Relly good, Relly bad week.

Our maintenance today was not about all the things we need to get done. 

Our maintenance today, for this week, was about us. 

It was about how we have been working together as Master and slave, how I've been serving him, and about how he has been noticing.... Appreciating my service. It has been about how we have been clicking this week, even though he's sick, even though I'm on my period, we've still been getting along. 

Together.

So, in closing for our maintenance, after the sadness that we can't have sex, make out, or play, or even kiss since he's probably contagious as fuck, he asked me a question. He said "how can I be a better Master for you?" 

I thought he had been about to say this maintenance is pretty much over, so it took a second to sink in what he was asking.

I didn't have any requests, or ideas for change. I told him I just want him to keep doing what he has been doing, and not to let that go. Even though he's been sick, it's been an amazing week, and I've been able to serve him without feeling unappreciated or taken for granted. 

He asked that I post a blog about what he's been doing and why it has meant so much to me, in case he doesn't realize some of the things he's doing. 

1. When I bring his coffee, he notices, and appreciates the effort. When he asks me to do something, he notices when I do it. He is aware of and responds positively to my service.

2. When I tease him, he notices that I am teasing, and threatens me appropriately. (Eh, maybe whips is a little harsh, but I know he loves whips, so it's hard for him to get really creative right away.) He has noticed that not all disobedience is defiant, and is willing to play. 

3. When I speak, he makes an effort to hear what I'm saying, instead of shutting out the nagging. He listens to and considers my advice.

4. He seems to be more present. He is noticing everything. He isn't just going through the day on autopilot. He noticed my lipstick and commented on it. Even if the comment wasn't positive, he noticed. He wants to be a part of my life and what I am doing. He is paying attention to me, making note, and being active about what he wants.

My master is giving me orders.

He cares that they are followed out. 

He notices what I am doing and why.

He is actively trying to do things to make me happy. i.e. Bought me a coat, tried to win the llama in the claw game, talks about beating me.

He is paying attention to what is going on, and making up his mind what he wants, for himself and for me. 

He is trying to take care of himself.

He is letting me take care of him even when he doesn't like what I have to say (take a shower, go to bed, etc.)

It's been a great week. I have been working extra hard to get him well, and to stay busy so I don't go crazy, but we have really worked well together this week. I am very happy that he wanted a blog from me. I am happy that we will be playing soon, although I have no idea what to expect. I just want my hood, maybe some sex... Maybe if I'm really lucky, some cuddles. I feel like he not only needs and wants me, but that he is enjoying me, as his slave, for the first time in a long time. And it is really good to feel like I am making him genuinely happy.