Livid.

We just got home for the weekend from the TLC run, and Lily texted him that she's angry with him and they need to talk about it. And now he's been on the phone for half an hour (only 27 minutes!) and doesn't see any issue with this.

They have plans to do things together later. Not set in stone, maybe, but to actually do things. Minions movie. He made her a minion basket. 

And he promised me something as well. 

But he left me to unpack the car alone so that he could talk to her about whatever her latest issue is. 

I have been working my ass off today and honestly I wanted to have time with him. I was disappointed when we got home so quickly. I was disappointed when he decided to call her while we were having a conversation to discuss things about what was going on with us and her. I wanted him to be around me when I couldn't get him to leave the room full of people after we all went to Tori's room. I didn't mind that every time we went outside, Lily came with us. I like her. But these things happening was with the expectation that I would not have to be around anyone but him, or share him with anyone else once we left to come home. I let go of what I wanted or needed because it made him happy. 

I am tired of Lily needing to talk to him every day or every few hours or when I am sick and wanted him to come take care of me and instead she made a big deal of needing someone to blow smoke at her to cheer her up. Because then he did. And I keep bending over and saying, "no, that's ok." 

I am not ok with it this time. We are home now, and it is not Lily time any more. I don't want him to fix some issue that apparently happened within a 30 second phone call with a 30+ minute conversation that then has to be "discussed" with me. I feel like she keeps having issues that are non issues and should take less than five minutes to fix, but he is spending hours resolving these imaginary issues. I am not spending an hour tonight to talk about her. Not ok.

I understand that he wouldn't have slept in bed with me tonight. But having help unpacking the car, putting things away, having him take off my collar and give me my protocol on time, and showing him that our bed in the bedroom was made... Meant a lot to me. 

I will not talk about Lily tonight. We stayed hours longer than I was comfortable with so that he could have extra time with her. I do not have to give her any more of my time or energy today. I am done with anyone but my Master today, and I shouldn't have to explain or justify that I need him.