Lot of work today. The MAsT picnic at the park is tomorrow, and we had to do all of our housecleaning today for the meeting after the picnic.

We didn't fight as much as normal, we had sex before we started cleaning (my butt is bleeding! :D ) And it was really good. He prepped me with 3 or 4 different anal toys before we started having sex. He also fucked me with the biggest plug still in my ass. It hurt really bad but then He reminded me that I've told Him I get the most turned on when i'm hurting bad - and He was right and just the fact that he was hurting me that much on purpose turned me on more. (Also there was a position change around that time that also lessened the pain a bit, but i was almost hoping for it to come back, because I knew He was really enjoying it.)

We watched Colombo together, followed by Robot Chicken. I really don't like that show, but that's because  there are still some weird things out there that I don't like to admit... that they turn me on sometimes. It left me wistfully hoping for torture-y humiliation/being told to do something that will hurt or embarrass me purely for my Master's entertainment. But when those moods hit, I can't really very well *ask* for something- It puts Him on the spot and also opens up the floor for an argument, disappointment, or for me to be totally repulsed and not the slightest turned on by what He decides to do, and then I just go to bed disillusioned, or at least that's what I imagine would happen. Also, I really don't want to do anything public, at least not until we really understand each other a little better. Because if He tells me to do something I am completely NOT OK with, I'm going to resent Him, and He'll feel like i'm taking away His authority by saying no, or if I do it, He'll say I should be grateful because it's what I asked for, and He'll feel like I owe Him, and I'll feel like He's a complete jerk.  It's really hard to turn these types of fantasy into reality without a lot of things getting lost in translation. There are certain people i couldn't stand to be humiliated in front of, or some people I just don't want certain things to happen, or they make me uncomfortable in weird ways, so I imagine it would be nearly impossible to maintain those boundaries without someone getting upset in some way. blah.

Well, I think I'm getting a shower now, in case I have to wear shorts tomorrow, I want to have my legs shaved. :) and I'll probably do my nails tonight in case I don't have time tomorrow.  Well, i can take off the nail polish, but I don't think i have any in my bedroom, and I'm confined until morning, now.