fair after all that pain, and turned on ness, my eyes took a minute to focus) and he had this look, and I knew he'd done it on purpose, and I think maybe he grabbed my hair at this point, but I turned and bent back over the bed, maybe not ready, but willing to take the next hit. I don't remember but I don't think he hit me that hard a third time.
At the end we moved to the whip that he has bloodbound to me, and he hit me more than normal but less than I expected, and stopped before I started crying, but when I flinched and it really hurt the first time.   And then there was sex, and fingering, and I came a bunch, and he fucked me really hard and deep and I liked it a lot.

And then he through a blanket over me and I guess went and smoked, but told me not to move. I was exhausted and tired and almost fell asleep but then I heard him moving around the hotel room and it turned me on all over again.

We cuddled afterward. I don't think we really talked about the scene, but it was fantastic and I can't wait to do it again. And hopefully do better next time. He read me perfectly the whole scene.  I didn't make it to big bruises though. And I think I'll have to change for that to happen in the future- honestly bruises aren't a measure of a good scene though- and I had such a fantastic time, and was so wonderfully unable to move but still loving every second that maybe I'll just change my mind on the bruise thing.

Blogger tab is giving me problems, so this is the end of the post.

30th birthday

so my husband turned 30 a few days ago, and I have spent pretty much the whole month of September buying him things because last year I wasn't able to do that as we were moving, and costs were high, and we spent his entire birthday moving from one house to another.

So, because I want him to be able to look at this list and smile, and know that he is loved, and hopefully remind him how great turning 30 was, I am making a list of the birthday presents.

2019 core set of reaper miniatures
2019 other reaper miniatures
Cinder, the red dragon, the large miniature
- a week spent painting cinder, the large red dragon miniature
$70 on older reaper miniatures at the game store
2015 reaper bones core set miniatures
2015 reaper other set with torture stuff
The Tomb of Annihilation Book from the game store
Like, $200 worth of mystery miniatures boxes
$60 metal dice that roll 20s during gaming sessions
Sword coast adventure guide? Maybe. Or maybe he just bought that. Can't remember.


And for his birthday, we finally got the whole group together for a gaming session!
Master, Opal, The Elder, None, Bob the Dwarf, Jane the Rogue, And Velcro the Caped.


And weirdly, he wouldn't let me take him out to eat. But we went during September to a great restaurant, twice, and our really sexy waitress gave me her phone number. Haven't seen her again yet, but still, it was cool.

Business Post, Expenses

Songsmith, $530  May 2017
Songsmith, $130 August 2017

Tandy $600 September 2017 (rabbit fur and other leather)
$15 bags fresh market, Sept 2017 ( $1 each, given away with each purchase)
$30 Target Sept 2017, glue for rabbit fur floggerss. 1 bottle = $4, takes at least one bottle per rabbit flogger.

$150 LHPF vending event fee, will also require an item donation.  Sept 2017
$20 Wingnut Stables (future event item donation requirement investment) Sept 2017
$30 gas to attend wingnut  Sept 2017
$40 food cost during travel for wingnut. Sept 2017

August/September Business Post

August

$60 WDT024 Punishment stick (LilyLilith)


Etsy

$90 BRD022 Red/black special knotted falls Aug 29




September
$50? SNP017 Tan Dragontail (sold to Jake, failing recovery)

T3WD Sept 9 2017

$20 WDT019 red oak slapper (was normally 30)
$50 BSC012 Stingy aqua flogger
(Donation/Event Fee) BSC016 Cream Flogger
$100 BRD013 Blue/Gray special Braided cat
$80 BRD019 Red/Black/Silver Braided crop tip
$65 THD055 black textured leather bat
$60 THD057 black textures leather bat
$100 THD058 HEAVY tan leather bat. silver eye cap
$60 EVIL004 plactic spike flogger
$25 EVIL007 plastic spike flogger (discount for bulk purchase)

Wingnut Stables Fall 2017 Hunt

$60 PRM027 Gray Monster Flogger
(Donation/Event Fee) PRM029 Dark Purple Flogger
$100 BRD010 Red/Purple Magic Braid
$70 THD046 Black paddle flogger
$100 THD065 HEAVY metallic pink leather bat
$60 EVIL005 plastic spike flogger
$100 SET021 gray suede, red circles, paddle flogger, leather bat

Etsy  

$75 PRM019 stingy aqua flogger patent leather Sept 4

June/July Business Post

SELF 2017 June

$40 BSC014 Green suede flogger
$40 PRM015 Metallic Pink flogger
Traded $90 value THD023 red leather bat
Traded $90 value THD028 yellow leather bat
$90 THD030 Heavy red leather bat
$80 THD052 heavy red petite paddle flogger
$90 THD053 heavy red paddle flogger
$55 STNG088 phoenix tail flogger
$75 SNP019 3ft black dragontail
$100 SET015 metallic pink/purple flogger, exponential falls flogger

Sale at SELF to Barking Leather (Wholesale Prices)
All leather bats
$40 THD020 Purple
 $40 THD031 pink suede
$40 THD032 pink suede
$40 THD033 pink suede
$40 THD034short pink
$40 THD035 long brick red
$40 THD036 suede red
$40 THD038 suede gray
$40 THD039 long gray
$40 THD040 blue suede
$40 THD041 blue suede
$40 THD042 heavy red suede
$40 THD045 tan
$40 THD047 black
(Total $560)

July

Etsy
$30 XTC008 Penis whip July 8 2017

Status updateTo do

car unloaded except table
Dishes washed
School clothes in laundry
Dusty cage cleaned

To do

Laundry - wash school pants, wash other clothes, wash pajama pants
Mr plumber in shower
Sort box in bathroom.
Organize and clean bathroom
- clean toilet
- sweep and mop floor
- TP pyramid
Spray bathroom for bugs

Move all dirty clothes downstairs
Fold laundry as needed


Trim dusty

Crazy to do list for the next few weeks etc

Today
Shower
eat a snack
Pack etsy item
Take pictures of minifigures
write etsy item descriptions and publish at least one!
wash dishes
empty and replace bags upstairs trash can
Leave review of ipsy stuff (brown eyeliner was broken)



Later Today
Find a nice craft subscription box for drawing/painting/art
4PM chicken

Bring aprons in from car (laundry)

Phone SIM swap
Dye hair!!! Take before and after pictures!


This Week
Ship etsy item
take pictures of other items for etsy

-Groceries-
Allergy Pills (walmart)
Mycellular Water (walmart)
Special face stuff from mall (Origins. Checks and Balances. Frothy Face Wash)

September
Friday or Saturday - Pay Rob Ross
Buy Rabbit Fur at Tandy!
Visit Nana! Take a plant, painting, and maybe some mini cupcakes
Talk to mom about sending minifigures to her house
Resubscribe to wow? Subscribe to a cool subscription box that I want.
sept 29 - dr visit

WAYYYY Later
Feb 2019 - D&D minifigures arrive at mom's house

Did not know this.

The order of service describes what needs to be done. The rules of service describe who is served first. Most servers will deal with parties with people of different sexes and ages. The rule of thumb is: Start with the guest of honor, if there is one. Then the oldest female. Her order is taken first and she is the first one served if there is no guest of honor. If it is a small party (less than six) then the next person is the second oldest female. All of the females are served in order of their age, ending with the youngest one. The oldest male is served next. Then the men are served, by age. The last person to be served is the host or the person paying the bill. In this day and age, the host is the person who first speaks to the server and begins directing the interaction. Just remember, the host can be a male or female, even in mixed company. If it is a large party, more than six people, or a banquet situation, then the oldest female is the first person served and the next person served is to her immediate left continuing counterclockwise around the table. Also, in a banquet situation, the head table is served first, and the guest of honor is the first person to eat. From the head table, the servers spread out, so those at the rear and back of the space are served last. The other exception to the rule is for booths. If a booth is large enough that two or more people are one side, then the people furthest from the server edge of the table are served first. The server follows the same rules for the inner people—oldest lady to youngest man. Then the outside people—the ones next to the server are next, in the same order of oldest lady to youngest man.

Updates

Today:

Husband took a long trip to AL to visit family due to a family emergency.

My wrists are hurting less than yesterday, and at times not at all.
I washed dishes by hand, and the heat really helped ease the wrist and hand pain
I did some serious homework and typing, and amazingly, only my right wrist was sore afterward.
Gave selah a bath.
Made a delicious pot roast
Swept the kitchen
Walked the dogs x2

Wrist update

so far my wrist feels lots better after getting the shot of cortisomething in it. I hope the swelling reduction takes and doesn't go away.

I probably am using it too much even though I'm trying to take it easy. I've done some light housework and stuff and it feels a little used lol, but the pain is so small compared to what it was just a few days ago, and it's so hard not to use my hand when it hurts so much less!

Well I am very grateful and will keep trying to take it easy until relly gives me the all clear. Will probably do painting or drawing or something but try not to use it too much for those things, until I am allowed to do other stuff like sweeping mopping and making toys, putting away or washing dishes etc.

And I think I will try to ice it more often to maintain the non swelling as well.

Also the air conditioner got fixed today. Hooray for not eighty degrees inside the house!

Date day!

So after my appointment yesterday, Relly Prospect and I had a date day. He took me for ice cream to cold stone (kinda gross actually), then we went to the movies at the theater near my appointment because it was much less crowded than the Charlotte theaters always are and we watched The Hitman's Bodyguard (which was MF fantastic) (decided we definitely want to watch The new Jumanji movie, as it has a great cast that I can't wait to see together, and they all get sucked into a video game, which obviously is an awesome twist for jumanji) and laughed the entire movie because we can't unsee Ryan Reynolds as deadpool. And if you're weird like me, there was a great scene midway through that I'm not going to say anything about other than "mannequins" that was really badass.
Then we went back home, saw a deer in a neighbors yard as we were driving in. We talked to it and it walked closer to the car and then there was a deer in our backyard as well when we got home.
Went back out again for ice cream from a grocery store this time, and on the way home stopped by a grand opening for a local ice cream shop. They told us to come back at 6 when they opened and Relly gave them the biggest saddest pout ever. I think the woman's heart broke a little that she couldn't give him ice cream right away.
So we went to the gaming store a bought a couple of surprise packs of Minifigures and drooled over dice.
Then we went to a couple random stores because we went the wrong way of 485 and decided to wait out the traffic a little. I used my superpower for finding things and directed my husband to something he's been wanting to buy but can never find. Then back home.
I had forgotten about the ice cream store and he took me back there. It was so crowded but when we got to the counter we had no one behind us and got to take our time and really enjoy the experience (they had ginger ice cream. It was surprisingly good. And honey vanilla, as good as it sounds. And I got iced hot cocoa ice cream which was more like dark chocolate and was exactly what I'd been craving all day.) Relly got the Hawaiian roll Panini pressed ice cream sandwich. He got honey vanilla ice cream, with chocolate syrup and Oreos in the middle. It was warm and sweet on the outside and cold and honey chocolate deliciousness on the inside.
Then we went home and took a break for a bit, (he went and picked up some food) and watched critical roll together when it came on live. It was hilarious.

What a great night. And a fun day. And a great adventure.
By the end of the day I felt like we had conquered the world together.

Oh and in the tradition of our planned dates together, the air conditioner broke sometime yesterday, and the entire house has been 78+ degrees since we got home.  (This happened at our date night at tlc a few years back, too.)

What a great adventure! Thanks again Relly!

Sometimes, it's ok to take time for yourself.

yesterday morning, after my Master left the house for school, I looked at my to do list, namely the part promising myself I would write another sincere and interesting thoughtful blog (isn't it funny how people always act strange when I blog in my notebook before posting it here?) and I took a deep breath, and told myself "it's ok."
I didn't sleep well that night, and I wanted a nap. But I had to fight myself to make sure I didn't get absorbed into what I had said I would accomplish when I assumed I would get a decent amount of sleep.
So I guess what I am saying, is that sometimes, it's ok to rest, to take time to heal, to take time for yourself when you need- a nap.

Sometimes it's ok to take a nap.

slave mind

What has been on my mind lately, and it's so hard to find someone to talk to who understands what I'm trying to say, because it's very hard for me to even really figure out the right words for it t o begin with, is how disadvantaged I feel as a slave, with this... injury?

My daily routine has always been very important to me. My chores, and tasks and achievements are how I give value to my slavery.

I love my Master, and I love him so fiercely that I feel the constant need to do things to show him how much I love him, how much I think he deserves as my husband and Master.

But I've always been driven to do this. To prove it.
Maybe it's from my mother, but maybe it's just me.

I don't sit still well. I'm still learning that. And I am learning that. Against my will right now, but still, I feel like that is my lesson. To exist, calmly.

It's hard! I panic when I do nothing. I think too much about things that don't matter when I'm not busy. I panic that he will think I'm lazy if I relax, if I sit while he works. I feel lazy if someone else is working while I'm not.

And if I can't do things, how will he know that I love him? If I can't serve, how can I serve? I place value in the actions I do, and if I don't do them, how can I be valuable? And if I have no value, how am I a slave?

Obviously talking like this is going to get me yelled at, but these are the thoughts that bother me, that eat at me when I sit still. And it's important that I figure it out so that I can help others learn to cope.

Coping.
My first thought is find something else that I can do to replace the things I can't, and do that to the best of my ability. But that's just changing the actions for other actions, and I'm supposed to rest, to heal.

Druid mind

laurel.
As I was falling asleep the other night, I told myself if I couldn't fall asleep I would just roll another character. Another one. That I can play? And it occurred to me that I could do the same thing I do for wow and mentally assign them based on personality. So, Druid, healer, very quiet and knows things. Lauren. And it helps the naming process.

Now obviously I have to add in a lot more outgoing, more visibly confident, in attitude.

Laurel (think of a last name) the female wood elf Druid is quiet unless she thinks her opinion is needed, book knowledge is interesting, but she prefers the real thing, but likes writing down what she learns especially the unique details others might not think important.

For eighty years she has wandered and studied and hunted and gathered in the woods surrounding her tribe and home, but now she is ready to go out and explore, and feels certain she can take care of herself in any terrain she finds herself. The urge to see the rest of the world and hear the pulse of nature from another perspective is a driving force.

She has seen firsthand how overusing resources can affect the entire area, and is strongly opposed to waste. She knows how to find a meal out of what is around without taking life if game is sparse, because the next season is important too. But thinning out a herd doesn't bother her, as grazing land can become scarce as well.

Every so often, members of the tribe would go off into the woods at night, and yell and scream and turn into animals, and have a great time. It was a way of blowing off steam, and they would always be a dirty mess when they came back, tired and sore.
Maybe she thought they were cursed, and maybe it was an orgy? Or just enjoying nature as an animal. I dunno. Maybe  I'll explore this a little more later.

What day of the week is it? Restaurant Choices

So my husband and I are having our regular argument / discussion about where to eat. It occurred to me that a good way to handle this discussion when both of us are hungry, irritable, and not quick of mind, since we are, as aforementioned, hungry.  Where was I? Oh, a possible help/discussion enabler.
My favorite thing ever, a list.  A list of places we like to eat.

The pizza place. Etzio's
Other pizza place, The Pizza Oven (beside the BBQ place)
Any other pizza place. Dominos, Pizza Hut, etc

BBQ
Dickies
The Pig, beside fresh market
That Place Matt Worked
The BBQ place with awful BBQ and good cheesy grits

Asian
The Chinese Place, The Runs.
The Asian place beside the Chinese place, Sushi-O's
That Awful "Authentic" Asian Place Matt likes

IHOP
Denny's
Waffle House

Subway
Not Subway, sub shop
The Fireman Subway

Five Dudes w Burgers
McDonald's
Wendy's
Arby's
Taco Belle

Applebees, no wait, Chili's

Dream

night before last I dreamed that I scened(ish) with Geoff. I kind of cuddled up to him in bed and he  hurt me some with pressure points and pinched me and stuff.
And then my roommate, rainbow, got mad because I was supposed to make out with and have sex with her, and be sadistic for her. I'd gone ahead and played because she was late coming back to the room to meet me.
And there was a massage room with lots of sexy naked women in it.
And Geoff helped me dye my hair red with a spray bottle of koolaid.

Last night.
There is a game shop, and upstairs they play d and d. It was the critical roll crew and a bunch of their friends. And they were going to let us play with them. We went there twice, mostly setting up characters and getting to know everyone. Cuz they had a hang out lounge too.
Leaving one night I realized they had a poster up. It was 2 1/2, maybe 3 ft wide and 1 1/2 ft tall. I stop to take a look at it because it catches my eye.
In the poster, I was laying on my back, naked, on this sexy red velvet chaise (?) lounge, kind of sitting up, with a blindfold on and duct tape on my mouth. You could tell that I was naked but you couldn't see anything because there was this hot girl on her hands and knees over my legs leaning in and kissing me over the duct tape.
In the dream I remembered the event as a birthday present from my Master, but I didn't know that anyone else from the club had participated. So I stop, go back upstairs into the hang out area, because she's there, and she's sitting between two guys, they're smoking cigars. I don't remember what I say, but she responds basically letting me know she is interested, and I step over the coffee table in between us, and take her chin in my hand, and kiss her. It quickly turns into a much longer deeper kiss than I had expected, as she is really good at it and super interested in me. It was fantastic.


Also in this dream, a guy comes in and says he knows us and wants to play dnd here. They let him up and I say sorry to the dnd group because he's been kicked out of another local dnd club for stuff. They say don't worry, we've got this.

And also  in a separate dream there's this gorgeous graveyard and in it there are these arches under the back of the church. I go to look at them and there is a blue and black spider really high up, and he starts throwing himself at me with his webbing and ruining his web and I try to get away and he keeps chasing me. In the air with Spider-Man moves, throwing string after string at stuff to get closer.


Why am I having crazy dreams? I think it's the vitamins. Because last time I started taking them regularly I had vivid dreams for a week or so.
Doesn't help that I really want sex.

Grocery and other stuff list

coffee
Half and half
Dog chews
Dog treats
Scott toilet paper
Deodorant trial size, women's
Hay for dusty
Bottled water
Tampons
Boxers

Chicken Caesar salad
Whole chicken
Lettuce
Dressing
Parmesan cheese
-veggies
 Cucumber
 Tomato
 Onion
 Mushroom

Hot sauce chicken
Frozen or fresh chicken breast/fillets
Red hot wing sauce
Canned corn
Tortilla Chips
Tortillas
Ranch dressing

Grilled cheese w broccoli
Thick sandwich bread
Cheese
Frozen broccoli florets
Butter

Cereal
Milk
Chicken ramen
Other ramen
Pierogies

Pork chops


Pot roast
Potatoes
Carrots
Onion
Seasoning
Pepperoncini peppers

Snacks for d and d
Caffeine free Diet Coke
Trash bags
Bottled water

Glow in the dark stars

It's completely dark.
I think the most beautiful thing is being able to have a screaming argument with my husband and in the middle of all the hurtful words between us, pause and say I love you without guilt or manipulation, but with the intent of reassuring each other that it's just an argument and not the end of the world, that at the end of the day we still mean everything to each other and want to make sure they know it. That's the most beautiful thing.
The worst thing is knowing the other person so deeply and intimately that you know their deepest insecurities and realizing how badly you've hurt them right after you purposely say something out of spite and fear and anger. The moment when you see the pain and hurt on the face of the person you love more than anything else in the world, that is the worst thing.

Having both of those in one argument is very rare, but it does happen. And sometimes, after, there is Taco Bell, and then sex. Really really good sex.
And holding hands in the dark looking at the glow in the dark stars on the ceiling.

Tuesday status update

Tuesday:
Washed dishes by hand
Took pictures and uploaded 4 item listings to etsy
Typed 2 days of world recipes - ready to print
Read the book, 100 Cupboards
Changed sheets
Played NES with spouse for several hours. Had so much fun playing the Mario game with pipes
Took a very short nap

Plans:
Today
Make chocolate chip pancakes
Other kitchen things. Kale? Cabbage? Fun?
Call dad for his birthday
Text Sam about visiting
Chemistry homework

Thursday
Run to gamestop
Run to fresh market
Visit dad for birthday


Comments:
Being given orders, even "go away" has been very helpful to me emotionally. I really appreciate it, it's given me a bit of focus.
Also awesome. Playing nes together. Thank you.

Monday's status update

accomplished:
Organized kitchen cooking cart shelves
Typed and printed 2 sets of recipes
Took inventory of items on Etsy that need pictures taken/ descriptions written
Washed clothes
Folded towels
Texted mom and Sam about visit. No response.
Walked dogs AM, no issue
Read some of my communication book. P 93
Loaded dw

Plans for tomorrow
Take pictures of PWL items for Etsy
Upload pictures
Wash thermos coffee cups by hand
Make kale
Type more recipes

Comments:
Wednesday, essay due
Wednesday, chemistry homework due
Wednesday, call dad, happy birthday
Wrists hurt today (wrists not thumb) from pushing a little too hard (moved some heavy stuff, did lots of typing) but overall better with as needed brace use
Thursday, visit parents. Present! Gift card + red velvet cupcakes + Sam care package we never mailed
Probably going to take a nap tomorrow (Tuesday) I'm pretty tired and will do less with my wrists while napping.
Matt has made popcorn 3 days in a row, after the sun has come up. It's annoying as fuck.

Ps the sex was really good Sunday. Really good. Loved the mitts, and the pain play before, being held down and helpless for the "torture" and the torture. And the sex. It was deep and thorough and delightful.  Thanks again.

June business post

will update with items

SELF
Income from individual sales $570
Income from business transaction with barking leather $560 (items sold at half price)

Don't forget event fee, ticket to attend, hotel cost.

Sunday status report

Today:
Talked about issue with wrists, possible causes and solutions.
Decided to wear brace as needed instead of 24/7. This helped a lot.
Printed recipes for Monday
All clothes ready for school Monday
Discussed visiting parents.
Had sex! Great sex. Feel much much better.
He brought me mcdonalds hot cakes and they were awesome. I ate em all.

Monday:
Plan to
Do laundry
Type and print recipes for tues+Wednesday
Contact parents and brother about possibly visiting on Thursday
Finish painting bugbears.

End of week status report

What have we done all week?

Wednesday, I took a very long nap.

Thursday, we went grocery shopping and played video games

Friday, we bought milk,
rescued a yorkie and returned it to its owners,
I made some Thai tea.

Saturday, we went to the grocery store for ingredients for potted meat sandwiches, cereal, and kale.
 We played lego world and defeated (and obtained) a gold dragon.
School clothes have been washed for next week.


Upcoming plans:

Chemistry homework due Sunday

Father's birthday on Wednesday

Lots of laundry
pictures of toys for etsy shop (if able)
lots of reading (if able)


Other Notes
Need a maintenance to discuss important thing
- I can't masturbate. I need sex/play.
wrist still hurts, maybe the brace is making it worse?
How can I contribute to the household with my wrist injury?
- I feel absolutely useless
- i hurt. a lot.
-is it ever going to get better?

tuesday status report

On Tuesday:
Folded lots of clothes and put them away
Folded and put away towels
Walked dogs AM NN
Got recipes printed on notecards YAY

Today I plan to:
Wash and Fold some more laundry
Unload dishwasher and wipe down kitchen
Package shipped YAY
Take a nap
Make a grocery list

Comments:
Wrist and hand still hurting, aches a lot

Monday status update

Today I:
Did lots of laundry
Organized dresser and bedroom
Put up glow stars and planets
Made some food (asparagus)
Walked dogs AM NN
Packaged etsy item to ship
Sorted a lot of mail

Tomorrow I plan to:
Fold and put away laundry
Load dishwasher and clean up kitchen
Paint some Minifigures?
Continue cleaning bedroom
Plan out school schedule and homework stuff
Recipes on index cards?

Comments:
Need you to ship package for me and save receipt before school
Need logged in to computer on upstairs pc

To do

Buy new dog bed
Buy groceries
Buy Emily tennis shoes
Invite people over to play dnd
Change sheets
Do laundry
Set up racks
Do inventory And put away toys
Update Etsy shop and online inventory/budget
Message songsmith that tomorrow is ok to bring leather
Watch critical roll
Play some wow
Cancel subscriptions 1) murder box 2) dollar shave 3) geek fuel 4) geek fuel 5) I like the dnd box, let's keep it. 6) Ipsy? Not getting a lot from it lately
Eat at noodle place
Put away all travel stuff
Clean out car trash
Paint octopus! :) or don't, he's pretty cute.
Bathe sela
Bathe penny
Shower
Paint nails
Play with leather things and have fun sexy

Fantasy story

two nights ago while we were here in Alabama and can't really do anything with each other due to family and the kiddo and all the annoying stuff, I asked him what I should masturbate thinking about.

He said he wanted me to masturbate to this fantasy.

I am in a reverse hog tie lying on my back, naked and helpless. Vulnerable. On the floor.  Master is wearing his leather gloves, leather boots, leather shirt, and jeans.
He walks up to me and puts his boot on my chest and pushes hard, making it hard for me to breathe.
I own you, he says.
He gives me a breath, and then grinds the tread of his boot into my chest again.
I own you from your head to your feet.
He puts his boot on my neck, but doesn't push hard, just enough pressure to keep my attention.
I can trample you
He steps off of me and leans down to slap me in the face with one gloved hand, holding my face steady with his other hand.
Or beat you, if I want to.
He kneels over me so that he is holding me down at my neck with his shin, and basically sitting on my chest. He reaches down with on hand and pushes two fingers into my pussy. I'm soaking wet.
I own both your holes,
He starts lifting me up by my cunt, jerking me off the ground repeatedly. I scream out in pain.
And I can use them how I want.
He slams his other hand down over my mouth and nose. I taste blood, and air squeezes out between his fingers as I realize he has cut off my air, and my lip is split.
I own your mouth
He lets go of my cunt and turns around, still not letting me breathe, positioning himself with his knees on my shoulders, and grabs my throats and begins choking me with his free hand.
And your pretty little throat. And every breath you take belongs to me.
I'm starting to run out of air, and I can't help fighting and trying to buck him off.
I can give you a breath or choke you out, or choke you to death and fuck your corpse if I want to. I own you and that's up to me.  Know this, slave. I own you.
Everything fades to black and the lights dim and go out.

Sex and SELF

at the event we went to, and vended at, we picked up a new leather shirt for master. He has lost a lot of weight recently and it was a great confidence boost for him. I've been telling him how sexy he is but he hasn't really believed me until he saw himself in that shirt. So we bought it, and that night we had a great scene/sex in our hotel room.

I had on a sexy long sleeved black dress and when he was getting ready I took off everything but the dress.
He took off his belt and put it around me so that my arms were belted down at the waist. Then he pushed me onto the bed.

He had on his black leather gloves too.
Then there was some choking, and face slapping, and spankings and other toys used.
Then with my hands tied down he used and fucked my face and throat, and drool was everywhere, and in between he would slap me and pull me around by my hair.
He fucked me a little and then decided he wanted to use my ass.
It was not easy and it hurt. I tried not to scream since we were in a hotel room. I ended up stuffing the comforter into my mouth. Eventually it started to feel good.
After we took a shower and cuddled. I was dazed out of my mind from all the fun stuff. And he straddled me and choked me a couple times and pulled my hair. And I love it.

The next day he gave me a pair of puppy mitt restraints with pink paw prints and lining. And they have d rings so they can be clipped to things.

We left that day to visit family out of state, so I haven't gotten to use them yet, but I can't wait to have my hands stuffed into my mitts and clipped behind my back while he does mean things to me.

Business Post, June 1-12, 2017

Etsy

STNG004 Tapered Brown      $70              6/4/17
XTC003 Rabbit fur flogger    $112.50       6/11/17
XTC004 Rabbit Fur Flogger   $125         6/11/17
SNP009 Mini dragontail blue/gold $45  6/11/17
SET011  Black/Blue matching pair $135 6/11/17

SELF



OTHER
BRD011 Comped Item for issue 6/18/2017

Business Post, March, April, May

Etsy
3/12/17 BSC007 orange flogger red corset $60
3/15/17  BRD006 black knotted falls $80
3/15/17 WDH003 tamarind $85
3/15/17  BRD018     pink/red patchwork flogger $75
3/20/17 XTC006 tan/blue penis flogger $30
4/2/17 WDT003 red oak slapper $50
4/6/17 THD051 etsy custom, red mini paddle flogger $60
4/10/17 STNG014 mini phoenix tail $70
4/18/17 XTC005 Rabbit fur flogger  $106
5/14/17 WDH010 Bubinga Wood Handle, Rust Red Falls ($85 plus shipping)




Wingnut Slave Hunt April 2017 ($20 entry/vending fee + donation)

WDT001 Purpleheart Paddle $35
BSC020 gray Angry Orchard flogger $45
PRM017 Gray Double Suede, Metallic Blue (REQ Donation)
PRM026 Thick Gray suede $50
STNG016 Mini phoenix purple/silver $50
THD027 Ostrich necktie $75
THD050 Mini leather bat $50
SNP014 short dragontail $50
SNP018 4ft black dragontail $90
SET018 Tan suede pair $110
XTC penis flogger $30

Contact most recent Etsy purchase and respond to his message
Contact Sicily about repaired whip and shipping address
Update and renew Etsy listings as self will be very soon
Make more toys, lots of pretty and classy and fun ones. Adventurous.
New phone stuff
Finish reading American gods
Throw away old jeans and pajama pants (3)
Vacuum patchwork leather workroom
Shower shave pluck eyebrows brush hair pretty paint nails
Sort through box in bathroom and throw out old nail polish
Throw out unnneeded kitchen refrigerator stuff
Do laundry, wash dry, fold, put away.
Force husband to do his fucking homework before he fails this fucking class and loses his funding.
Chisels sharpened

Phoneage

so my phone died tragically today.
We were visiting my husbands parents and they had his nephews with them and we all went to the hotel where the were staying with the smallest pool I've ever seen a hotel have. It still went to five foot deep though. And my younger brother went with us, he's staying with us for two weeks.
Well, a mom and her young daughter come out and the little girl gets in the pool with the two boys, (6 and 11) while her mom starts blowing up her arm floaties.
The tiny little girl starts walking out into the water and it gets too deep for her far too quickly. Relly's mom starts yelling to the older of the boys but he is underwater and doesn't hear and I realize the girl is completely underwater except her hands. Commence adults trying to problem solve how to reach her but none of them want to jump in, or at least they hesitate. So I jump just as the mom says it's ok I've got her, and as I hit the water I say too late and lift her out of the pool to her mom.
Lexi turned six yesterday and I hope that she doesn't stay afraid of the water. She's a gorgeous little girl. She finally started swimming with the pool float around her shortly before they left, so I hope I helped her be less afraid of it. Not getting back in could have had her afraid of the water for a long time.
Anyway, the phone started vibrating as soon as I was out of the water and definitely is dead now.
So I will have a new phone soon, but if you can't reach me through my phone, it's because it doesn't work now.

After, I stayed in the pool and played with all the kids, and after running to Walmart to get me new clothes, relly and my brother got in the pool too. The mom and girl left after about half and hour, the mom wanted to leave almost as soon as she realized other kids were there.
We played with a blowup beach ball for several hours. I'm worn out.

Mild overwhelmage

1)
We should all do something together, yes I know I sound like mom.
2)
Shouldn't we be rolling a character for sam and explaining the rules just a little bit so he doesn't take up four hours when we start playing d and d in two days?
3)
I need to make floggers because there is a sale on those pretty eyeball toppers tomorrow and I want mooooooooooaaaaar of them.
4)
I need to finish this whip.
5)
I need to finish these recipe cards before I do this whip.
6)
I need to do laundry, ugh, I don't want to but I need to.
7)
What am I going to feed Sam tomorrow?
8)
Oh no, tomorrow is my birthday. We don't have any Disney movies. The tv isn't in the living room. What if Matt tries to spend the whole time in here? What if .... ahhhhhhhhhh?
9)
I can't find my metal pencil sharpener from when we were playing d&d last time, I wonder if relly has it.

Creative mind

my creative mind is racing in a thousand directions right now, in the kitchen. I want to make at least one batch of the chocolate version of the peanut butter fudge, I want to make chocolate oatmeal cookies, I want to make something with the rhubarb.

In the leather it's a bit quieter. I want to finish the original flogger with the eye, so make a corset for it. I want to finish this whip I'm repairing, but omg I can't get the tape to hide like I did last time so I'm going to have to redo the knot and I want a break from that, and I do want to make more eye toys but I don't want to be stuck with a bunch of plain floggers that no one wants. Because I feel like making the creative stuff is what people look for from me, so making a bunch of regular floggers just doesn't pay off.

In the cleaning it's loud too. But easier to ignore because I am still  hurting a little and I have been getting tired easy when I try to clean. But I can't find the pillowcases and I need to have the bed made.

And I need to take my allergy and vitamins pills.

Gah, overwhelmed but so excited to maybe make rhubarb something.

Adventures in stir fry with book choy

Bok choy*
Auto correct keeps giving me a hard time, lol.

I got to ride in matts new car that he bought a few days ago for his new self employment type job. It's nice, and brings back memories of riding in dads manual transmission car. My head kept getting reacquainted with the headrest - Matt is just not at all used to driving it yet, so it's really jerky. He took me to IHOP this morning. It took me an hour to get out of bed and get dressed. I did not want to get up at 10:30, not at all, but food was a good idea.

For the record, I spent $60 this week to get the lawn mowed. Relly left me with $40 but I found a 20 behind my cubby so I had enough to cover it.  Matt paid for food at the restaurant.

I tried to tell him about the place with chicken and waffles and he interrupted me and talked for a while about how we need to find a new Chinese restaurant that doesn't cost him $30 a meal. When I steered the conversation back to why I was talking about the restaurant whose name I forget that I also don't remember the location of, I got to chicken and waffles and he interrupted again to let me know that relly had already told him about it. I think the look on my face was enough to show it was a little frustrating trying to talk to him when he wouldn't let me speak.  So he -let- me finish telling him about it anyway, and then we discussed what he's actually looking for in chicken and waffles. Which is chicken strips and fluffy but crisp waffles.

I am really enjoying the new show I started watching. It really watches like a soap opera, but it feels very wholesome, so I indulge. It makes me cry on occasion, but it also makes me laugh so hard too.  It's called Switched at Birth. And it's real and it brings up important issues but without shoving them down your throat. Which I very much enjoy.

I started my period today, and started the day with ibuprofen before breakfast due to some mild cramping. Had some more when I was cooking dinner for some mild back pain. Had a protein shake as well just in case.  Other than that and the occasional overwhelming emotion, it's been not so bad so far.

In fact, I might even say today had been a good day.

I painted two seahorse paintings, I made some delicious stir fry, and I enjoyed my tv show. I went out of the house, painted my nails, and took a nice shower. Last night I read my book for a while.

Tomorrow I plan to finish repairing the whip. I would like to mail it on Monday, if we have the address. Need to let her know not to throw it by the hanging cord as it cannot support the kinetic (?) force.

And I am going to have another delicious sandwich tomorrow with onions and cheese and salt and vinegar potato chips. Because they are awesome.