Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Arm Bar

I have feelings, Daddy and I don't know how to deal with them. They're not even mine but I feel so... I feel like I've done something wrong for having them. Guilty, dirty, gross. Poisoned.

I wanted You to hug me and make all the bad feelings go away! (Candy)

I hate him for making me feel so vulnerable. It was so easy for him to hurt me, he didn't even have to put in any effort! I love a challenge, but this wasn't a challenge, it was as if I was a child, weak and defenseless. I wanted to leave as soon as I knew, but it was painful, and I wouldn't put her through that. I left when the pain stopped, but she caught the wave of emotions I was experiencing - I'd started crying before I left. I hate him for being so cocky, and overconfident all the time, acting like he knows everything about fighting, but most of all for being right - about taking me down. It really makes me wonder how helpless I would really be. I feel like all my own confidence is gone.  (Phiar)

I made perfect pancakes and no one really cared, same as when I fixed kit's kitchen, I keep trying to please and impress my Daddy. I really want His hugs, praise, and cuddles.

I wish He would read my blog every day. I'm supposed to write every day (Rule 8).

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