I've been really emotional lately. I'm not even bleeding yet and I'm out of my mind moody. Think it's because carly is on her period.

finished cateloging the LHC stuff. today.




Carly got in big trouble today. I should have been in big trouble, but he's easier on me when he's actually being strict and structuredness. Also i think i looked really pathetic when he came in to punish me for being angry at major and pointing a knife at his had when he was holding my hair.

carly was supposed to interview major for a leather essay that she has due in 23 hours. he's been over the past 2 days in a row, and she hasn't asked him question 1 yet. She also forgets a lot of stuff she's supposed to do, and then thinks that she shouldn't get in trouble because  she's bitchy enough to intimidate people. So she did lots of push ups and he lectured her a long time. He listed stuff I'd even forget she was supposed to do. I was scared. Not bad I guess, but I felt guilty because he doesn't get that strict with me and i feel like I deserve it more than she does because she can't help it that she's stupid sometimes.


I actually know what needs tobe done and rite lists and double check it and still don't journal every day.

I realize at the end of the night that the dogs weren't walked as often as they should have been.

my mage hit 90 today, that's #3.

And Master is right, I should, I do know better.


OK, he's done pooping. it's time for bed now.