Beautiful

I remember that first thing I said that started to explain what I was asking for. I was trying so hard to explain what I needed and susy came out, and threw up her hands and said, "I don't want to be a person right now!" And it was a sort of tantrum, but it made sense to him somehow. And he took the leash for sela away from me and I followed him like an extra puppy that didn't need a leash. 

And I said today that I wanted humiliation play, and that helped too I think. 

And he hurt me and he got me off and then I was so sensitive I didn't want him inside my pussy and that hasn't happened before and that when he put it in my butt. And it hurt. It hurt a lot more than normal and than I expected. And he had to pull out and start over to give me a second it hurt so much.  

And then after letting me think he was going to help, he locked me down farther so I couldn't get away, and put the pillow over my face and fucked me harder and it still hurt a lot and deeply. 

And he told me good girl when I told him this was what I wanted. He said it over and over while the pillow was over my face and I was screaming, or when he was working his way deeper.

And he told me to touch him after he put me in hush, told me to touch him once it started to feel good, and when I did, he said he was going to cum, and he did.

And he pulled the pillow off my face and it took me a minute to look at him. I had to breathe, I had to find my way back out of my head, I had to realize I was not moving. And I turned my head and looked at him and didn't really see him, but he said "there she is!" And called me beautiful and good girl and broken and torn up or worn out or torn apart, something, and said I was so beautiful and I did it for him and I smiled in his direction, I couldn't stop smiling. It felt so right and lovely and I needed to sit on the toilet and breathe and just blink a few times. And I did, and somehow the first thing I really noticed after was the smell of his cum, and I love that smell. And I love my master, who owns my attitude, my body, and somehow my will. I do the most wonderful things for him. I love it.