this rant too, shall pass.

Some days I feel like I am the best at this, like I really know what I'm doing, and I make people happy, like I do good work. But today, I feel like shit. I have poor planning skills, poor time management skills, I fumble every piece of wire, every strip of leather, and I drop every display bag I touch. 

I want to scream out, "I'm no good at this!" "I hate this shit." "I give up." "I can't do this anymore." And I want to sit down and ignore all the people who want something from me, all the broken things that need fixing, all the vending engagements, and I want to do nothing. I want to be done for a while. I want some free time to make things I enjoy. I want to make things and say THIS IS WHAT I HAVE AND IF YOU DONT LIKE IT, BUY FROM SOMEONE ELSE. and I feel broken down, and done. I feel like a failure right now, and I just want to quit, throw down all these tools, and cry. 

and i feel trapped, because i can't. 

i feel like it's not my choice anymore.