Dec 27th Danny

While Danny was playing.

He picked Lauren, Emily and Phiar.

Apparently Lauren was trying to hide things again, like her name so she could stay off the list of available toys.   And Phiar was being an annoying cockteasing bitch.
Dunno what I (Emily) did. Think it must have just been my turn.

in the white room

The white room attaches to the living room in our house. It overlaps Vicki and Susy's bedroom if you were to look at a blueprint. The door is only there when Danny wants it to be, and if he gets someone into the room and closes the door, we can't help them until he lets them go, brings them back, is done with them. When you walk in, it's just a rectangular room, with white walls, ceiling, floor. The center of the room is sunken in, with three steps built into the floor all the way around in a smaller rectangle to go down into the lower part. (sometimes. Sometimes it's just a plain flat floor, like this time.) There are candles, or at least the room always feels like it's lit by candlelight, even if you look around and can't see any.

He put Lauren in a cage Silver-colored vertical metal bars about 6 inches apart, and the whole cage was a little bigger than what she would be if she was on hands and knees. This was sitting in about 2 inches of very cold water.
Emily's wrists were chained to the ceiling so she was standing almost on toes, and had trouble looking down. Then there was a revolving um. i dunno. It just moved 3-foot bars around in a circle from their center so that she had to keep stepping over them, but she couldn't see the ground. If she stopped moving it would sweep her feet backwards until she fell and put all her weight on her wrists. They were not evenly spaced.
This was what happened while Phiar did her make-up and got dressed, and picked out her outfit. It took a while. When she was finally dressed, Danny put a ring gag in her mouth and put her under the table, arms pulled up behind her and cuffed/bolted to the underside of the table. She was on her knees, couldn't go anywhere. covered the sides under the table so she couldn't be seen, she was in the dark, basically in a box. face pushed up to a hole and tied there.

Then D tied me (Emily) on my back to the top of the table, naked, cuffed to each corner.  Canes. Fuck, so much canes. And looking at me constantly. Making me cry out, giving me all the kinds of attention I don't want, that Phiar craves- While he had his dick in her mouth. While I was stuck unable to really look away, with nothing to bite down on to help ease any of the pain. He was looking me over not in the way that made me feel comforted, like property or a loved pet, but in the way that made me feel nervous and vulnerable, judged.

Lauren is now tied to a rack, somehow there's something to do with cold water, and something pulling at her jaw, but a lot of that is mental for her and didn't actually show up for anyone to physically see. Naked, scared and shivering. Cold makes the pain worse.  She was also out a lot during the play/torture, so he made her do things physically instead, too. Or would tell her to do something, and just send pain (not to a specific location, just mental pain) if it wasn't done or done fast enough or "correctly."  At one point while it was all playing out, we fell asleep, for about 20 minutes, or at least it's black to us.

When I was out while this went on, I kept saying, yeah.  Mhm, or Mmm as "yes" and after the 2nd time Major said "what?" Danny basically said fuck it, and started causing pain for not being "clear and concise in my speech"   and would extend the torture time. Had to go get drinks, give back rubs, etc.  Back in the white room, he used clamps to pull my nipples up to get I guess better access to caning my breasts.   And I would scream and then hear Phiar sound so angry, and sad.

Danny put us in just a small amount of make-up before it started, and then wouldn't let her show her face, if she was out she couldn't be touched, and wasn't allowed to talk. So when she came out she would just curl up and try to be small.

He let Lauren go first, then me, then Phiar.  I figured she would be clingy after it, but I haven't seen her out a whole lot since then.

Christmas. The long visit.

Went to Major's on Christmas Eve, Master was very nervous and worrying and all that. Has been making himself sick worrying.  After Christmas morning, he has been getting better, seizure and worry wise steadily since. We've had great sex, we've hugged, we've talked!! It makes me so happy.

For Christmas I got
Anvil
Nuclear PJ pants
A huge lollipop
4 awesome candles
2 knives
Chocolate! sunflower seeds and gum.
The first Gor novel!!!!
A rainbow hedgehog named Holly.
gloves x4
a saw for dowel rods
some other tool stuff
a cork board
An amazing and sexy sports bra that I'm wearing right now
A beautiful dress
Boxes of sexy boy short panties. can't wait to wear ALL of them
Foundation
black nail polish
Jack and Sally (nightmare before christmas) lipstick and nail polish, black and red.  Works great.
Foundation x2! the right color.
and lots of peanut butter filled chocolates for Lace
A black jacket from Tom, wearing it everywhere it looks great and is a good thing to wear under my coat.

I know I missed stuff, but those were some of my favorites.

This Christmas I got so many things I wanted and everything has been looking up.


We've been at Matt's since the night before Christmas. Have been going home every day to walk the dogs and trade out clothes, and get showers.


HAD SEX!!! awesome sex that left me in the shower, giggling and wanting to suck dick and stick more things inside myself, also I left a huge pool of blood and cum in the shower floor. It was beautiful. My husband is the best in the world. He really loves me and gets me the things I want and need and takes care of me.

Also, I realized once he was feeling better that I've been feeling resentful of following his orders. Yes, he has a tendency to not care what I'm doing, but I kept sighing and rolling my eyes and giving reasons why I shouldn't go do it. And I caught myself, and asked him to be a little more on me about it. TO help me serve my Master the way I should. He's been giving orders at slightly irritating times since then on purpose, to test me, to make it a sacrifice every time I serve, so that I know I'm doing it for him and not for me. SO that he knows my obedience is a gesture of love.

I'm so happy to have my Master back.

Master and i talked, about how much He's missed me this time. How much time He's wasted. I hope He remembers. Holding Him, connecting with Him, feeling his skin touching mine and how soft and smooth and  just.. remembering things we do and have done together. and love. I love Him so much.

I feel like I almost have to start over though, everything is so awkward and it's almost like I don't know him the same as I did before.


Jeremy in ice. Lauren was cold about it, because she feels like it's fair if it's the thing she thinks it is, when He scared Emily. In our head, I remember seeing her lock herself in her bedroom, and hide in full leathers underwater in her bathtub overnight. And she stayed there. And then when she tried to play at Matt's house, the first time she felt helpless or out of control, she ran back to her room again. She checked out from being out. And we felt the fear.     We didn't even do any real play with matt that night. Because we were afraid.  So yes, I wasn't very -- about it. Maybe I overreacted, but honestly I feel like I have to start over, and He hasn't really touched me since so I haven't had that opportunity and so I'm a little stuck, not knowing myself or my husband at the moment.



I very much can't wait for christmas tomorrow! well, christmas eve is tomorrow, but We're going over there and Master is opening a very exciting very scary present early so that he gets a chance to use it.

Oh shit, the salsa

This song, coupled with the destruction of theramore.

Made me cry. Again.

He fell asleep early. Can't log on to blog, played hearthstone a while. Miss my Master. -Lace

I love make-up sex. Emily is still away for a bit, but she understands. just needs some time to herself.

Lauren.


I begged not to come anymore, and he told me to hush and that I'd be done when he was through wth me and I'd cum as many times as he wanted me to until he was done.


hottest sex EVER

You are a gorean slave in a red dress.

Oh look at all the sleeping bodies

I have lots I want and need to get done before Christmas.
I'm terrified i won't get it done in time.

Instead, we're now working on my "attitude"

I act like he never pays me any attention, apparently. I told him if he paid more attention to me, it wouldn't be an issue.   Somehow, this makes me wrong, but it makes sense to me.

I am starving to TALK to people. Literally. Just talk. Bounce great ideas off someone whose mind I appreciate.  I miss my husband.



I'm keeping busy. I'm not just sitting around waiting on him, making it seem like it's been a long time. I'm doing things. But when I see that no one else does anything without being asked to do it, and they don't even offer to help me, it hurts.


I told carly to do things.   Hell I told her it was ok to be on the computer even though i wanted them done before he got home. She bitched about not having a break after getting out of a 2-hour shower.  She didn't get them done before bedtime. She sat on the computer and played wow.  He didn't back me up. He just sat there.

AND for the record, yes I did tell her to "eat first"  But she was on the computer "waiting for her ramen to cool" from the time she opened the packet until actual dinner was ready.

To Do Tomorrow

Take Pictures of finished finger floggers for collection of things I've made file.
Box floggers with business cards, one should say Merry Christmas on the back.
Begin canning apple butter
Pick up money from Wal-Mart.  Pick up wrapping paper from walmart
Mail floggers. (have address)

is susy's birthday today.

I got fussed at cuz I didn't want to tell anyone.

Daddy got me a cute new stuffy.  I like it lots.  It's a pink zebra named Zazzy.  I think Sassy like the cat from homeword bound.

I am making apple butter today!


Well, i started it. It needs more time and tomorrow I will finish it. It's a lot of work!!

But it will be yummy and good presents.

Play Kidnapping, Fantasy vs Realism

So when a girl has a kidnapping fantasy, everything about it sounds so romantic, so sexy and hot. This is what i think the difference would be like.


Fantasy, how you imagine and fantasize about it.

It's the middle of the night, and she doesn't even wake up to someone coming in the house. She wakes up when they put the duct tape over her mouth. Her first instinct is to scream, and her hands are already tied when she reaches toward her face.  It's dark but she can see the outline of someone, and they have something over their face to make it look like nothing is there. Just a gaping darkness instead of a head. A hood goes over her face, cutting off sight and she is instantly helpless. Suddenly the sheet she was sleeping on top of is being wrapped around her like a cocoon, pinning her arms to her side. He picks her up and tosses her onto his back and just carries her out of the house over his shoulder like he's moving a rug. A quick toss in the trunk later and there is a small light inside, enough to not be total darkness, but not enough to see through the hood. She can move enough to get comfortable. This part is over quickly, or feels like it because she's so afraid or excited. She catches herself masturbating in the trunk and then starts trying to get loose. She manages to be almost free of the sheet and reaches for the hood and duct tape right when the trunk opens (she didn't even notice the car stopping) but he stops her and pulls her out of the trunk, and roughs her up a little, shoving her inside, and onto the floor. It doesn't hurt too bad, there are even blankets on the floor. And of course the rape goes perfectly. She's so scared she's soaked and doesn't need foreplay, and she was either sleeping naked or wearing sexy clothes that she doesn't mind losing. The clothes make that perfect ripping sound when they're cut off, and he slaps her around just enough to get her to spread her legs. He takes off the duct tape but not the hood, and right after forcing it in (what a fun little struggle), gives her a sip of wine, with a threat if she doesn't. Hot as hell make-out session ensues where she's all timid and he's forceful and demanding and bites her lip so hard she tastes blood. The sex is fantastic. Then the rest of the wine. Cuddling until the drug kicks in and she passes out. She wakes up back in bed at home, no clue who it was.


Realistically.

She knows something is up almost from the start. because the people in her house are acting funny. She plays along for a while and eventually they make a move. It takes a few minutes to get her to a semi-manageable position, and then even longer to tie her hands while she's struggling and screaming bloody murder and biting everything she can reach. Even tied up it's a nightmare to get her down the stairs, and they almost drop her. When she realizes it's going to be the trunk she redoubles her efforts and manages to grab on, legs like a vice. She hits her head and says OW like it's their fault. Finally, after lots of pinching and shoving and hard work, she is laying in the trunk. the only thing to do now is get her feet off of the inside lid to actually get the damn thing shut. Even though she knows everyone there, she still fights like her life depends on it. Cunt punching doesn't work, and eventually someone thinks to tickle her. SLAM. It's hot in there, and gets hotter. She's sweaty and breathing hard. The car starts and within minutes the driver runs over a curb. Somehow she hits her head twice doing that. It's a long drive, because they go everywhere to try and lose her, but all it does is get really hot and really boring. And lots of minor bumps to the head later, they try to pull a very angry girl with one numb hand out of a trunk. Someone gets kicked in the nose. Finally a good reach in gets her by the hair and they drag her in (who forgot to put something over her face?) and throw her hard onto a bed. She throws an absolute fit to save the shirt, and then locks herself in the bathroom. The bitch takes a fucking shower. Finally, opens the door. Everyone rushes her and she just gives up this time, but it's too late for that. And then no one brought condoms. Why didn't they think of that while she was in the shower? Ok, you tie her down, I'll go get condoms. Lots of rugburn, dicks getting stuck on lips, and anal with only spit for lube later, she's crying, with make-up running everywhere, and having a great time. People argue. Canes are used too much, there are hickeys where there should never be hickeys, and someone has poo on their dick. Eventually, after being completely exhausted and begging for it a long time, nipples are played with.   And mouths are taped, and pictures, (wait who OK'ed pictures?) are taken. Cum and drool and spit and snot and maybe even a little blood is everywhere. Who used the last towel to wipe shit off on? Ok, you can go home like that, here's your shirt.... riiiiip.   Asshole.   But I don't have any other clothes here!

Christmas list.

Christmas List

Notepads
Sticky notes
Cinnamon, vanilla, or berry scented candles (I like the ones that smell like fruit loops) and (No green ones please they make me sneeze. )
A hand saw.
Black nail polish


A box of wood screws so I can use chuck more
Various sized pieces of wood
Metal doo dads - Hinges, eye hooks, eyelets, key rings  other fun metal things to play with.

Snacks:
Cherry Lemon Sundrop
Sunflower seeds
gum
yoohoos
chocolate

Personal I want these from my DADDY
Foundation
Warm gloves (because I want before christmas)
sports bras
nipple clamps


And my list from last year, just took out the stupid stuff.
http://www.thethingsiwant.com/dpolter/list/wishlist/&oPage=0

I just got home today, and Daddy bought me a horsey and a lollipop for christmas presents!! I can't wait to make a saddle!

susy/candy


Lots to do today.

Carly job apps turn in
apples from grocery store.
finish toy.

call lots of people.

My collar is very heavy today.

Beautiful starry eyed sex today. I still feel great

I just had sex. And it felt so good. I'm still happy. Dressed up for my master after the sex it made me feel pretty

Monsters-R-Us "Freak"

found this and had a good laugh. sharing. 

11-4-2009

So it was a regular day at the one-stop shopping (hyphen) gas station until a strange-looking character came in. Oh we get all kinds. Let’s start with the normal customers though, so you’ll understand what was so weird about this guy. There’s Isaac, the twitchy geek in a trench coat buying lotion and a flea collars. Edward, the pale skinny kid with dark hair in a trench coat. He has multiple piercings, dark lipstick and a fake permit to get blood for his “diabetes,” which he still thinks is a legitimate excuse, even though I’ve told him every day for the past 2 years that it’s legal now. Then, there’s Lanara, she bought dark sunglasses when she first starting coming here. Now she only comes in once every two weeks to buy a can of sardines,  air freshener, and cat food.  She wears those sunglasses, a long-sleeved shirt, a toboggan, jeans, and a lot of makeup every time she comes in. The guy who came in the other day, well, he was wearing shorts and a t-shirt, bought toilet paper, and actually looked me in the eye and smiled before he left… Freak.

I folded almost all the laundry today!

I spent last night at Major's house, because Master thought that alone time might help, he was a bit grumpy.

When I finally forced him out of bed and out, he was still a little sullen but quickly perked up when he found some pudding to bring home.

We had a big movie night, with Gremlins 1 and 2. They were AWESOME.

Everyone else hates old movies because the special effects aren't as good, but honestly they're a lot better to me. i don't get overwhelmed as much. and Susy can really get into it.

Master bit down on my hand in the car on the way home from the store, and it hurt so much, but felt so so good. I thought I was actually going to come on myself in the car from the pain. I haven't felt that good that fast in ever. I told him it's the best thing that's happened to me in the past 2 days.  I wasn't lying. I want more.

He's kissing me lately. More. and hungry. I want it so badly, I just want to drag him to bed and make out with him for hours.

I miss my Master all the time. It's like love and missing him are the same thing.

Master has been asleep since i came home. I miss him desperately. And i'm worried about him. I think he's depressed.

Joanna's first exam. Erotica I like.

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Danny- the compromise and freedoms.

The past week has been completely crazy.

Thanksgiving at my parents house and then at Major's, too.
Movies with Major's family for his dad's birthday.
Free day in which kit showed up and asked for the money we owe him, even though he said we didn't have to pay again until January.



And while all of this is going on, Lauren and Danny were fighting , sort of. Lauren was trying to keep Danny from telling Major things that could be used against us later. Danny punished her for it.

No one wanted to deal with it, because it had been so long, and they hoped it would go away on it's own. They knew it would be trouble. No idea what would happen.  Hell, the idea of what had suddenly become a very tentative compromise blowing to hell was pretty frightening to all of us. Lauren wasn't going to tell. She didn't feel like she could, Danny was watching her too closely.

Susy told Master.

And so began the long process of figuring out how to give Danny what he needs without hurting everyone all the time and people limping for days.

The Compromise from Master to Danny is this:

"If they start shit, you can finish it."

So if we pick on Danny or mess with him or anything else, he has permission to set us straight. And that includes torture.     But only until we give in. No farther.


And Danny is allowed to help (encouraged!) with training in the future.

Danny and lauren had a fight a few days ago. Last night we reached a better compromise. An even playing field. Thank you master