Crazy to do list for the next few weeks etc

Today
Shower
eat a snack
Pack etsy item
Take pictures of minifigures
write etsy item descriptions and publish at least one!
wash dishes
empty and replace bags upstairs trash can
Leave review of ipsy stuff (brown eyeliner was broken)



Later Today
Find a nice craft subscription box for drawing/painting/art
4PM chicken

Bring aprons in from car (laundry)

Phone SIM swap
Dye hair!!! Take before and after pictures!


This Week
Ship etsy item
take pictures of other items for etsy

-Groceries-
Allergy Pills (walmart)
Mycellular Water (walmart)
Special face stuff from mall (Origins. Checks and Balances. Frothy Face Wash)

September
Friday or Saturday - Pay Rob Ross
Buy Rabbit Fur at Tandy!
Visit Nana! Take a plant, painting, and maybe some mini cupcakes
Talk to mom about sending minifigures to her house
Resubscribe to wow? Subscribe to a cool subscription box that I want.
sept 29 - dr visit

WAYYYY Later
Feb 2019 - D&D minifigures arrive at mom's house

Did not know this.

The order of service describes what needs to be done. The rules of service describe who is served first. Most servers will deal with parties with people of different sexes and ages. The rule of thumb is: Start with the guest of honor, if there is one. Then the oldest female. Her order is taken first and she is the first one served if there is no guest of honor. If it is a small party (less than six) then the next person is the second oldest female. All of the females are served in order of their age, ending with the youngest one. The oldest male is served next. Then the men are served, by age. The last person to be served is the host or the person paying the bill. In this day and age, the host is the person who first speaks to the server and begins directing the interaction. Just remember, the host can be a male or female, even in mixed company. If it is a large party, more than six people, or a banquet situation, then the oldest female is the first person served and the next person served is to her immediate left continuing counterclockwise around the table. Also, in a banquet situation, the head table is served first, and the guest of honor is the first person to eat. From the head table, the servers spread out, so those at the rear and back of the space are served last. The other exception to the rule is for booths. If a booth is large enough that two or more people are one side, then the people furthest from the server edge of the table are served first. The server follows the same rules for the inner people—oldest lady to youngest man. Then the outside people—the ones next to the server are next, in the same order of oldest lady to youngest man.

Updates

Today:

Husband took a long trip to AL to visit family due to a family emergency.

My wrists are hurting less than yesterday, and at times not at all.
I washed dishes by hand, and the heat really helped ease the wrist and hand pain
I did some serious homework and typing, and amazingly, only my right wrist was sore afterward.
Gave selah a bath.
Made a delicious pot roast
Swept the kitchen
Walked the dogs x2

Wrist update

so far my wrist feels lots better after getting the shot of cortisomething in it. I hope the swelling reduction takes and doesn't go away.

I probably am using it too much even though I'm trying to take it easy. I've done some light housework and stuff and it feels a little used lol, but the pain is so small compared to what it was just a few days ago, and it's so hard not to use my hand when it hurts so much less!

Well I am very grateful and will keep trying to take it easy until relly gives me the all clear. Will probably do painting or drawing or something but try not to use it too much for those things, until I am allowed to do other stuff like sweeping mopping and making toys, putting away or washing dishes etc.

And I think I will try to ice it more often to maintain the non swelling as well.

Also the air conditioner got fixed today. Hooray for not eighty degrees inside the house!

Date day!

So after my appointment yesterday, Relly Prospect and I had a date day. He took me for ice cream to cold stone (kinda gross actually), then we went to the movies at the theater near my appointment because it was much less crowded than the Charlotte theaters always are and we watched The Hitman's Bodyguard (which was MF fantastic) (decided we definitely want to watch The new Jumanji movie, as it has a great cast that I can't wait to see together, and they all get sucked into a video game, which obviously is an awesome twist for jumanji) and laughed the entire movie because we can't unsee Ryan Reynolds as deadpool. And if you're weird like me, there was a great scene midway through that I'm not going to say anything about other than "mannequins" that was really badass.
Then we went back home, saw a deer in a neighbors yard as we were driving in. We talked to it and it walked closer to the car and then there was a deer in our backyard as well when we got home.
Went back out again for ice cream from a grocery store this time, and on the way home stopped by a grand opening for a local ice cream shop. They told us to come back at 6 when they opened and Relly gave them the biggest saddest pout ever. I think the woman's heart broke a little that she couldn't give him ice cream right away.
So we went to the gaming store a bought a couple of surprise packs of Minifigures and drooled over dice.
Then we went to a couple random stores because we went the wrong way of 485 and decided to wait out the traffic a little. I used my superpower for finding things and directed my husband to something he's been wanting to buy but can never find. Then back home.
I had forgotten about the ice cream store and he took me back there. It was so crowded but when we got to the counter we had no one behind us and got to take our time and really enjoy the experience (they had ginger ice cream. It was surprisingly good. And honey vanilla, as good as it sounds. And I got iced hot cocoa ice cream which was more like dark chocolate and was exactly what I'd been craving all day.) Relly got the Hawaiian roll Panini pressed ice cream sandwich. He got honey vanilla ice cream, with chocolate syrup and Oreos in the middle. It was warm and sweet on the outside and cold and honey chocolate deliciousness on the inside.
Then we went home and took a break for a bit, (he went and picked up some food) and watched critical roll together when it came on live. It was hilarious.

What a great night. And a fun day. And a great adventure.
By the end of the day I felt like we had conquered the world together.

Oh and in the tradition of our planned dates together, the air conditioner broke sometime yesterday, and the entire house has been 78+ degrees since we got home.  (This happened at our date night at tlc a few years back, too.)

What a great adventure! Thanks again Relly!

Sometimes, it's ok to take time for yourself.

yesterday morning, after my Master left the house for school, I looked at my to do list, namely the part promising myself I would write another sincere and interesting thoughtful blog (isn't it funny how people always act strange when I blog in my notebook before posting it here?) and I took a deep breath, and told myself "it's ok."
I didn't sleep well that night, and I wanted a nap. But I had to fight myself to make sure I didn't get absorbed into what I had said I would accomplish when I assumed I would get a decent amount of sleep.
So I guess what I am saying, is that sometimes, it's ok to rest, to take time to heal, to take time for yourself when you need- a nap.

Sometimes it's ok to take a nap.

slave mind

What has been on my mind lately, and it's so hard to find someone to talk to who understands what I'm trying to say, because it's very hard for me to even really figure out the right words for it t o begin with, is how disadvantaged I feel as a slave, with this... injury?

My daily routine has always been very important to me. My chores, and tasks and achievements are how I give value to my slavery.

I love my Master, and I love him so fiercely that I feel the constant need to do things to show him how much I love him, how much I think he deserves as my husband and Master.

But I've always been driven to do this. To prove it.
Maybe it's from my mother, but maybe it's just me.

I don't sit still well. I'm still learning that. And I am learning that. Against my will right now, but still, I feel like that is my lesson. To exist, calmly.

It's hard! I panic when I do nothing. I think too much about things that don't matter when I'm not busy. I panic that he will think I'm lazy if I relax, if I sit while he works. I feel lazy if someone else is working while I'm not.

And if I can't do things, how will he know that I love him? If I can't serve, how can I serve? I place value in the actions I do, and if I don't do them, how can I be valuable? And if I have no value, how am I a slave?

Obviously talking like this is going to get me yelled at, but these are the thoughts that bother me, that eat at me when I sit still. And it's important that I figure it out so that I can help others learn to cope.

Coping.
My first thought is find something else that I can do to replace the things I can't, and do that to the best of my ability. But that's just changing the actions for other actions, and I'm supposed to rest, to heal.

Druid mind

laurel.
As I was falling asleep the other night, I told myself if I couldn't fall asleep I would just roll another character. Another one. That I can play? And it occurred to me that I could do the same thing I do for wow and mentally assign them based on personality. So, Druid, healer, very quiet and knows things. Lauren. And it helps the naming process.

Now obviously I have to add in a lot more outgoing, more visibly confident, in attitude.

Laurel (think of a last name) the female wood elf Druid is quiet unless she thinks her opinion is needed, book knowledge is interesting, but she prefers the real thing, but likes writing down what she learns especially the unique details others might not think important.

For eighty years she has wandered and studied and hunted and gathered in the woods surrounding her tribe and home, but now she is ready to go out and explore, and feels certain she can take care of herself in any terrain she finds herself. The urge to see the rest of the world and hear the pulse of nature from another perspective is a driving force.

She has seen firsthand how overusing resources can affect the entire area, and is strongly opposed to waste. She knows how to find a meal out of what is around without taking life if game is sparse, because the next season is important too. But thinning out a herd doesn't bother her, as grazing land can become scarce as well.

Every so often, members of the tribe would go off into the woods at night, and yell and scream and turn into animals, and have a great time. It was a way of blowing off steam, and they would always be a dirty mess when they came back, tired and sore.
Maybe she thought they were cursed, and maybe it was an orgy? Or just enjoying nature as an animal. I dunno. Maybe  I'll explore this a little more later.

What day of the week is it? Restaurant Choices

So my husband and I are having our regular argument / discussion about where to eat. It occurred to me that a good way to handle this discussion when both of us are hungry, irritable, and not quick of mind, since we are, as aforementioned, hungry.  Where was I? Oh, a possible help/discussion enabler.
My favorite thing ever, a list.  A list of places we like to eat.

The pizza place. Etzio's
Other pizza place, The Pizza Oven (beside the BBQ place)
Any other pizza place. Dominos, Pizza Hut, etc

BBQ
Dickies
The Pig, beside fresh market
That Place Matt Worked
The BBQ place with awful BBQ and good cheesy grits

Asian
The Chinese Place, The Runs.
The Asian place beside the Chinese place, Sushi-O's
That Awful "Authentic" Asian Place Matt likes

IHOP
Denny's
Waffle House

Subway
Not Subway, sub shop
The Fireman Subway

Five Dudes w Burgers
McDonald's
Wendy's
Arby's
Taco Belle

Applebees, no wait, Chili's

Dream

night before last I dreamed that I scened(ish) with Geoff. I kind of cuddled up to him in bed and he  hurt me some with pressure points and pinched me and stuff.
And then my roommate, rainbow, got mad because I was supposed to make out with and have sex with her, and be sadistic for her. I'd gone ahead and played because she was late coming back to the room to meet me.
And there was a massage room with lots of sexy naked women in it.
And Geoff helped me dye my hair red with a spray bottle of koolaid.

Last night.
There is a game shop, and upstairs they play d and d. It was the critical roll crew and a bunch of their friends. And they were going to let us play with them. We went there twice, mostly setting up characters and getting to know everyone. Cuz they had a hang out lounge too.
Leaving one night I realized they had a poster up. It was 2 1/2, maybe 3 ft wide and 1 1/2 ft tall. I stop to take a look at it because it catches my eye.
In the poster, I was laying on my back, naked, on this sexy red velvet chaise (?) lounge, kind of sitting up, with a blindfold on and duct tape on my mouth. You could tell that I was naked but you couldn't see anything because there was this hot girl on her hands and knees over my legs leaning in and kissing me over the duct tape.
In the dream I remembered the event as a birthday present from my Master, but I didn't know that anyone else from the club had participated. So I stop, go back upstairs into the hang out area, because she's there, and she's sitting between two guys, they're smoking cigars. I don't remember what I say, but she responds basically letting me know she is interested, and I step over the coffee table in between us, and take her chin in my hand, and kiss her. It quickly turns into a much longer deeper kiss than I had expected, as she is really good at it and super interested in me. It was fantastic.


Also in this dream, a guy comes in and says he knows us and wants to play dnd here. They let him up and I say sorry to the dnd group because he's been kicked out of another local dnd club for stuff. They say don't worry, we've got this.

And also  in a separate dream there's this gorgeous graveyard and in it there are these arches under the back of the church. I go to look at them and there is a blue and black spider really high up, and he starts throwing himself at me with his webbing and ruining his web and I try to get away and he keeps chasing me. In the air with Spider-Man moves, throwing string after string at stuff to get closer.


Why am I having crazy dreams? I think it's the vitamins. Because last time I started taking them regularly I had vivid dreams for a week or so.
Doesn't help that I really want sex.

Grocery and other stuff list

coffee
Half and half
Dog chews
Dog treats
Scott toilet paper
Deodorant trial size, women's
Hay for dusty
Bottled water
Tampons
Boxers

Chicken Caesar salad
Whole chicken
Lettuce
Dressing
Parmesan cheese
-veggies
 Cucumber
 Tomato
 Onion
 Mushroom

Hot sauce chicken
Frozen or fresh chicken breast/fillets
Red hot wing sauce
Canned corn
Tortilla Chips
Tortillas
Ranch dressing

Grilled cheese w broccoli
Thick sandwich bread
Cheese
Frozen broccoli florets
Butter

Cereal
Milk
Chicken ramen
Other ramen
Pierogies

Pork chops


Pot roast
Potatoes
Carrots
Onion
Seasoning
Pepperoncini peppers

Snacks for d and d
Caffeine free Diet Coke
Trash bags
Bottled water