Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Vivid dream

I dreamed

I was about to play / fuck Matt, which first of all wtf.

And then Relly calls me over to talk to me outside, because he wants to have sex w me but we are at tori Geoff’s house and doesn’t want to disturb them so where can we have sex without bothering them right?

And then I end up in tori and Geoff’s room by accident to talk to tori, and I’m nervous because don’t they have an anything goes rule or something? But tori is talking to me seriously about what they can do to help me meet Relly’s needs so he isn’t cranky, and as she beckons me into the far part of her room where Geoff isn’t sleeping it seems natural and I relax. My hair is pulled back in two on the back of my head ponytails and she starts brushing my hair and telling me they are so pretty, and my makeup is pretty (I’m not wearing any) and that Relly will love it, I look like a sexy gray bunny with my bunny ear ponytails.
I’m about to talk about how my hair is frizzy how I wanted to trim it a bit but Relly likes it longer and tori and Geoff both have scissors and start taking snips out of my hair. They’re positioned so one of them is behind me no matter how I turn. I try to get the scissors away from Geoff and tori takes huge chunks out of my hair they both have but tori cut it really really short in one spot. I finally fall back against the wall and start shouting red and I’m crying, and they both laugh and put down the scissors, and high five. I start feeling how short my hair is and tori says something like I got it the shortest, I win. And I stand up and pull it out of 5he ponytails and feel it, just past my ear on the right side. And I punch tori in the face. And I would have hit Geoff but I remember he has a heart condition.
I run to you, Relly and I’m crying and upset and you go to talk to them.
I sneak back into their room and beat the lamp she was using to light the room, to show me “how pretty” I was into the floor. It’s a wooden lamp and it takes a while to smash it into 4 and then 8 and then unusable pieces but I keep going until it’s destroyed even after Relly and tori are standing right beside me.
I’m livid.
And tori says, “ does she th8nk we are made of money?”
And I want to say do you guys think my hair is worth nothing? How long will it take to grow back? What is that worth..
but I say “do you and George...” and I know that’s wrong, but I can’t remember his name and it rattles me that I’m so angry that I’m getting peoples names wrong that I can’t speak. And I just stand there trying to think what his name is. And tori is confused because in the dream that’s his real name but most people don’t know that.
And I just keep touching what’s left of my hair and freaking out and crying.

Then I woke up. And thought it was important that I got his name wrong. So here we are.

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