Sometimes I wonder if I should go back to being Me. The way I was before. I want to hurt her, to scare her, to use her, to make her afraid. I want to hold her hostage unless he meets my demands.
None of them are afraid of me anymore. I'm powerless and useless. No one respects me, I'm only an annoyance because I don't submit. I'm an embarrasment, not something to be bragged on. I'm powerless, impotent. I don't make threat because they'd all eb empty, and I don't bluff. I wish I could make him value the time he has with her.
I wish I could have her back, like it used to be.
I could meeet the needs that she has better than he can.
not anymore. I'm only there to be laughed at now. they don't need me anymore.
Danny
Polter
2-12-11
(found on paper, copied on July 30, 2011)
(IHateMe. Why bother? I miss mikkal were doodled on the page)
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