Doing new things, doing things I want to do, things that will make me a better person, or slave. And doing the things that need to be done, with less complaining.
I made pork chops tonight. A first, for me. They turned out great. So did the the cooked cabbage, to my surprise.
And while I was supposed to be getting ready for bed, I cleaned Dusty's cage. Surprise!
I am tired of nagging about the things that need to be done. But I did this because it is a service, and I think he will appreciate it. I have decided that I am only going to ask once when I don't feel like doing something. Not to say that I will never Ask more than once, or give reminders, but what I mean to say is that I want the things I ask for to carry more weight and gratitude than they do right now. If I ask master to wash the dishes for a month straight, I won't appreciate it as much when he does them for me. I will feel as if it is owed to me, because he said he would. Then he will feel unappreciated and I will be frustrated it took so long and nothing good will have come from it. But if I ask him to wash the dishes once, and then after waiting a day or so, do it myself, this will also give him less frequent opportunities to do something special for me that I have asked for. Which means maybe he will want to do those things when I ask, to show me how much he loves me. And I will feel appreciated and cared for, and hopefully, I will nag less, which will make both of us happier. More work for me? Yes. But also, less bitterness and disappointment. I want my husband to feel like my requests are opportunities, not pits of nagging and overwhelming amounts of work.
I love my husband and Master and I want to be a good housewife and slave for him.
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