12-30-11
She's going about her normal business around the house, and the black leather gloves just come out of nowhere, and clamp over her mouth and around her neck. A black leather hood is pulled over her head, the gloved hand still over her mouth, keeping her silent. She is stripped naked, and her panties are stuffed into her mouth, before being quickly taped over with duct tape. She is half-dragged, half-carried to the bed, and tied spread to the bedposts. She is tied tightly enough that she can't move or struggle enough to get loose.
A Hitachi is taped to her cunt and secured so that it can't be moved. It's turned on high. The door closes and footsteps echo as they move down the hallway. An hour goes by; the bed has become a lake, and it has become nothing more than a whimpering, cringing, restrained mass.
He comes home. Footsteps up the hallway. The door to the bedroom opens, and then there is only silence. It is on the edge, and needs to come. The Hitachi is pulled away. It strains and whimpers, so close, not understanding why, just needing a bit more to come. The knots press into it when it pulls, but the Hitachi doesn't return. Hands run up its legs, but don't touch where it wants. It feels a hand on the hood, "no please don't take off the hood!" it thinks, but the hand only tightens the knots on the back of the hood, making sure it's on securely. Up the hips and caressing its breasts, and then the hands leave.
His cock pushes up against it, and slowly pushes in. Now it will be able to come; It only needs a push, it is so close. His cock goes in so slowly it's torture and it can't reach. It whimpers, desperate to communicate that it needs to come and can't hold on, but can't reach either. His cock grinds into the back wall now, having moved slowly in, filling it up completely, and then ever so slowly begins to withdraw. It whimpers, trying to keep Him inside, desperate. His tip lingers and stops just before exiting. He stays just inside for an eternity and then it hears a voice so close. "Come. Come on My cock." His cock rams back in, and it reaches the brink. The bucket tips, and it comes, pulling so tightly that the ropes dig in as He comes, too.
His cock slips out, and it relaxes. Used and given purpose, it is content. The Hitachi is strapped back in place and turned on high. It is left there again so that it will be ready again the next time He wants to use it. The door closes, and His footsteps echo down the hallway as He leaves.
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Jumbled
We went to go get The Boots today, (finally told Major that they were the wrong ones, and he wasn't mad at all like I was afraid he would be) and took back the ones that Major had originally bought. They had the boots in a size 7, but they were still too small and hurt my feet. We went another 2 hours away and found them (we called before we went there!) in the right color and in my size!!! I now own them. Best Christmas Present Ever. I don't know whether to thank Master or Major more, because they both put so much work into finding them and making sure that I got the boots that I wanted and that fit me. I'm really excited, and I wore them all the way home, and after and only took them off to shower and when Major went to sleep (they are loud on the hardwod floor and he is in the basement, so it seemed rude to wear them) but I think I'm going to wear them all day tomorrow too (except to feed the dogs) because I love them so much. I want to take really good care of them, but I don't know if these boots need to be/can be shined and how else I can keep from damaging them if I'm going to be wearing them forever.
--- aww, I didn't have time to say that it wouldn't be sexually anyway, it would be orally. --
Directly after this, we proceeded to have sex.
Also while we were at the mall, we went to Spencer's. Master and Major both bought me a necklace. Major bought me a pretty pink and silver unicorn necklace it's so pretty I love it to death, and I'm going to make Blink wear it too every time she dresses up, it will be so pretty with our pink collar!
Master bought us a pewter colored necklace. It's heart-shaped and has a zipper going up the middle and around the outside. It looks like my collar (the not-pink one) and I plan on wearing those together always.
While we were there, I realized that this Charlotte Russe had a ton of sexy shoes. Master immediately (without me even pointing them out to Him!) picked up the other pair of boots that had caught my eye (I had tried to avoid picking them up because I was after all, getting The Boots and there was no point in looking at other shoes because I had absolutely no chance of getting them) and had me try them on. They were so sexy, and so comfortable, and... they are black with blue laces and the tongue of the shoe folds over and has gray fur as a lining. They are absolutely gorgeous, too. He bought them for me! I couldn't believe it, and I still can't believe that I got a second pair of boots when it was so much trouble to get me the first pair. (I had to stop blogging a sec to put on the blue-lace boots, they were begging to be worn). I can't decide which pair to wear to the munch.
Oh yeah, and I also and going to be getting my Awarded Leather Boots sometimes soon, too! The boots that Master and Major awarded me as my first piece of earned leather were 2 sizes too small, and have to be traded in (online) so I can't wear them for a while, but I'll be wearing them when I get them, too. And I'll be shining them, Master says.
I've gotten so many shoes and boots lately and it's so awesome. I'm not even a shoe person, or I don't think of myself as one, and I have gotten a pair of flat boots with fur, a pair of bumble bee high heels, and 3 pairs of boots (described above) just since the beginning of December.
I gave Major a bj last night. He told me a story afterward.
Master hooded me and "got me ready" to give Him a blowjob by shoving my pink jelly vibrator down my throat, turned on high and rough, making me gag on purpose. He really enjoyed it. He said that The Boots gave me super blowjob powers because I didn't gag nearly as much as I normally do. Then He forced me onto my stomach on the bed and shoved His dick down my throat until He was ready to fuck me, which He did. He made me beg Him to come, and didn't let me come. It made me feel useful and at ease. Then He told me "Now" and was teasing my clit. I almost gushed everywhere, but I knew in the back of my head that He didn't really mean for me to come (He was out of me, and I don't get off without something in me, so He wouldn't have expected it) so I asked Him about it (which slowed me down) and He told me to come if I could, and I tried but I couldn't. He wasn't touching me the same, and I really wanted my vibrator back on my clit to do it. He taped my cunt shut since couldn't come. (Still hooded) He then took off the hood and ripped the duct tape off my cunt (and asshole). Then He spit in my cunt (He made me hold it open to spit in it, too) (Part of me was screaming no please don't and another part of me was screaming "DO EET, NOW" and He saw both sides and spit in me and I loved it.) He slapped me and pulled Lauren. He held her against a wall (Naked except for The Boots --I GOT FUCKED IN The Boots!!!!-Happy Dance-)
Then I was working on transcribing my blog and the story Major told me, and the door moved. A hand came in and tried to turn off the light. I had on the lamp light, so I knew that He wanted the light turned off, but not why. I turned it off, put the computer on the floor and moved toward the door to see if He was ok (Why did He want the light off?). I got to the door and had a moment of panic, so I reached for the light in case it wasn't Him after all. The light flicked on for a second, and Master was all dressed up in full vampire makeup, white face, red blood dripping, black lipstick, dark around the eyes... I screamed like a little bitch and dropped to the floor. The light went back out and I was lifted and thrown backward onto the bed and He was biting my neck hard and holding me down. I instantly went into RolePlaying mood and just lost my mind it was so amazing. He fed on both sides of my neck, and tortured me on purpose. Then we went and wiped off the make-up (His request so that I didn't stain my clothes) and then we came back to the bedroom and resumed RP almost immediately. He grabbed my leg and started spanking my ass hard, making fun of my reference to fast-healing when I still have scars on my leg from a dragon-tongue (thanks major!) while leaving even more marks. He focused mainly on my right leg, and halfway through my foot cramped, but we took care of it, and then He started beating me with paddles and things on top of hitting me with His hand. RPing a werewolf, I'm actually not a masochist even though it's Emily who is out. I think it's because of the frame of mind I have to be in to play my character, I can't enjoy the pain as much, except the feeding. I screamed over and over and loud every time He hit me. It was terrible and delicious at the same time, I thanked Him halfway through when He gave me a short break. He said I was a good girl, and put me to bed in His bed again. He told me I'm a good pet when I want to be.
"So can I go give Major a blowjob, then?"
"No.""Why not, You told me to thank him for the new boots"
"I meant verbally, not sexually.""You said that blowjobs aren't sexual."
"Shut up!"--- aww, I didn't have time to say that it wouldn't be sexually anyway, it would be orally. --
Directly after this, we proceeded to have sex.
Also while we were at the mall, we went to Spencer's. Master and Major both bought me a necklace. Major bought me a pretty pink and silver unicorn necklace it's so pretty I love it to death, and I'm going to make Blink wear it too every time she dresses up, it will be so pretty with our pink collar!
Master bought us a pewter colored necklace. It's heart-shaped and has a zipper going up the middle and around the outside. It looks like my collar (the not-pink one) and I plan on wearing those together always.
While we were there, I realized that this Charlotte Russe had a ton of sexy shoes. Master immediately (without me even pointing them out to Him!) picked up the other pair of boots that had caught my eye (I had tried to avoid picking them up because I was after all, getting The Boots and there was no point in looking at other shoes because I had absolutely no chance of getting them) and had me try them on. They were so sexy, and so comfortable, and... they are black with blue laces and the tongue of the shoe folds over and has gray fur as a lining. They are absolutely gorgeous, too. He bought them for me! I couldn't believe it, and I still can't believe that I got a second pair of boots when it was so much trouble to get me the first pair. (I had to stop blogging a sec to put on the blue-lace boots, they were begging to be worn). I can't decide which pair to wear to the munch.
Oh yeah, and I also and going to be getting my Awarded Leather Boots sometimes soon, too! The boots that Master and Major awarded me as my first piece of earned leather were 2 sizes too small, and have to be traded in (online) so I can't wear them for a while, but I'll be wearing them when I get them, too. And I'll be shining them, Master says.
I've gotten so many shoes and boots lately and it's so awesome. I'm not even a shoe person, or I don't think of myself as one, and I have gotten a pair of flat boots with fur, a pair of bumble bee high heels, and 3 pairs of boots (described above) just since the beginning of December.
I gave Major a bj last night. He told me a story afterward.
Master hooded me and "got me ready" to give Him a blowjob by shoving my pink jelly vibrator down my throat, turned on high and rough, making me gag on purpose. He really enjoyed it. He said that The Boots gave me super blowjob powers because I didn't gag nearly as much as I normally do. Then He forced me onto my stomach on the bed and shoved His dick down my throat until He was ready to fuck me, which He did. He made me beg Him to come, and didn't let me come. It made me feel useful and at ease. Then He told me "Now" and was teasing my clit. I almost gushed everywhere, but I knew in the back of my head that He didn't really mean for me to come (He was out of me, and I don't get off without something in me, so He wouldn't have expected it) so I asked Him about it (which slowed me down) and He told me to come if I could, and I tried but I couldn't. He wasn't touching me the same, and I really wanted my vibrator back on my clit to do it. He taped my cunt shut since couldn't come. (Still hooded) He then took off the hood and ripped the duct tape off my cunt (and asshole). Then He spit in my cunt (He made me hold it open to spit in it, too) (Part of me was screaming no please don't and another part of me was screaming "DO EET, NOW" and He saw both sides and spit in me and I loved it.) He slapped me and pulled Lauren. He held her against a wall (Naked except for The Boots --I GOT FUCKED IN The Boots!!!!-Happy Dance-)
Then I was working on transcribing my blog and the story Major told me, and the door moved. A hand came in and tried to turn off the light. I had on the lamp light, so I knew that He wanted the light turned off, but not why. I turned it off, put the computer on the floor and moved toward the door to see if He was ok (Why did He want the light off?). I got to the door and had a moment of panic, so I reached for the light in case it wasn't Him after all. The light flicked on for a second, and Master was all dressed up in full vampire makeup, white face, red blood dripping, black lipstick, dark around the eyes... I screamed like a little bitch and dropped to the floor. The light went back out and I was lifted and thrown backward onto the bed and He was biting my neck hard and holding me down. I instantly went into RolePlaying mood and just lost my mind it was so amazing. He fed on both sides of my neck, and tortured me on purpose. Then we went and wiped off the make-up (His request so that I didn't stain my clothes) and then we came back to the bedroom and resumed RP almost immediately. He grabbed my leg and started spanking my ass hard, making fun of my reference to fast-healing when I still have scars on my leg from a dragon-tongue (thanks major!) while leaving even more marks. He focused mainly on my right leg, and halfway through my foot cramped, but we took care of it, and then He started beating me with paddles and things on top of hitting me with His hand. RPing a werewolf, I'm actually not a masochist even though it's Emily who is out. I think it's because of the frame of mind I have to be in to play my character, I can't enjoy the pain as much, except the feeding. I screamed over and over and loud every time He hit me. It was terrible and delicious at the same time, I thanked Him halfway through when He gave me a short break. He said I was a good girl, and put me to bed in His bed again. He told me I'm a good pet when I want to be.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
My Boots (Awarded my first Earned Leather)
They smell so good, they're knee-high, they have laces, buckles and no zipper so that every time I put them on I am reminded of what they mean, the time and effort and discipline that goes into the leather lifestyle. They lace all the way up the front, and then there are five buckles that go over the laces. They are of course black, no shine (yet, there will be soon), heavy, durable, hard core, and totally kick-ass boots. Also, they smell good (better than a new car). The soles are an inch thick with screws in the bottom to keep the sole secure. They are also acid (and a bunch of other stuff) resistant, so I can pretty much walk everywhere, which is good, because I am expected to follow the lead of my Master, which can take me some pretty crazy and kick-ass places.
My boots are also my first piece of earned leather. They were presented to me by SargentMajor, who just yesterday placed me under his collar of protection. He is my Master's leather brother, and as such, is kind of like my "Uncle Major" in a way. He says I earned them. Coming from someone who knows me as well as he does, that means a lot to me.
My boots were presented by SargentMajor, but they were gifted by both SargentMajor and my Master, Relly. Of course, it was a total secret and surprise to me, because unlike me, they both have awesome poker faces and are good at keeping secrets.
Leather takes a lot of work. It has to be treated, it has to be kept clean, taken care of, shined, and respected. Some may even go so far as to say that you can build a relationship with it, and get to know it. If you don't take care of it, it deteriorates, but if you do put in the time, the effort, and the respect, it will take care of you, too. This also applies to the leather lifestyle.
I have grown a lot in the past few years. I've tried a lot of things that scare the shit out of me, and (with a lot of help from my leather family) gotten out of my comfort zone, pushed some hard limits, and learned a lot. I tried needles, waterboarding, entered a title competition, got my ears pierced for the first time ever (this was one of the things that really turned out well in the long run, and I love them so much), and Master and I are even considering getting me a few other piercings. Now, the things I listed are mostly the kink part, the play stuff, the fun. But I have also learned a lot about people, about safety, about relationships, trust, hard work, respect, and dependability. I'm not going to list the things I've done, because that's not something to be pointed out. That's my responsibility to the community, it's not something special, I feel like it's my job. Who I am is what's important. If I give my word, it reflects on me, my Master, and our group, Kinky Catawba. I do my best to be dependable, honest, and supportive of the people around me.
My boots mean to me:
People respect me.
People see me as a leader, even though I don't do the "public speaking thing."
I'm officially a part of the community now!
I'm doing something right, so I should keep doing it.
Next time I really will kick D_C's ass, with these kick-ass boots. ;)
I'm going to learn how to shine boots now.
I own these. Master allows me to own these. (That brings the butterflies the most.)
So much that I can't put into words right now.
My boots are also my first piece of earned leather. They were presented to me by SargentMajor, who just yesterday placed me under his collar of protection. He is my Master's leather brother, and as such, is kind of like my "Uncle Major" in a way. He says I earned them. Coming from someone who knows me as well as he does, that means a lot to me.
My boots were presented by SargentMajor, but they were gifted by both SargentMajor and my Master, Relly. Of course, it was a total secret and surprise to me, because unlike me, they both have awesome poker faces and are good at keeping secrets.
Leather takes a lot of work. It has to be treated, it has to be kept clean, taken care of, shined, and respected. Some may even go so far as to say that you can build a relationship with it, and get to know it. If you don't take care of it, it deteriorates, but if you do put in the time, the effort, and the respect, it will take care of you, too. This also applies to the leather lifestyle.
I have grown a lot in the past few years. I've tried a lot of things that scare the shit out of me, and (with a lot of help from my leather family) gotten out of my comfort zone, pushed some hard limits, and learned a lot. I tried needles, waterboarding, entered a title competition, got my ears pierced for the first time ever (this was one of the things that really turned out well in the long run, and I love them so much), and Master and I are even considering getting me a few other piercings. Now, the things I listed are mostly the kink part, the play stuff, the fun. But I have also learned a lot about people, about safety, about relationships, trust, hard work, respect, and dependability. I'm not going to list the things I've done, because that's not something to be pointed out. That's my responsibility to the community, it's not something special, I feel like it's my job. Who I am is what's important. If I give my word, it reflects on me, my Master, and our group, Kinky Catawba. I do my best to be dependable, honest, and supportive of the people around me.
My boots mean to me:
People respect me.
People see me as a leader, even though I don't do the "public speaking thing."
I'm officially a part of the community now!
I'm doing something right, so I should keep doing it.
Next time I really will kick D_C's ass, with these kick-ass boots. ;)
I'm going to learn how to shine boots now.
I own these. Master allows me to own these. (That brings the butterflies the most.)
So much that I can't put into words right now.
Sunday, December 25, 2011
doing all my blog posts manually
yup ^
will back post them when I finally type them up :)
had sex last night, I have cum in me, I was supposed to start my period today but didn't. Master and Major bought me combat high heels but they weren't The Shoes I wanted (Never felt like that about a pair of shoes before in my life) and they hurt my feet. I almost had a breakdown in front of everyone because they weren't the shoes. I know I'll never find them again (not being pessimistic, can't find them anywhere online or otherwise) and the store I saw them in didn't have my size in the first place or I would have had them then. blah. but I'm ok now, Master says we'll tell Major they're not the right shoes, and we can take them back and get a pair that actually fit me or I like or something. I told Him I don't need a replacement pair if they're not The Shoes but He wants me to have some --I don't understand that really, because it doesn't make sense to me to have just another pair of high heels if they aren't something I really really am aching for-- but He doesn't understand how I could like one pair of boots and not a similar pair. It's really simple to me. The reasons I fell in love with the other pair are the things that are missing from the pair they got me. The biggest thing was that they don't have the really deep treads that the other pair had. Also, they're not as comfy, the material it's made of isn't the right texture for combat boots, I think the laces are different (they hurt my hands) and there isn't any fur in the top of the boots.
It's really not a big deal. The big deal was that I didn't want to hurt them by letting on that it was the wrong pair of shoes.
will back post them when I finally type them up :)
had sex last night, I have cum in me, I was supposed to start my period today but didn't. Master and Major bought me combat high heels but they weren't The Shoes I wanted (Never felt like that about a pair of shoes before in my life) and they hurt my feet. I almost had a breakdown in front of everyone because they weren't the shoes. I know I'll never find them again (not being pessimistic, can't find them anywhere online or otherwise) and the store I saw them in didn't have my size in the first place or I would have had them then. blah. but I'm ok now, Master says we'll tell Major they're not the right shoes, and we can take them back and get a pair that actually fit me or I like or something. I told Him I don't need a replacement pair if they're not The Shoes but He wants me to have some --I don't understand that really, because it doesn't make sense to me to have just another pair of high heels if they aren't something I really really am aching for-- but He doesn't understand how I could like one pair of boots and not a similar pair. It's really simple to me. The reasons I fell in love with the other pair are the things that are missing from the pair they got me. The biggest thing was that they don't have the really deep treads that the other pair had. Also, they're not as comfy, the material it's made of isn't the right texture for combat boots, I think the laces are different (they hurt my hands) and there isn't any fur in the top of the boots.
It's really not a big deal. The big deal was that I didn't want to hurt them by letting on that it was the wrong pair of shoes.
Monday, December 19, 2011
serving doesn't feel so noble right now.
serving when I'm angry makes me feel weak, pathetic, unappreciated.
It makes me feel like I've been told "you're absolutely useless to me, I don't want to see your face ever again.... go make me a sandwich." Because He can drop all Masterlyness but I still obey ALL protocols or risk punishment.
I mean who in their right mind goes and does something they don't want to do for someone they're angry with, knowing that the angry person won't appreciate it since they're angry. They won't be grateful, or say thank you, or think, "wow, she really loves me." They're just going to shrug, and dismiss that it was done for them. "Oh, she just does it because it gets her off. It's something she really wants in the long run."
I don't want an argument about this, so I won't go bug Him after what was just said between us, but if He could explain this to me so I can cope and keep serving without rebelling when I'm angry, I'd really appreciate it.
It makes me feel like I've been told "you're absolutely useless to me, I don't want to see your face ever again.... go make me a sandwich." Because He can drop all Masterlyness but I still obey ALL protocols or risk punishment.
I mean who in their right mind goes and does something they don't want to do for someone they're angry with, knowing that the angry person won't appreciate it since they're angry. They won't be grateful, or say thank you, or think, "wow, she really loves me." They're just going to shrug, and dismiss that it was done for them. "Oh, she just does it because it gets her off. It's something she really wants in the long run."
I don't want an argument about this, so I won't go bug Him after what was just said between us, but if He could explain this to me so I can cope and keep serving without rebelling when I'm angry, I'd really appreciate it.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Marina Abramovic - Rhythm 0
http://www.portlandmercury.com/portland/marina-abramovic/Content?oid=37615
A really very fascinating history and social experiment sets.
A really very fascinating history and social experiment sets.
Tuesday night, the "grandmother of performance art" (her own designation), Marina Abramovic will tell Portland about her life's work, which has married highbrow art, self-mutilation, behavioral psychology, and religious asceticism for more than 30 years. While other similarly intense performance artists of her era have retired to less punishing practices, Abramovic continues to push the limits of her mind and body, even as she turns 60 this year. It's a free lecture, and it's going to be packed, so show up early. And keep your eyes out for some of these classic works.
Imponderabilia, 1977—Abramovic and then-collaborator Ulay stand guard at the entrance to a performance festival in Bologna. They flank the narrow doorway completely nude. In order to enter the galleries, each audience member must squeeze between the two naked artists, deciding which of them to face.
Rhythm 0, 1974—In what would become her most famous performance to date, Abramovic offers her body (and by extension, her life) completely to her audience. She stands in a room with a table that held 72 objects—needles, grapes, knives, chains, a saw, lipstick—and a loaded pistol. A sign on the wall gives the audience permission to use the objects on the artist however they want. Although they start off timidly, by the end of the performance her clothes have been cut off, and she has been sliced with razors. Someone holds the gun against her head, and another audience member wrestles it away. This goes on for six hours.
Rhythm 2, 1974—Abramovic takes a pill designed for catatonic patients. For two hours, in front of a packed audience, the artist's body seizes, lurches, and shakes uncontrollably. Ten minutes after the effects wear off, Abramovic takes another pill—one that paralyzes her body for an additional six full hours.
The House With the Ocean View, 2002—In a riff on endurance-based performance art from the '70s, Abramovic fasts and lives in the Sean Kelly Gallery for 12 straight days in full view of her audience. The only way she can stop the performance is by descending from her elevated living space via one of three ladders. The ladders' rungs are made of upturned butcher knives. For nearly two weeks, she does little but shower, go to the bathroom, sleep, and stare at the audience. She doesn't utter a word for the duration of the performance. Unlike Rhythm 0, this audience confrontation requires no props. CHAS BOWIE
for more info, here's another link
http://www.duke.edu/web/museo/spring99/marina.html
I'd love to know what the 72 items were.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/patricia-zohn/culture-zohn-marina-abrom_b_493064.html
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/12/arts/design/12abromovic.html?pagewanted=all
Imponderabilia, 1977—Abramovic and then-collaborator Ulay stand guard at the entrance to a performance festival in Bologna. They flank the narrow doorway completely nude. In order to enter the galleries, each audience member must squeeze between the two naked artists, deciding which of them to face.
Rhythm 0, 1974—In what would become her most famous performance to date, Abramovic offers her body (and by extension, her life) completely to her audience. She stands in a room with a table that held 72 objects—needles, grapes, knives, chains, a saw, lipstick—and a loaded pistol. A sign on the wall gives the audience permission to use the objects on the artist however they want. Although they start off timidly, by the end of the performance her clothes have been cut off, and she has been sliced with razors. Someone holds the gun against her head, and another audience member wrestles it away. This goes on for six hours.
Rhythm 2, 1974—Abramovic takes a pill designed for catatonic patients. For two hours, in front of a packed audience, the artist's body seizes, lurches, and shakes uncontrollably. Ten minutes after the effects wear off, Abramovic takes another pill—one that paralyzes her body for an additional six full hours.
The House With the Ocean View, 2002—In a riff on endurance-based performance art from the '70s, Abramovic fasts and lives in the Sean Kelly Gallery for 12 straight days in full view of her audience. The only way she can stop the performance is by descending from her elevated living space via one of three ladders. The ladders' rungs are made of upturned butcher knives. For nearly two weeks, she does little but shower, go to the bathroom, sleep, and stare at the audience. She doesn't utter a word for the duration of the performance. Unlike Rhythm 0, this audience confrontation requires no props. CHAS BOWIE
for more info, here's another link
http://www.duke.edu/web/museo/spring99/marina.html
I'd love to know what the 72 items were.
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/patricia-zohn/culture-zohn-marina-abrom_b_493064.html
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/12/arts/design/12abromovic.html?pagewanted=all
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
HP battery recalls seen at walmart
http://walmartstores.com/Recalls/
http://www.recalls.gov/search.html search HP battery
http://search.cpsc.gov/query.html?col=recalls&charset=iso-8859-1&qt=hp+battery
http://www.cpsc.gov/cpscpub/prerel/prhtml10/10240.html
http://www.cpsc.gov/cpscpub/prerel/prhtml11/11234.html (expanded)
http://bpr.hpordercenter.com/hbpr/ -eventual end destination
http://www.recalls.gov/search.html search HP battery
http://search.cpsc.gov/query.html?col=recalls&charset=iso-8859-1&qt=hp+battery
http://www.cpsc.gov/cpscpub/prerel/prhtml10/10240.html
http://www.cpsc.gov/cpscpub/prerel/prhtml11/11234.html (expanded)
http://bpr.hpordercenter.com/hbpr/ -eventual end destination
Monday, December 12, 2011
He wants for Christmas
funny T-Shirts
knives
ipod- cheap mp3 player not really
legos
ninjago black ninja alarm clock
hot wheels that no one can pick out but me
fast food gift cards
boxers
socks
shoes
cool cigars
poofy pillow... ooooooh
warm fuzzy blanket... yeeeeeeah
straight talk android phone
knives
ipod- cheap mp3 player not really
legos
ninjago black ninja alarm clock
hot wheels that no one can pick out but me
fast food gift cards
boxers
socks
shoes
cool cigars
poofy pillow... ooooooh
warm fuzzy blanket... yeeeeeeah
straight talk android phone
responsible
He wants a $150 phone for Christmas.
I want the car fixed, the dog's shots, our bills paid....
I hate being the responsible one.
I'd love to go all out and tell people exactly what I want, but I am not comfortable in my skin when the car is 2 years overdue for an inspection, and everytime we ride by a cop my husband freaks the fuck out. All I want for Christmas is comfort.
He accuses me of saying that He should give up His Christmas present (to Himself) so that the car will be fixed.
I HATE THIS. I can't go out and get the car inspected. I CANNOT DRIVE. and he flat out won't do it. It makes me feel like He doesn't do it as a fucking power trip. to torture me.
I wish I could let go and enjoy everything, but our car is ILLEGAL.
I hate that they make fun of girls who like major. major should be thankful that someone likes him, not an asshole and talk about how pathetic these girls are. I am friends with these girls, and I can't stand the way he talks about them behind their back. It instantly makes me hate him.
I want the car fixed, the dog's shots, our bills paid....
I hate being the responsible one.
I'd love to go all out and tell people exactly what I want, but I am not comfortable in my skin when the car is 2 years overdue for an inspection, and everytime we ride by a cop my husband freaks the fuck out. All I want for Christmas is comfort.
He accuses me of saying that He should give up His Christmas present (to Himself) so that the car will be fixed.
I HATE THIS. I can't go out and get the car inspected. I CANNOT DRIVE. and he flat out won't do it. It makes me feel like He doesn't do it as a fucking power trip. to torture me.
I wish I could let go and enjoy everything, but our car is ILLEGAL.
I hate that they make fun of girls who like major. major should be thankful that someone likes him, not an asshole and talk about how pathetic these girls are. I am friends with these girls, and I can't stand the way he talks about them behind their back. It instantly makes me hate him.
Punishments
I was punished today.
I drank 2 glasses of water yesterday, my minimum allowance was 4. I was hit twice with the rubber paddle (we just bought it, it was $5 at Spencer's and I thought I would love it. It hurts so bad!) and then fucked, humiliated, written on, and made to cry.
Now I have to drink a minimum of 5 glasses of water today. Standing order.
I forgot to lift the toilet seat at Wal-Mart and confessed it to Him when I remembered. I was hit again two more times with the rubber paddle.
I drank 2 glasses of water yesterday, my minimum allowance was 4. I was hit twice with the rubber paddle (we just bought it, it was $5 at Spencer's and I thought I would love it. It hurts so bad!) and then fucked, humiliated, written on, and made to cry.
Now I have to drink a minimum of 5 glasses of water today. Standing order.
I forgot to lift the toilet seat at Wal-Mart and confessed it to Him when I remembered. I was hit again two more times with the rubber paddle.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
Assignment: Personalities and Relationships
Kyle's Relationship with:
Emily - Kyle is my Master. He is my friend, and He is so much fun to have sex with!
Phiar - Kyle is that asshole who never wants me to have any fun. No, really, He always picks me up when I break. He holds me, and He knows all my weaknesses and fantasies and plays me like a harp.
Lauren - I respect Him, but He is not my Master. He is my Dominant, and He calls me when something is wrong with His girls, and we respect each other.
Susy - Kyle is my Daddy!! He's my Kyle-Bear and He snuggles me when I have bad dreams. He's been really bossy lately though. He makes me call Him Sir and stuff because He's a bossy-face.
Candy - Kyle is my Daddy, too. He doesn't get mad at me though, because I listen better, and I know that He's my Master and I am His slave. I always try to do what He says and not fuss too much.
Blink - Kyle tells me what to do, and I do my best not to listen because I don't like to listen. but I play and make Him laugh so He doesn't know that I don't want to listen and just want to play. He put me in Five and poured water on me. I loved that it was super fun.
Danny - Kyle broke me the first time and now we have an understanding. In fact, it's even better than an understanding.
Sydney - Kyle is comfort to me. Protector.
Vicki - Kyle listens to me. He used to listen better, but I understand. It's very important that what He's doing succeeds. I am His Mistress, but I will always be their slave as well, because I respect who He must be in public.
Melissa - Kyle is my Dominant. I obey Him, and we get along well.
Gin - He picked me up that night in Alabama. On the bridge. I miss Him.
Seshafi - He is my Master. He owns me, and He uses me as He pleases, but He is teaching me as well.
Andrew's Relationship with:
Emily - It sounds so stupid, and seems so obvious, when I say it like this, but He's my Husband, and I don't know what else to say. The sex always seems to get better when he's around.
Phiar - I love having sex with Him! I didn't think I would, since my fantasy is other people, but it was really good, and I'd like to do it again some time.
Lauren - Andrew is genuine, loving, and gentle. He lets me have sips of His coffee, and I love adding cinnamon to it. I miss cuddling with Him.
Susy - He's my Andy and I love Him! wee got in a fight one day because I said No to Him, and He had to make me listen. I didn't want to listen, and it hurt, but I was really glad to have Him around after it was over. And I'm glad He made me listen.
Candy - I love Him. He's my Daddy, too - I call everyone but Timmy and Luke "Daddy" because I love them so much and they all take good good care of me, and my Andrew Daddy is a bit more gentle with me than the rest.
Blink - Andrew always looks when I tap His shoulder. I love playing with Him, He's very much fun and nice and sweet.
Danny - Andrew is the best at understanding how hard it is to "play nice with the girls" and always listens when I need to talk about it.
Sydney - When both of us are out at the same time, it usually leads to amazing sex, because we love each other so much. He's my Husband, and usually doesn't want to spend the time telling me what to do instead of enjoying my company. It's like we can never get enough of each other.
Vicki - He's submissive to me, too. I haven't been out in a long time, and it's hard to write these things.
Melissa -
Gin - We understand each other. I think He was the one who told me I don't have to be submissive, and likes that about me.
Seshafi - He gave me my name. He recognized me, "Sands" and helped me realize who and what I am.
Mikkal's Relationship with:
Emily - We have a running joke that He likes fucking me because I'm "Kyle's girl". I respect Him very much.
Phiar - Mikkal is a lot of fun to play with. Someone usually ends up hurt though.
Lauren - I'm His BabyGirl. He loves fucking me too hard. I love giving Him my pain. When I feel like I can't take any more pain, that's when He smiles down and says good girl.
Susy - I'm His Cookies!! He loves me and plays rough with me but not hurts me.
Candy - Mikkal is very soft to me. I like it. I like that He touches me and doesn't want sex. I like that He doesn't want sex because I'm a little girl. I like that He never gets mad if I don't want to do something.
Blink -I like playing with Mikkal because He has a funny sense of humor and likes my jokes, but He avoids me a little because it is hard for Him to talk to me and understand what I'm saying.
Danny - He can make me feel like a woman without ruining my reputation with everyone else.
Sydney - He's scary, but I still know He won't hurt me. I love that look He gets when He's thinking of hurting someone.
Vicki - He can fuck me hard enough, sometimes.
Melissa - Danny gave me to Mikkal as a gift. He is my Master, and I very much enjoy pleasing Him.
Gin - Mikkal makes me feel alive. I love the feeling of danger around Him. He thinks my driving sucks.
Seshafi - Mikkal loves having sex with me, using me. Especially because He knows I don't enjoy sex.
Luke's Relationship with:
Emily -
Phiar - Cute kid. I like showing Him my boobs because He gets all excited and wants to touch. And I love being touched!
Lauren -
Susy - Luke and I always yell at each other, but it's fun, and we love getting on each others nerves. I wanna kiss him on the mouth!
Candy - He gave me a ZhuZhu Pet!!! :) She's so pretty and I love her so much.I'm so glad we're friends.
Blink - I like Luke. He always says what He means, and I don't have to worry that He's being nice to spare my feelings.
Danny - I named Luke, because He was saying I like you - wouldn't say I love you... and I took the u from you and put it into "like." He's a good kid, and always tries to please.
Sydney - He's so sensitive! When I explained to Him that sometimes sex hurts us, He stopped pushing so hard, and even played with me to help meet more comfortable before we did anything.
Vicki - He's my little boy of course! He listens, and He's always so eager to please and lay His head on my chest and snuggle up close to me.
Melissa -
Gin - I think we've met once.
Seshafi - He was surprised the first time I called Him Sir, and He loves that I'll have sex with Him any time He asks.
Timmy's Relationship with:
Emily -
Phiar - We see each other around, but I don't think there's been a real connection yet. I try to be less... outspoken around Him so that I don't upset Him. I'd love to get to know Him better, but I'm not sure what common interests we have.
Lauren -
Susy -
Candy -
Blink - We always get into so much fun (trouble) together! We eat candy and play games and drink milk and stuff. Timmy is a good friend.
Danny -
Sydney -
Vicki -
Melissa -
Gin -
Seshafi - I don't come out much when Timmy is around, there are many others who are always anxious to be out around Him.Still, if He were to give me an order, I would follow it.
Emily - Kyle is my Master. He is my friend, and He is so much fun to have sex with!
Phiar - Kyle is that asshole who never wants me to have any fun. No, really, He always picks me up when I break. He holds me, and He knows all my weaknesses and fantasies and plays me like a harp.
Lauren - I respect Him, but He is not my Master. He is my Dominant, and He calls me when something is wrong with His girls, and we respect each other.
Susy - Kyle is my Daddy!! He's my Kyle-Bear and He snuggles me when I have bad dreams. He's been really bossy lately though. He makes me call Him Sir and stuff because He's a bossy-face.
Candy - Kyle is my Daddy, too. He doesn't get mad at me though, because I listen better, and I know that He's my Master and I am His slave. I always try to do what He says and not fuss too much.
Blink - Kyle tells me what to do, and I do my best not to listen because I don't like to listen. but I play and make Him laugh so He doesn't know that I don't want to listen and just want to play. He put me in Five and poured water on me. I loved that it was super fun.
Danny - Kyle broke me the first time and now we have an understanding. In fact, it's even better than an understanding.
Sydney - Kyle is comfort to me. Protector.
Vicki - Kyle listens to me. He used to listen better, but I understand. It's very important that what He's doing succeeds. I am His Mistress, but I will always be their slave as well, because I respect who He must be in public.
Melissa - Kyle is my Dominant. I obey Him, and we get along well.
Gin - He picked me up that night in Alabama. On the bridge. I miss Him.
Seshafi - He is my Master. He owns me, and He uses me as He pleases, but He is teaching me as well.
Andrew's Relationship with:
Emily - It sounds so stupid, and seems so obvious, when I say it like this, but He's my Husband, and I don't know what else to say. The sex always seems to get better when he's around.
Phiar - I love having sex with Him! I didn't think I would, since my fantasy is other people, but it was really good, and I'd like to do it again some time.
Lauren - Andrew is genuine, loving, and gentle. He lets me have sips of His coffee, and I love adding cinnamon to it. I miss cuddling with Him.
Susy - He's my Andy and I love Him! wee got in a fight one day because I said No to Him, and He had to make me listen. I didn't want to listen, and it hurt, but I was really glad to have Him around after it was over. And I'm glad He made me listen.
Candy - I love Him. He's my Daddy, too - I call everyone but Timmy and Luke "Daddy" because I love them so much and they all take good good care of me, and my Andrew Daddy is a bit more gentle with me than the rest.
Blink - Andrew always looks when I tap His shoulder. I love playing with Him, He's very much fun and nice and sweet.
Danny - Andrew is the best at understanding how hard it is to "play nice with the girls" and always listens when I need to talk about it.
Sydney - When both of us are out at the same time, it usually leads to amazing sex, because we love each other so much. He's my Husband, and usually doesn't want to spend the time telling me what to do instead of enjoying my company. It's like we can never get enough of each other.
Vicki - He's submissive to me, too. I haven't been out in a long time, and it's hard to write these things.
Melissa -
Gin - We understand each other. I think He was the one who told me I don't have to be submissive, and likes that about me.
Seshafi - He gave me my name. He recognized me, "Sands" and helped me realize who and what I am.
Mikkal's Relationship with:
Emily - We have a running joke that He likes fucking me because I'm "Kyle's girl". I respect Him very much.
Phiar - Mikkal is a lot of fun to play with. Someone usually ends up hurt though.
Lauren - I'm His BabyGirl. He loves fucking me too hard. I love giving Him my pain. When I feel like I can't take any more pain, that's when He smiles down and says good girl.
Susy - I'm His Cookies!! He loves me and plays rough with me but not hurts me.
Candy - Mikkal is very soft to me. I like it. I like that He touches me and doesn't want sex. I like that He doesn't want sex because I'm a little girl. I like that He never gets mad if I don't want to do something.
Blink -I like playing with Mikkal because He has a funny sense of humor and likes my jokes, but He avoids me a little because it is hard for Him to talk to me and understand what I'm saying.
Danny - He can make me feel like a woman without ruining my reputation with everyone else.
Sydney - He's scary, but I still know He won't hurt me. I love that look He gets when He's thinking of hurting someone.
Vicki - He can fuck me hard enough, sometimes.
Melissa - Danny gave me to Mikkal as a gift. He is my Master, and I very much enjoy pleasing Him.
Gin - Mikkal makes me feel alive. I love the feeling of danger around Him. He thinks my driving sucks.
Seshafi - Mikkal loves having sex with me, using me. Especially because He knows I don't enjoy sex.
Luke's Relationship with:
Emily -
Phiar - Cute kid. I like showing Him my boobs because He gets all excited and wants to touch. And I love being touched!
Lauren -
Susy - Luke and I always yell at each other, but it's fun, and we love getting on each others nerves. I wanna kiss him on the mouth!
Candy - He gave me a ZhuZhu Pet!!! :) She's so pretty and I love her so much.I'm so glad we're friends.
Blink - I like Luke. He always says what He means, and I don't have to worry that He's being nice to spare my feelings.
Danny - I named Luke, because He was saying I like you - wouldn't say I love you... and I took the u from you and put it into "like." He's a good kid, and always tries to please.
Sydney - He's so sensitive! When I explained to Him that sometimes sex hurts us, He stopped pushing so hard, and even played with me to help meet more comfortable before we did anything.
Vicki - He's my little boy of course! He listens, and He's always so eager to please and lay His head on my chest and snuggle up close to me.
Melissa -
Gin - I think we've met once.
Seshafi - He was surprised the first time I called Him Sir, and He loves that I'll have sex with Him any time He asks.
Timmy's Relationship with:
Emily -
Phiar - We see each other around, but I don't think there's been a real connection yet. I try to be less... outspoken around Him so that I don't upset Him. I'd love to get to know Him better, but I'm not sure what common interests we have.
Lauren -
Susy -
Candy -
Blink - We always get into so much fun (trouble) together! We eat candy and play games and drink milk and stuff. Timmy is a good friend.
Danny -
Sydney -
Vicki -
Melissa -
Gin -
Seshafi - I don't come out much when Timmy is around, there are many others who are always anxious to be out around Him.Still, if He were to give me an order, I would follow it.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Renumbered at Master's instruction.
- Shaved - Arms
- Shaved - Armpits
- Shaved - Cunt
- Shaved - Legs
- Shaved - Ass
- Cleanliness - Body
- Cleanliness - Clothing
- Cleanliness - Mouth
- Cleanliness - Hair
- Cleanliness - Did the slave follow orders from the previous day regarding self-care?
- Physical Appearance - Has slave applied make-up today?
- Physical Appearance - Has slave brushed her hair today?
- Physical Appearance - Has slave "dressed to kill" for her Master today?
- Physical Appearance - Has the slave been drinking water/applying chapstick to take care of her skin?
- Physical Appearance - Does the slave appear confident in her position?
- Knowledge - Does slave know her rules? Protocols?
- Knowledge - Does slave know her Master? favorite colors, how does He take His coffee, etc.
- Knowledge - Does slave hold her position correctly?
- Knowledge - Does slave speak only when spoken to, and answer confidently?
- Knowledge - Is the slave prompt to assume the position, or is she in position when her Master enters the room?
My Score:
1: 3
2: 4
3: 3
4: 4
5: 5
6: 4
7: 5
8: 4
9: 4
10: 5
11: 1
12: 2
13: 4
14: 4
15: 5
16: 5
17: 3
18: 5
19: 4
20: 5
79/100
C+ 100-90 is A, 89-80 is B, 79-70 is C, 69-65 is D, 64< is FAIL
Master expects at least a B, however, and so anything below a 70 is still punishable.
Notes:
1. Learn your rules: http://emilytade.blogspot.com/2011/11/for-your-consideration.html
#9+10 are to be changed and consolidated into one rule that is;
#9 I will follow all rules, protocols, and standing orders to the best of my ability.
(http://emilytade.blogspot.com/search/label/Rules)
2. Put your make-up on daily!!! I don't care if you have to set an alarm clock to get up early enough, but you better have it on!
3. 4-5 glasses of water daily
4. Great job on the positions! I'm proud of you.
5. Create an easy to read/use score sheet for the inspection.
my New Rules
He loved my idea for reordering my rules! So these are the new ones that I have to learn!
Rule 2, I will be clear and open regarding my needs and desires, both in everyday life and during sex.I will inform my Master when I feel the desire to cut, and I will use my safeword when I feel I have reached my limit.
Rule 3, I will take care of all my needs to the best of my abilities, asking my Master if there is a need I am unable to meet alone, and will dress according to my Master's direction.
Rule 4, I will refer to my Master as Sir, unless otherwise instructed.
Rule 5, I will be respectful of myself, both by my words and actions, as it is necessary to respect myself in order to respect my Master.
Rule 6, I will be respectful of my Master, both by my words and actions. It is my purpose to please Him, and disrespect is not to be tolerated.
Rule 7, I will wear my collar always, and will obey each of my Master's commands confidently, knowing it has been well-thought out, and that He would not give me a task that I am not equipped to complete to His satisfaction.
Rule 8, I will blog daily unless given permission to do otherwise, and will leave the blog window open each time I have finished blogging so that He may read it.
Rule 9, I will follow all rules, protocols, and standing orders to the best of my ability.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Assignment from 12-7-11 100 point inspection
100 point inspection. There are four categories, with total 25 points in each category. Each item in these categories is worth 5 points.
Points:
Shaved - Arms
Shaved - Armpits
Shaved - Cunt
Shaved - Legs
Shaved - Ass
Cleanliness - Body
Cleanliness - Clothing
Cleanliness - Mouth
Cleanliness - Hair
Cleanliness - Did the slave follow orders from the previous day regarding self-care?
Physical Appearance - Has slave applied make-up today?
Physical Appearance - Has slave brushed her hair today?
Physical Appearance - Has slave "dressed to kill" for her Master today?
Physical Appearance - Has the slave been drinking water/applying chapstick to take care of her skin?
Physical Appearance - Does the slave appear confident in her position?
Knowledge - Does slave know her rules? Protocols?
Knowledge - Does slave know her Master? favorite colors, how does He take His coffee, etc.
Knowledge - Does slave hold her position correctly?
Knowledge - Does slave speak only when spoken to, and answer confidently?
Knowledge - Is the slave prompt to assume the position, or is she in position when her Master enters the room?
Be in position when Master enters the room, or promptly after His command.
My expectations:
At bedtime, we will go to the bedroom together, and I will undress and go to Position Two at the foot of the bed. Once He is ready, I will go to whatever position he requires for the inspection. I imagine this to be Position Five, at first. He will walk around me, judging me, looking for flaws in His property. During inspection, I am to remain perfectly silent and still unless asked a direct question. This adds to the ritual, objectification, humiliation of the inspection. Of course, Master is more than free to comment on my body, and anything I may have missed, as well as tell me to "wash your hair tomorrow." Then I will go to whatever other position He deems appropriate to be able to judge the rest of my body, but I am not allowed to make eye contact. I expect Him to grab my jaw and check my mouth (maybe only once but it's a really hot fantasy that I want to experience during an inspection) and tell me to take care of my mouth, and shove me back into Position Two. After inspecting me and making me feel purposely off balance, He may do whatever He wants to me. If I "fail" my inspection, by not doing something He told me to do, or answering a question incorrectly, or for some other reason, then I must be punished for it. If I pass, then I am allowed to go to bed, or may even be rewarded with sex... but realistically, if I pass my inspection it means I did what I was supposed to, and I'm good enough for my Master to use.
I've been fantasizing about Master (after we've established a good routine and proper expectations for an inspection) bringing Major in to "help" inspect me or punish me for failing an inspection. I really don't know how I'd deal with it though, because it made me feel so vulnerable just to have Master look at my ass that I think if Major was looking at it/judging me I wouldn't be able to handle it.
Points:
Shaved - Arms
Shaved - Armpits
Shaved - Cunt
Shaved - Legs
Shaved - Ass
Cleanliness - Body
Cleanliness - Clothing
Cleanliness - Mouth
Cleanliness - Hair
Cleanliness - Did the slave follow orders from the previous day regarding self-care?
Physical Appearance - Has slave applied make-up today?
Physical Appearance - Has slave brushed her hair today?
Physical Appearance - Has slave "dressed to kill" for her Master today?
Physical Appearance - Has the slave been drinking water/applying chapstick to take care of her skin?
Physical Appearance - Does the slave appear confident in her position?
Knowledge - Does slave know her rules? Protocols?
Knowledge - Does slave know her Master? favorite colors, how does He take His coffee, etc.
Knowledge - Does slave hold her position correctly?
Knowledge - Does slave speak only when spoken to, and answer confidently?
Knowledge - Is the slave prompt to assume the position, or is she in position when her Master enters the room?
Be in position when Master enters the room, or promptly after His command.
My expectations:
At bedtime, we will go to the bedroom together, and I will undress and go to Position Two at the foot of the bed. Once He is ready, I will go to whatever position he requires for the inspection. I imagine this to be Position Five, at first. He will walk around me, judging me, looking for flaws in His property. During inspection, I am to remain perfectly silent and still unless asked a direct question. This adds to the ritual, objectification, humiliation of the inspection. Of course, Master is more than free to comment on my body, and anything I may have missed, as well as tell me to "wash your hair tomorrow." Then I will go to whatever other position He deems appropriate to be able to judge the rest of my body, but I am not allowed to make eye contact. I expect Him to grab my jaw and check my mouth (maybe only once but it's a really hot fantasy that I want to experience during an inspection) and tell me to take care of my mouth, and shove me back into Position Two. After inspecting me and making me feel purposely off balance, He may do whatever He wants to me. If I "fail" my inspection, by not doing something He told me to do, or answering a question incorrectly, or for some other reason, then I must be punished for it. If I pass, then I am allowed to go to bed, or may even be rewarded with sex... but realistically, if I pass my inspection it means I did what I was supposed to, and I'm good enough for my Master to use.
I've been fantasizing about Master (after we've established a good routine and proper expectations for an inspection) bringing Major in to "help" inspect me or punish me for failing an inspection. I really don't know how I'd deal with it though, because it made me feel so vulnerable just to have Master look at my ass that I think if Major was looking at it/judging me I wouldn't be able to handle it.
Assignment from 12-3-11 personalities and relationships
Kyle's Relationship with:
Emily - Kyle is my Master. He is my friend, and He is so much fun to have sex with!
Phiar - Kyle is that asshole who never wants me to have any fun. No, really, He always picks me up when I break. He holds me, and He knows all my weaknesses and fantasies and plays me like a harp.
Lauren - I respect Him, but He is not my Master. He is my Dominant, and He calls me when something is wrong with His girls, and we respect each other.
Susy - Kyle is my Daddy!! He's my Kyle-Bear and He snuggles me when I have bad dreams. He's been really bossy lately though. He makes me call Him Sir and stuff because He's a bossy-face.
Candy - Kyle is my Daddy, too. He doesn't get mad at me though, because I listen better, and I know that He's my Master and I am His slave. I always try to do what He says and not fuss too much.
Blink - Kyle tells me what to do, and I do my best not to listen because I don't like to listen. but I play and make Him laugh so He doesn't know that I don't want to listen and just want to play. He put me in Five and poured water on me. I loved that it was super fun.
Danny - Kyle broke me the first time and now we have an understanding. In fact, it's even better than an understanding.
Sydney - Kyle is comfort to me. Protector.
Vicki - Kyle listens to me. He used to listen better, but I understand. It's very important that what He's doing succeeds. I am His Mistress, but I will always be their slave as well, because I respect who He must be in public.
Melissa - Kyle is my Dominant. I obey Him, and we get along well.
Gin - He picked me up that night in Alabama. On the bridge. I miss Him.
Seshafi - He is my Master. He owns me, and He uses me as He pleases, but He is teaching me as well.
Andrew's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Mikkal's Relationship with:
Emily - We have a running joke that He likes fucking me because I'm "Kyle's girl". I respect Him very much.
Phiar - Mikkal is a lot of fun to play with. Someone usually ends up hurt though.
Lauren - I'm His BabyGirl. He loves fucking me too hard. I love giving Him my pain. When I feel like I can't take any more pain, that's when He smiles down and says good girl.
Susy - I'm His Cookies!! He loves me and plays rough with me but not hurts me.
Candy - Mikkal is very soft to me. I like it. I like that He touches me and doesn't want sex. I like that He doesn't want sex because I'm a little girl. I like that He never gets mad if I don't want to do something.
Blink -
Danny - He can make me feel like a woman without ruining my reputation with everyone else.
Sydney - He's scary, but I still know He won't hurt me. I love that look He gets when He's thinking of hurting someone.
Vicki - He can fuck me hard enough, sometimes.
Melissa - Danny gave me to Mikkal as a gift. He is my Master, and I very much enjoy pleasing Him.
Gin - Mikkal makes me feel alive. I love the feeling of danger around Him. He thinks my driving sucks.
Seshafi - Mikkal loves having sex with me, using me. Especially because He knows I don't enjoy sex.
Luke's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy - He gave me a ZhuZhu Pet!!! :) She's so pretty and I love her so much.
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi - He was surprised the first time I called Him Sir, and He loves that I'll have sex with Him any time He asks.
Timmy's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Emily - Kyle is my Master. He is my friend, and He is so much fun to have sex with!
Phiar - Kyle is that asshole who never wants me to have any fun. No, really, He always picks me up when I break. He holds me, and He knows all my weaknesses and fantasies and plays me like a harp.
Lauren - I respect Him, but He is not my Master. He is my Dominant, and He calls me when something is wrong with His girls, and we respect each other.
Susy - Kyle is my Daddy!! He's my Kyle-Bear and He snuggles me when I have bad dreams. He's been really bossy lately though. He makes me call Him Sir and stuff because He's a bossy-face.
Candy - Kyle is my Daddy, too. He doesn't get mad at me though, because I listen better, and I know that He's my Master and I am His slave. I always try to do what He says and not fuss too much.
Blink - Kyle tells me what to do, and I do my best not to listen because I don't like to listen. but I play and make Him laugh so He doesn't know that I don't want to listen and just want to play. He put me in Five and poured water on me. I loved that it was super fun.
Danny - Kyle broke me the first time and now we have an understanding. In fact, it's even better than an understanding.
Sydney - Kyle is comfort to me. Protector.
Vicki - Kyle listens to me. He used to listen better, but I understand. It's very important that what He's doing succeeds. I am His Mistress, but I will always be their slave as well, because I respect who He must be in public.
Melissa - Kyle is my Dominant. I obey Him, and we get along well.
Gin - He picked me up that night in Alabama. On the bridge. I miss Him.
Seshafi - He is my Master. He owns me, and He uses me as He pleases, but He is teaching me as well.
Andrew's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Mikkal's Relationship with:
Emily - We have a running joke that He likes fucking me because I'm "Kyle's girl". I respect Him very much.
Phiar - Mikkal is a lot of fun to play with. Someone usually ends up hurt though.
Lauren - I'm His BabyGirl. He loves fucking me too hard. I love giving Him my pain. When I feel like I can't take any more pain, that's when He smiles down and says good girl.
Susy - I'm His Cookies!! He loves me and plays rough with me but not hurts me.
Candy - Mikkal is very soft to me. I like it. I like that He touches me and doesn't want sex. I like that He doesn't want sex because I'm a little girl. I like that He never gets mad if I don't want to do something.
Blink -
Danny - He can make me feel like a woman without ruining my reputation with everyone else.
Sydney - He's scary, but I still know He won't hurt me. I love that look He gets when He's thinking of hurting someone.
Vicki - He can fuck me hard enough, sometimes.
Melissa - Danny gave me to Mikkal as a gift. He is my Master, and I very much enjoy pleasing Him.
Gin - Mikkal makes me feel alive. I love the feeling of danger around Him. He thinks my driving sucks.
Seshafi - Mikkal loves having sex with me, using me. Especially because He knows I don't enjoy sex.
Luke's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy - He gave me a ZhuZhu Pet!!! :) She's so pretty and I love her so much.
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi - He was surprised the first time I called Him Sir, and He loves that I'll have sex with Him any time He asks.
Timmy's Relationship with:
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Assignments to complete tonight
12-3-11
Assignment:
List all personalities and relationships between Master and I.
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Andrew
Kyle
Mikkal
Luke
Timmy
Relationships between all personalities.
12-6-11
Assignment:
Take notes on conversation with Cheshire about Leather. Add comments and critique separately.
12-7-11
Assignment:
Write out protocol detailing what an inspection should cover/be like.
Bonus: Write erotica on inspection.
Assignment:
List all personalities and relationships between Master and I.
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Andrew
Kyle
Mikkal
Luke
Timmy
Relationships between all personalities.
12-6-11
Assignment:
Take notes on conversation with Cheshire about Leather. Add comments and critique separately.
12-7-11
Assignment:
Write out protocol detailing what an inspection should cover/be like.
Bonus: Write erotica on inspection.
Restricted to the room today
He's been working on training me not to toss my kleenex randomly when I'm done with them. This whole week. I was very upset at first, I felt micromanaged and babied. Naw, after it's happened a few times, I realize He's taken it upon Himself to help me get to where I want to be - to make me better- He just didn't tell me first. And He shouldn't have to. I should just obey. That's my job. (Yes, another religious reference to me.)
I'm restricted to my room today. With a few exceptions like food, bathroom, chores.
This morning's "present a toy" protocol ended VERY well. We were both awake, but on our way back to sleep. Susy asked Him to snuggle, and He lifted the blanket so we could. Susy quickly pulled down her pants to her knees, and then scooted in close. He laughed and started humping me, and then pulled down His boxers, as well. Soon we were fucking, kinda. I got so turned on when He grabbed my nipple, and started thinking about last night, I begged Him not to fuck my cunt. He had already started using my cunt, but only to get His dick wet - literally. He fucked me in the ass (I asked because I said "I don't deserve sex") and pulled out on purpose serveral times so He'd have to push it back in and hurt me, and then He dumped His cum into my ass. I was so wet, and He let me come once as well. It was great sex.
After, I suggested that He keep me in a heightened state of humiliation/horny for the rest of the week to remind me of my place as a toy - that His needs come before mine. That He only fuck my ass or face until this weekend.
He seemed to like the idea as He fell asleep, but I don't know if He wants to do it or not. If He does, then I'm not allowed to touch myself either.
-Update. He doesn't remember agreeing to that, so I'm allowed to masturbate! =D *Happy Dance*
inspection soon
I'm restricted to my room today. With a few exceptions like food, bathroom, chores.
This morning's "present a toy" protocol ended VERY well. We were both awake, but on our way back to sleep. Susy asked Him to snuggle, and He lifted the blanket so we could. Susy quickly pulled down her pants to her knees, and then scooted in close. He laughed and started humping me, and then pulled down His boxers, as well. Soon we were fucking, kinda. I got so turned on when He grabbed my nipple, and started thinking about last night, I begged Him not to fuck my cunt. He had already started using my cunt, but only to get His dick wet - literally. He fucked me in the ass (I asked because I said "I don't deserve sex") and pulled out on purpose serveral times so He'd have to push it back in and hurt me, and then He dumped His cum into my ass. I was so wet, and He let me come once as well. It was great sex.
After, I suggested that He keep me in a heightened state of humiliation/horny for the rest of the week to remind me of my place as a toy - that His needs come before mine. That He only fuck my ass or face until this weekend.
He seemed to like the idea as He fell asleep, but I don't know if He wants to do it or not. If He does, then I'm not allowed to touch myself either.
-Update. He doesn't remember agreeing to that, so I'm allowed to masturbate! =D *Happy Dance*
inspection soon
Petition to my Master
I petition my Master that I be allowed to leave the bedroom for the following reasons:
To use the bathroom.
To do laundry or throw away trash
my presense is requested outside of my room
to care for the dogs or do other animal related chores.
to follow orders
to follow protocols
to eat or drink
to make a request of my Master
and He signed it!
To use the bathroom.
To do laundry or throw away trash
my presense is requested outside of my room
to care for the dogs or do other animal related chores.
to follow orders
to follow protocols
to eat or drink
to make a request of my Master
and He signed it!
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
12-7-11 Inspection and Assignment (backposting)
We went to my mom's house today. She wants us to help her move my Nana + moving van THIS weekend. No warning. STRESS! Now it's next weekend instead of this one. hooha.
I'm still some sick. Nose and coughing. And some stomach sick. Food makes me unhappy.
The toy presenting didn't go as planned, but He enjoyed it. If left me horny.
We've been talking about protocol a LOT. He knows to watch for Susy testing His boundaries.
My inspection tonight was intense.
It made me feel vulnerable, property-esque, and surprisingly uncomfortable. It was a HUGE turn-on, but also made me very clingy/needy.
He put me in Position Five on the bed and checked my legs, cunt, and butt. Then Position Two with my arms above my head, and He checked my hair and armpits. I felt so unhuman, like a piece of furniture or an animal. It made me feel like I must Hush, answer only direct questions, and keep my eyes straight ahead or face the wrath. I would really LOVE to keep this intensity for all inspections.
What I wasn't prepared for was the clinginess it put into me. It made me want a very intimate fucking.
Instead, He fingered me, and my ass, and sat me on His face for a quick 69. I was upset, but swallowed anyway after a quick check/reminder that I had no choice. He put me in Position Two beside the bed and we talked in depth about what had happened.
Assignment:
Write out protocol detailing what an inspection should cover/be like.
Bonus: Write erotica on inspection.
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Request of Master:
I would like a restricted day tomorrow.
I would like to be allowed restricted access to the rest of the house, and "grounded" (in a good way) to my room unless using the bathroom/kitchen, on doing housework/laundry.
My intended goal with this restriction is to finish all assignments and clean our bedroom by the days end.
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I had very much hoped for sex with the inspection due to it's intimate nature. Him blowing His load in my mouth was humiliating, He was rubbing my face in (quite literally) the fact that He would not fuck me, and I was only going to be used for Him tonight.
If He had used this right, it could have been a huge turn-on. He isn't into humiliating me, so I didn't like it either. - BUT I could have.
(I'm wet just writing about it... Maybe some day.)
I'm still some sick. Nose and coughing. And some stomach sick. Food makes me unhappy.
The toy presenting didn't go as planned, but He enjoyed it. If left me horny.
We've been talking about protocol a LOT. He knows to watch for Susy testing His boundaries.
My inspection tonight was intense.
It made me feel vulnerable, property-esque, and surprisingly uncomfortable. It was a HUGE turn-on, but also made me very clingy/needy.
He put me in Position Five on the bed and checked my legs, cunt, and butt. Then Position Two with my arms above my head, and He checked my hair and armpits. I felt so unhuman, like a piece of furniture or an animal. It made me feel like I must Hush, answer only direct questions, and keep my eyes straight ahead or face the wrath. I would really LOVE to keep this intensity for all inspections.
What I wasn't prepared for was the clinginess it put into me. It made me want a very intimate fucking.
Instead, He fingered me, and my ass, and sat me on His face for a quick 69. I was upset, but swallowed anyway after a quick check/reminder that I had no choice. He put me in Position Two beside the bed and we talked in depth about what had happened.
Assignment:
Write out protocol detailing what an inspection should cover/be like.
Bonus: Write erotica on inspection.
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Request of Master:
I would like a restricted day tomorrow.
I would like to be allowed restricted access to the rest of the house, and "grounded" (in a good way) to my room unless using the bathroom/kitchen, on doing housework/laundry.
My intended goal with this restriction is to finish all assignments and clean our bedroom by the days end.
______________________________________
I had very much hoped for sex with the inspection due to it's intimate nature. Him blowing His load in my mouth was humiliating, He was rubbing my face in (quite literally) the fact that He would not fuck me, and I was only going to be used for Him tonight.
If He had used this right, it could have been a huge turn-on. He isn't into humiliating me, so I didn't like it either. - BUT I could have.
(I'm wet just writing about it... Maybe some day.)
12-7-11 Protocol
Protocols that have taken effect as of today:
- I will not eat until Master has taken the first bite of food. If we are not eating together, I may eat without Him.
- I will not speak when Master it on the phone with someone else unless He asks me a direct question. This is the same as a temporary "HUSH" and will end when the phone call does.
- I will make Master's coffee every day in His mug, and present it to Him and wish Him a good morning. I will not use Master's Coffee Mug for my self unless instructed to do so.
- Every morning I will present my ass to my Master with a toy for His pleasure. I may choose the toy, but it may not be the same two days in a row. If He deems not to use it, that is His decision, but if He does decide to use the toy I have presented to Him, I will thank Him for playing with/using/abusing me whether I liked it or not.
- Every night before bed, I will submit to a hygiene inspection, and follow His instruction on shaving, washing, and shampooing the next day.
- I will lift the toilet seat when I am done using the toilet. When I am in a women only restroom, I will lift the toilet seat, and then put it back down.
- This reminds me that my Masters needs come before my own.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
12-6-11 Punishment
Punishment:
I forgot Master's PJs last night. He told me I would be punished for it today but not to worry since it wasn't a big mistake, I wouldn't be punished severely. He made me eat the nasty little chicken pieces in my Campbell's chicken noodle soup. It's a tick that I don't eat them, plus I think they're gross. I ate the whole bowl of soup, just like He said. It was a good punishment for what I did, I think. I'm definitely glad it's over though.
I forgot Master's PJs last night. He told me I would be punished for it today but not to worry since it wasn't a big mistake, I wouldn't be punished severely. He made me eat the nasty little chicken pieces in my Campbell's chicken noodle soup. It's a tick that I don't eat them, plus I think they're gross. I ate the whole bowl of soup, just like He said. It was a good punishment for what I did, I think. I'm definitely glad it's over though.
12-6-11 Assignment (backposting)
Assignment:
Take notes on conversation with Cheshire about Leather. Add comments and critique separately.
Miss Jan wants us to start a local MAsT group. (Masters And slaves Together)
-No play parties at MAsT group - I worry about how this would affect our KC group as well.
Chesh is very good at understanding leather, eager to participate.
My stomach is sick all day today. And my nose. I think my stomach is sick from drainage.
I started my toilet seat protocol officially today. When in public restrooms, I am to raise and then put down the toilet seat as a reminder to myself as well.
We bought a toy today. A rubber paddle. Master almost shoplifted it by accident. (Ok ok, He totally had it outside the store for 5 whole minutes before He realized He was still holding it, and ran all the way back to the first store and bought it.)
Starting tomorrow, I present Master with a toy every morning to use on me if He desires. I am allowed to pick the toy! =) (Can't be the same to two days in a row)
----------------------- wrote something embarrassing, on paper and Daddy laughed at me. I was wrong. Emily says I shouldn't have wrote that, but it felt funny and gave me a headache, so I wanted to let my Daddy know. -Susy
Take notes on conversation with Cheshire about Leather. Add comments and critique separately.
Miss Jan wants us to start a local MAsT group. (Masters And slaves Together)
-No play parties at MAsT group - I worry about how this would affect our KC group as well.
Chesh is very good at understanding leather, eager to participate.
My stomach is sick all day today. And my nose. I think my stomach is sick from drainage.
I started my toilet seat protocol officially today. When in public restrooms, I am to raise and then put down the toilet seat as a reminder to myself as well.
We bought a toy today. A rubber paddle. Master almost shoplifted it by accident. (Ok ok, He totally had it outside the store for 5 whole minutes before He realized He was still holding it, and ran all the way back to the first store and bought it.)
Starting tomorrow, I present Master with a toy every morning to use on me if He desires. I am allowed to pick the toy! =) (Can't be the same to two days in a row)
Monday, December 5, 2011
12-5-11 Collar of Protection
Did a lot of work today, Master spoke with Major about a collar of protection, and Major said he would like that. It means when Master isn't around, Major s in charge, kinda. Within my rules and stuff. Also, I played WoW today. One of my achievements won't work, even though I obviously got it several times. It's glitched which really pisses me off. I forgot Master's PJs today when he told me to have them ready for Him, so I still have to be punished for that. Tomorrow, we're meeting Chesh for lunch at IHOP to council him about leather. Major has been blech all day, with random "squirts" of happiness here and there. I've started a game where you touch your nose when you think of sex. It's funny, I keep losing The Game since LFet. Sigh. And I can't stop sneezing today. It's so annoying.
12-5-11 I will not be pissy (backposted)
Last night I was assigned 50 lines of "I will not be pissy." for backtalking. Master understood that I was tired, so He sent me to bed with instructions to complete my lines in the morning and present them to Him. (We also had sex, which was great!)
(Insert 50 handwritten lines here)
(Insert 50 handwritten lines here)
Sunday, December 4, 2011
12-4-11 Home -protocol random and nanowrimo (backposting)
Since we're thinking about doing protocols, it's really been on my mind today and yesterday, and I've realized a
insert random doodle here.
I will lift the toilet seat when I am done using the toilet.
- This reminds me that my Masters needs come before my own.
* I will not speak when Master it on the phone with someone else unless He asks me a direct question. This is the same as a temporary "HUSH" and will end when the phone call does.
* = idea
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NaNaWriMo Expectations:
Bishu
Daily avg of words remaining for time period.
insert random doodle here.
I will lift the toilet seat when I am done using the toilet.
- This reminds me that my Masters needs come before my own.
* I will not speak when Master it on the phone with someone else unless He asks me a direct question. This is the same as a temporary "HUSH" and will end when the phone call does.
* = idea
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NaNaWriMo Expectations:
Bishu
Daily avg of words remaining for time period.
12-4-11 @ Lfet - Awarding Major his Leather Vest (backposted)
We gave Major his leather vest today! I've been keeping it so secret we didn't even blog about it in case he accidentally saw our blog/so if he asked what I was writing about, he wouldn't get suspicious (I don't keep secrets very well).
I finally cried. I've been trying not to since I couldn't at the presentation today. If I had cried then, that was appropriate, but it seemed inappropriate to carry that strong emotional need to cry with me for the rest of the day until I finally had something make me cry, be it pain, anger, or the original happy reason. I feel that is bad, be/cause I will/could be bratty in order to get that cry out.
-What made me cry finally was when Major put all his prized leather possession on a shelf in his room, and then I suddenly realized that he had the cloth he used on my face when he waterboarded me on the shelf with his other important leather memories.-
Master is speaking with Major about putting a collar of protection on me. I'm not completely sure what that entails, so it makes me nervous (I inspired Master to want this by saying that I'm comfortable enough around Major to answer direct questions with "Sir") that I may have just made my life more difficult.
Daddy bought me sexy bee shoes!They're yellow and black striped with a bumble bee button. High heels, but they're comfortable for heels. I love them and was surprised Daddy could afford to buy them for me after getting Major his vest. (The Community chipped in, but IDK how much we ended up paying on it as well.)
We may work on protocols today. The protocol class has made some things that we do a bit more transparent to each other, and we want to work on it while it's still fresh.
I finally cried. I've been trying not to since I couldn't at the presentation today. If I had cried then, that was appropriate, but it seemed inappropriate to carry that strong emotional need to cry with me for the rest of the day until I finally had something make me cry, be it pain, anger, or the original happy reason. I feel that is bad, be/cause I will/could be bratty in order to get that cry out.
-What made me cry finally was when Major put all his prized leather possession on a shelf in his room, and then I suddenly realized that he had the cloth he used on my face when he waterboarded me on the shelf with his other important leather memories.-
Master is speaking with Major about putting a collar of protection on me. I'm not completely sure what that entails, so it makes me nervous (I inspired Master to want this by saying that I'm comfortable enough around Major to answer direct questions with "Sir") that I may have just made my life more difficult.
We may work on protocols today. The protocol class has made some things that we do a bit more transparent to each other, and we want to work on it while it's still fresh.
12-4-11 protocol list, organized (backposting)
NOTE: These are brainstorm ideas, and are not necessarily protocols that I have to follow... yet.
1. Anklet, collar, earrings, rings, or other tokens of submission are to be removed at night by my Master. If I need to remove my ring or collar for any reason, I must quietly say my safeword before doing so, and bring these items to Him to place back on me when the time comes to do so. I will (if home) present these to Him in Position 2 or 3. Exceptions: Do not bring ring after washing hands.
2. I will make Master's coffee every day in His mug, and present it to Him and wish Him a good morning. I will not use Master's Coffee Mug for my self unless instructed to do so.
3. I will put the toilet seat up for my Master evry time I relieve myself.
-Public? At one point I even did this in women's restrooms, if it would please my Master I would very m uch enjoy picking that back up.
4. "Hush" when Master is on the phone with someone else, but answer direct questions.
5. When I finish my blog, I will rub myself sexually and say my Master's names. If around others, I will excuse myself to the restroom to do this. If angry, I will add, "I love You, Master-" in front of His names.
6. When I am allowed to recover form a position, I will thank my Master. This does not have to be elaborate, a simple "Thank You, Sir" (no "Sir" if in public) will suffice.
7. Every night before bed, I will submit to a hygiene inspection, and follow His guidelines on shaving, washing, and shampooing the next day. Every Morning = Make-up, clothing
8. Every morning I will present my ass to my Master with a toy for His pleasure. I may choose the toy, but it may not be the same two days in a row. If He deems not to use it, that is His decision, but if He does decide to use the toy I have presented to Him, I will thank Him for playing with/using/abusing me whether I liked it or not.
1. Anklet, collar, earrings, rings, or other tokens of submission are to be removed at night by my Master. If I need to remove my ring or collar for any reason, I must quietly say my safeword before doing so, and bring these items to Him to place back on me when the time comes to do so. I will (if home) present these to Him in Position 2 or 3. Exceptions: Do not bring ring after washing hands.
2. I will make Master's coffee every day in His mug, and present it to Him and wish Him a good morning. I will not use Master's Coffee Mug for my self unless instructed to do so.
3. I will put the toilet seat up for my Master evry time I relieve myself.
-Public? At one point I even did this in women's restrooms, if it would please my Master I would very m uch enjoy picking that back up.
4. "Hush" when Master is on the phone with someone else, but answer direct questions.
5. When I finish my blog, I will rub myself sexually and say my Master's names. If around others, I will excuse myself to the restroom to do this. If angry, I will add, "I love You, Master-" in front of His names.
6. When I am allowed to recover form a position, I will thank my Master. This does not have to be elaborate, a simple "Thank You, Sir" (no "Sir" if in public) will suffice.
7. Every night before bed, I will submit to a hygiene inspection, and follow His guidelines on shaving, washing, and shampooing the next day. Every Morning = Make-up, clothing
8. Every morning I will present my ass to my Master with a toy for His pleasure. I may choose the toy, but it may not be the same two days in a row. If He deems not to use it, that is His decision, but if He does decide to use the toy I have presented to Him, I will thank Him for playing with/using/abusing me whether I liked it or not.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
12-3-11 @ LFet
So I did resistance play with Dr C last night. A lot of people said it was really good, but he said that he kicked my ass, and I don't really agree with that. I know that I didn't "beat" him by any means, because I don't pin people, but I feel that I succeeded in my goal of not getting pinned completely. I'm a little banged up, but not bad. a few bruises, and a lot of rug-burn but it was so much fun! A lot of people stopped to watch once we were in the dungeon. Before we were in there, we played in the hotel room. C doesn't know about our personalities, but he played with Susy in the room, and Emily in the dungeon. I broke my boots while we were playing, ripped the sole off my shoe. We got me a new pair! They're not "my boots" but they're comfy and sexy. They're black with suede, and there's no heel.
12-3-11 @ Lfet + Assignments
Assignment:
List all personalities and relationships between Master and I.
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Andrew
Kyle
Mikkal
Luke
Timmy
Relationships between all personalities.
List all personalities and relationships between Master and I.
Emily
Phiar
Lauren
Susy
Candy
Blink
Danny
Sydney
Vicki
Melissa
Gin
Seshafi
Andrew
Kyle
Mikkal
Luke
Timmy
Relationships between all personalities.
Friday, December 2, 2011
12-2-11 @ Lfet
Just finished getting suspended by a friend @ lfet and it was so much fun. I got to swing and stuff, was blindfolded the whole time, and found out after I was untied (I was put in a ton of fun positions) that his girl was hog-tied in front of me the whole time. It was so cool, I wish I could have seen it. There will be pics + stuff.
But I was blindfolded, didn't see anything.
I'm supposed to be doing NaNoWriMo while I'm here.
It's in November, but He wants me to do it this month. On Bishu. It's 50,000 words in a month. That's like 1200 words a day. I'm @ Zer0. SiGh. I have no clue wheere to go next with it. He owns her, they know that there is a plot to kill their beloved leader, and they have a body in his court area, a traitor.
But I was blindfolded, didn't see anything.
I'm supposed to be doing NaNoWriMo while I'm here.
It's in November, but He wants me to do it this month. On Bishu. It's 50,000 words in a month. That's like 1200 words a day. I'm @ Zer0. SiGh. I have no clue wheere to go next with it. He owns her, they know that there is a plot to kill their beloved leader, and they have a body in his court area, a traitor.
Thursday, December 1, 2011
12-1-11
Started my period.
I promised Him if He would fuck me RIGHT NOW I will let Him come inside me.
He delivered.
I only promised this because I was very horny, and He'd said "I'll fuck you tonight" and then I found out I was bleeding, and was like "Oh fuck, now I'm not going to get any sex tonight" so I decided ... sex in shower + cum inside me = thorough fucking... and it sure did.
I promised Him if He would fuck me RIGHT NOW I will let Him come inside me.
He delivered.
I only promised this because I was very horny, and He'd said "I'll fuck you tonight" and then I found out I was bleeding, and was like "Oh fuck, now I'm not going to get any sex tonight" so I decided ... sex in shower + cum inside me = thorough fucking... and it sure did.
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