Something has to change

It takes me hours to get ready for the day in the mornings. I have more than one list to go over to make sure I do all the stuff I'm supposed to do every day. 

I have 3 different "sets" of morning pills to take, I have to unbraid, brush, and re-braid my hair, put on all my jewelry, get dressed, do some bathroom stuff. I often try to make myself tea in the mornings. If I finish making it, it is cold before I take a sip (it's too hot and if I set it down, it's too cold the next time I remember it). 

Then I walk both the dogs (90 minutes if I don't take a break in between) 

Then I make coffee and wake up my Master (1 PM is the goal most days) and bring his pills and orange juice. 

Then it's time for us to eat, and usually I'm exhausted and we might end up skipping food, (and if we skip food, he will feel sick by 4 pm) 

My morning is the worst. It's impossible to get myself up and moving, and "doing the things". I will sleep through my first few alarms, which I set at 9,10, and 11 AM. Then I push the blinds open so the sun is up, turn on my heater, and music to try and wake myself up. 

I might start out ok. I will get up and try to push through my tasks, take my first dose of meds etc, and wash my face, but at some point I have to use the bathroom, and I always pick up my phone. And the moment I pick up my phone, I am just completely unable to put it down. I can't disengage from it to get the other shit done. So I will spend 20 minutes between each of the 100 tasks I have on my phone trying to get through the games I am playing (on both of them) and also to talk to N, because she only really talks to me from 10AM-3PM or so.  

If she is around and talking, I can't do ANYTHING else. She types very fast, and asks questions a lot, and if I don't answer quickly, she will sometimes ask if I'm upset with her. And my phone is having issues giving notifications, so if I put my phone down, I might forget to answer, and then she gets very upset because she is afraid I'm angry.   I want to talk to her, but I also feel like I HAVE TO talk to her.   When she is talking to me, I can't even play hearthstone. 

So... Not only do I have ADHD and get distracted very easily, I am also unable to put my phone away to get the things I need to do accomplished, because I have someone who relies on me to be available for her- which means when she isn't talking to me, I go back to my phone games and find it very difficult to put the phone down and do any of the things I have to do before I can have my actual day. 

Ideally, I would walk the dogs three times a day, eat breakfast and play hearthstone while drinking my tea after walking them in the early morning. Write out my to do list for the day. Work on leather, or writing, or painting.... something.. and also get some housework done. All before I wake up Relly for the day.   But I can't make myself get out of bed. I can't keep from picking up the phones. I have "urgent but not important" phone games to do. And even if I don't enjoy them, I feel obligated to DO them. and its what I settle into when I sit down, too. If I'm "taking a break" I'm actually on two phones trying to play two games at a time on each. It's really not relaxing and I never feel like I'm done with it. But I don't know how to fix it. I feel like I have to play, because our friend Alex is the guildmaster. and Relly never plays anymore so I am trying to finish events on both accounts and meet minimum bounty requirements (Shop Titans) and also do officer stuff that Alex wants "everyone" to do, like calling out good things people do in the guild like investing etc. And taking screenshots and posting them of event ranking in the guild.  It's a fucking ton. And I am also trying to do Pokemon Go, too. And keep N and R up to date on events and complete times quests and .... 

And I'm in the Vine program which is amazing but getting all the reviews in has been really difficult lately.