Rolled all cut leather pieces, now have bottle caps too. Tomorrow, corsets.
It's 9 pm and the first time I've seen Matt today. And he's apparently going straight back to bed after this cigarette. Whatever. Probably a good thing with the emotions I e been dealing with today.
Emotions. Anger, frustration, self loathing, despair, the feeling that I will never do anything good, overwhelming urge to clean, and then sadness, crying, and longing for my Husband, Master and Daddy.
My hair is gross so I'm getting a shower.
I feel like I wasted my last few hours of the day, but I was eating snacks. A lot of snacks. Walnuts, ice cream, yogurt. Before that, lunch was tuna, and a protein shake. And waffles with Nutella, tea, and a glass of orange juice. I don't know if I'm hungry or bored or stressed or what.
I really wanted to do the corsets today, but I can't decide what color to make them. Probably something boring, like black. On all of them.
I replaced my box of stuffed animals. It overflowed the container I had for it so I put the extra ones in a bag in the bedroom. It made me sad. So many stuffed animals and so many memories. I dread packing the ones in the bedroom. The black clothes that I used to hide so that major wouldn't use them against me, the same as the ones from the waterboarding scene, they were in the bottom of the box. It hurt.
I packed all the wood into one of my pink business totes. It made sense, it is a durable box with wheels and it's the only thing long enough for some of the pieces. It will be heavy but easy to be carried by two people.
I'm wondering if penny peed in the bathroom floor because I took sela out first, two days in a row. Maybe she was so excited she couldn't hold it.
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