Daily journal

Yesterday Copied over from my chore book that i keep.

Masturbated according to standing order (4-28)

Within 10 minutes of cleanup/finishing, master came in and had sex with me.

Fantasy --> Spreader bar under my knees. Master lifted up the pole and put it behind my head. He edged me, and threatened anal sex because of the position this put me in.

Sex---> Master instructed me to lay on my back knees up and apart, hands palm down in the bed. I'm scared He'll hurt me. "It doesn't matter. i own you and I'll do what I want anyway." He looks me over while He decides if/what He wants. That really frightens me. He kisses my feet and rubs on them. "Don't look" He fucks me. I beg to come. Eventually He lets me. Then He anal fucks me. Dry at first. He keeps telling me to be quiet. After He spits on me for lube, I start to enjoy the anal. He spits in my mouth when I come. He makes me come repeatedly until He comes.

He calls me a slut and doesn't let me look at Him.
He spits in my mouth when i open it to scream.

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Masturbated according to standing order 4-29
Clothespins, duct tape, towel over my face (if I'm looking around I can't get into it) but not my nose or mouth.
Fantasized random things.
Drowning, having cum poured up my nose, an old man cranking up a fucking machine while I'm strapped down to a table, and then propping his feet up and reading a book while I scream and beg for him to stop. Taping my mouth so he can go back to his book.