I have lots I want and need to get done before Christmas.
I'm terrified i won't get it done in time.

Instead, we're now working on my "attitude"

I act like he never pays me any attention, apparently. I told him if he paid more attention to me, it wouldn't be an issue.   Somehow, this makes me wrong, but it makes sense to me.

I am starving to TALK to people. Literally. Just talk. Bounce great ideas off someone whose mind I appreciate.  I miss my husband.



I'm keeping busy. I'm not just sitting around waiting on him, making it seem like it's been a long time. I'm doing things. But when I see that no one else does anything without being asked to do it, and they don't even offer to help me, it hurts.


I told carly to do things.   Hell I told her it was ok to be on the computer even though i wanted them done before he got home. She bitched about not having a break after getting out of a 2-hour shower.  She didn't get them done before bedtime. She sat on the computer and played wow.  He didn't back me up. He just sat there.

AND for the record, yes I did tell her to "eat first"  But she was on the computer "waiting for her ramen to cool" from the time she opened the packet until actual dinner was ready.