cope

I found out today that my Nana had a mini-stroke earlier this week.
Last night or sometime today she started getting confused.

I was home alone when i found out.
My mother is pressuring me to go visit as soon as possible.

For myself, I need to take some time. I need to make it to Monday, when Master gets home.

I will not go and "spend a few days" at my mother's house without my support. I will not put myself in that position.  As Master said, I am NOT her slave.

I will fall back on my standing orders and use that structure to cope.

I will do mindless cutting of strips and making of leather flogger corsets until I am calm. And then, I will make more.

I am a good girl. This is not my fault.I do not need to feel guilty -- I will not feel guilty for this.

Time to go make some floggers.