I can't handle the emotions I'm feeling. 

I am upset, anxious, angry. Hurt. 

I feel helpless because I can't get my point across clearly. I don't feel that it would be listened to anyway. I feel like I would be discounted because I'm a "liberal feminist snowflake". 

I just want to scream get out of my house. I want to escape. I want to leave them to their arguments and go out to lunch by myself. 

But I have no safe space in my own house. 

And apparently I don't deserve one, because safe spaces are a stupid idea. 

I can't get away from the angry voices and even when I can't hear them, I am making countless arguments in my head that I know I'll never get to make. 

I'm not strong of voice. 

I would love to have a real discussion about these topics, with the anger, the distaste, the venom and accusations and insults. I would love to discuss the actual issues. But I don't know how to have that calm conversation. And I don't even think it would be possible. 

And I'm sweating straight out of the shower, and trying not to scream and cry angry tears - I'm afraid they will hear me and think I'm crazy because I just left, but I can't handle the tension, and I don't know how to get help.