Matt, for bitching forever about the drive and then not going to mast.
Resolved, I put frowny face sticky notes all over his room, and am not angry anymore.
Song and red, for not showing up to mast. Wasn't frustrated before, but when I see online that song was sending red to a pay for entry play party the night before and she was making cheese dip, and they couldn't be bothered to let us know they wouldn't make it, and then red was on Fetlife commenting on pictures around 8 PM while we were all at Mast... Ugh, a lot of ways it could be explained and not be annoying, but honestly... Yeah I'm annoyed, even if it's not my business. I wish they would have at least let us know they weren't going.
D. I am really frustrated/pissed about this. Honestly I feel a little betrayed. D used to be all about my toys, seemed to like us, wanted to hang out, wanted to talk all the time, committed to do things with us. I am talking about LHC. I told her that I was looking for people I could count on, that last year everyone cancelled on me, and it was important that I have someone there who would be able to listen to me and follow directions... And she said she would be there. But when we told her she couldn't stay in our room, suddenly things got complicated and she had a bunch of reasons she couldn't go. Then it turned to a maybe when she was way too drunk and had tried to push my limits already that night. Now she can't go, at all, and I am just supposed to be ok with it. Because the first thing she did was say "are you mad at me?" With the I'm going to cry and be a little kid while I ask instead of an adult so you're stuck comforting me for letting you down and betraying your trust look all over her face... While I am alone with her so I have no back up to say, you know, I am fucking pissed. You said X and now you are backing out of a commitment that you promised months ago to fulfil.
And she was all friendly and never ending text messages and comments on my Fetlife business page and encouragement. But I guess I didn't meet her expectations of friendship. I asked her not to call me Emmy anymore, and ... Pfft.
She asked me to make her a toy with a certain bottle cap to certain specifications, length etc, and I made this toy. I knew how long it would take to make it, and she said she wouldn't be able to pay until MAsT in August- so I didn't waste time on it. Until she saw me working on other things I wanted to do, and she started asking about her toy, and seemed a lil upset that I was putting it off. So even though I knew she wouldn't have the money for it at the munch, I put in the extra hours to make her toy before the munch even though I had 2 other toys I had to have ready for another order that same day. And then we go to Mast and she doesn't show up or let me know she won't be there, so I am stuck carrying this toy around AGAIN. For no money.
I hate having toys in the car waiting for someone who said they wanted the toy to actually pay me for it. Or show up to an event to pick it up.
Last munch I had
2 floggers for chille
1 flogger for song
2 floggers for smoke
1 flogger for dev
IN ORDERS! 6 floggers for people. Next month I am still going to be taking 3 of those floggers to the munch in case the people who have promised to pay me actually show up (with money this time).
It isn't just Devalon. This is my fucking business, and I feel like people are acting like I should cater to their every whim, and just be all oh no it's fine, pay when you can, or not, I'll hold this toy forever for you, it's not like I put my hard fucking work into it! It's not like I made your toy when I could have been making toys I'm actually able to sell for real, NOW, money... You know, money. Not the promise of money in the future, just good plain old cash. That's what I want. Promises are useless if I'm the only one keeping them.
And smoke, if you ask me another stupid question, or ask people to make my toys instead of something they actually make, or try to get me to design something only you can have, or give you MY bottle caps to put on your toy or someone else's.... I'm going to put fucking lead paint and sharpened nails in your next flogger. It's my fucking trademark, the minecraft sword is MY ORIGINAL DESIGN and you shouldn't ask someone else to make it, it's fucking tasteless, ask them for one of their toys if you want to support a variety of local crafters... And if you don't like their shit, don't fucking buy it! Don't ask them to make my shit. That's disrespectful to BOTH OF US! You're telling them their toys aren't good enough, but for some reason you don't want to buy it from me.
Show up to the things you say you will, keep your fucking commitments, pay your bills, and don't make knockoffs of other people's stuff. Fucking simple. Oh, and if you can't make it and have arranged to pay someone at the event you can't make it to, get off your ass and send a simple text message instead of standing them up! Dickheads.
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